My After Life

Originally Penned by : Stephanie Gonzalez

Adopted, Reworked & Continued by : Lost Betwixt Worlds

Disclaimer: Neither Stephanie or I own the world of Twilight or the characters contained therein.

That doesn't mean we can't screw with them though ( um mm I think that came out wrong .)

Oh hell I'm sure you get the point no matter which way you take it.

Chapter 7 : Not So Innocent Admiration

Jasper and I left the next morning for Alaska wrapped in an awkward silence.

It did not end once we reached the house and hours passed by. I found it difficult to speak with Jasper while I was having extremely unruly and naughty thoughts him.

I'm with Edward. I married him and I love him. I kept reminding myself of this and chanted it like a life saving mantra.

I needed to distract myself from thinking of the possibility that something could happen between Jasper and I.

It sure as hell was NOT an easy task to accomplish let me tell you.

The house was extremely large and grand and surrounded by dozens of acres.

There was a black shiny baby grand piano and I sat down to play. Edward had taught me to play shortly after I woke from my conversion. It didn't take long for me to learn.

I settled my fingers gently upon the keys and simply played, although I honestly had no clue what I was playing.

As time passed, I found myself staring blankly out the window to the forest that lay beyond.

There was nothing but pure silence and I briefly wondered if Jasper had gone hunting.

What could he possibly be thinking ? I knew he felt my confused emotions earlier.

I searched around for something else to distract myself with as I could barely think straight.

I had yet to discover what Jasper and Edward argued about the night before and Edward had managed to avoid being alone with me, negating the chance of talking to him about it.

As I absently ran my hand down the staircase banister I felt Jasper come up behind me.

He stared at me for a moment and then quickly escaped from my view as he ran into the next room.

Had he sensed the undeniable and awkward feelings that I was having for him?

It was difficult to explain it even to myself. I tried to focus on thinking about Edward, but anytime Jasper came into the room it was hard to concentrate on anything but him.

Whether it was admiring how devastatingly handsome he was or thinking how good he looked in whatever it was he was wearing at that moment , I could not get him off my mind.

I was unsure about what to do. The whole situation back in Forks was a fiasco and I highly doubted that I could deal with the pain of returning to school any time soon.

I missed my daughter and Jacob.

Jacob had with my consent, taken Nessie to some sort of traditional wolf gathering party in Idaho. So now I was alone, in an enormous house with only Jasper to keep me company.

After another round of arguing with myself, I finally decided to stop avoiding him and deal with my stupidity.

I followed Jasper's sweet honey like scent up to the room he usually shared with Alice. Standing before his door I knocked softly.

Before I had a chance to register what was happening, I found myself yanked into Jasper's embrace with his lips crashing down on mine.

His lips were so very sweet and luscious. They held the promise of lasting pleasure and for a moment I was completely unsure of what to do.

I did the only thing I really wanted to do and gave myself over to the feeling. Without stopping the kiss, I snaked my arms up and wrapped them around his neck. He pinned me to the wall and when he swiped his tongue across my bottom lip, I granted him access to my mouth .

I couldn't think straight let alone control my actions.

What the hell was I doing ? This is Jasper, the man I call brother. My best friend's husband. This was wrong on so many levels. I can't do this. I can't betray my husband or Alice.

Realization hit me like an out of control freight train.

Oh God what if Alice saw this, saw us. Edward will see it in her mind and he would rip Jasper apart.

I stopped the kiss and yanking myself from Jasper's embrace I bolted from the room and from the house.

I had gone to Jasper with the intention of having a friendly conversation, only to end up in a make out session.

Crap ! I was screwed three ways to Sunday. Way to go Bella.

It suddenly dawned on me that I had been crushing on Jasper for the last few days. I had wanted him to kiss me. Without actually intending it, I had been shielding both mine and Jaspers thoughts from Edward, making it highly unlikelyhe knew about us.

"Bella ?" called Jasper

Oh God what must he think of me ?

I turned around and faced him.

" I'm sorry Jasper....for running out like that."

He shook his head "No Bella....shhh darlin I thought this was what you wanted." He placed his hand in mine. "This is what you've been feelin sugar."

Jasper pulled me closer. " Isabella" he said lightly as he leaned forward " I feel the exact same way about you."

I felt his warm breath across my face.

I should have backed away. I should have argued that this was wrong, that I loved Edward and he loved Alice.

I should have but I didn't.

Instead I let him press his lips to mine and gave myself up to the pleasure of it.

Without hesitation he lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. We settled into this position as he ran us back to the house.

Paying scant attention to speed, we were back at the house in a matter of seconds. Jasper carried me to the second floor and opened the door to an unused room.

He laid me on the soft white bed which was more for show than anything else considering we never slept.

Jasper lay atop me planting kisses up and down my neck. When he reached my breasts he stopped and looked up at me waiting for my response.

" Bella I'm sorry. I know we shouldn't do this but I....I can't help myself." he skimmed his fingers along my arm.

" You are so beautiful and I want this so bad. I have waited for so long."

Jasper was all I wanted at this very moment. We were here together and he felt the same way I did.

" Yes Jasper." I stated as I looked in his eyes. " Yes."

I pulled his lips back up to mine.

Ever so gently he stroked his hand over my breast and down my stomach till he reached my thighs.

With no warning he ripped my clothes from my body shredding them in the process.

I was surprised to see how eager Jasper was for this.

It felt right being in Jasper's arms as he filled me a passion neither one of us could deny. Right then and there I realized that I was in love with Jasper and nothing would stop us now.

He removed his clothes and I marveled at how breathtaking he was.

Tilting my hips Jasper slid into me until he could go no further.

" I love you Bella." he moaned as he slowly pulled out and then slammed into me with such force I was sure that had I still been human there may very possibly have been a myriad of bruises and broken bones.

Jasper and I moaned as he set a grueling pace, slamming into me over and over. He rolled over and I found myself on top riding him with fervor.

As I climaxed again and again, the realization of what we were doing hit me.

I was in bed, naked and making love to Jasper. He was aggressive yet gentle at the same time.

I kissed him in every possible place that I could find.

Our lovemaking lasted for hours and when the sun rose, it's rays bounced off our bodies and we lay there in bed sparkling as we slowly came down from our bliss induced high.