They didn´t let me return to Jacob. It was like an unsaid rule that I couldn´t leave the house. They kept lingering around me, always keeping an eye on me. I learned the names of the family bit by bit. There was Emmett his significant other Rosalie. Then you had Jasper and Alice, which both had an ability. Jasper could influence people´s emotions and Alice could foresee the future in some way. I didn´t asked her, but I wondered why she didn´t saw me coming. The parents of the unregulated mess were Esme and Carlisle. Then you had Edward, my biological father, which seemed to never be around. He seemed to do everything in his power to avoid any contact with me.

Hours passed since I found out this truth in this house. It was already passed midnight. Jacob should be home be now. I was nervous because I knew the confrontation would come sooner or later. How was I to tell him that I was the thing he hated most. The daughter of the girl he loved. And well that I was only six. The girls felt my anxiety and tried to start a conversation with me, I felt not the need to elaborate. I didn´t even knew what my place was, so I sat in the kitchen trying to avoid as much contact as I could. I never wanted this to happen, my life was so much more complicated right now.
Esme came to find me, with Emmett right behind her. She told me they fixed up a room for me. Esme who was beaming all over the place showed me the room with enthusiasm. I wondered how they were able to do all this in such a short amount of time.

`do you like it?" she asked. I just nodded and tried to give her a smile. I didn't really know what to think of this. I felt like I was locked up in a prison of luxuriance. I closed the door behind them, telling them that I wanted to get some sleep. More lies, I sat down on the bed. I didn't even know how to feel. Was I supposed to feel happy because I was a part of a family now, was I supposed to be sad that I wouldn't see Jacob anymore, or was I supposed to be mad because both didn't want me and both tried to kill me when I was just a baby. I sat there doing nothing until I heard his car. I recognized the sound of his footsteps. They probably called him. I rushed to the mirror and brushed my hair trying to look a little bit okay. I stumbled out of my door and ran downstairs. Carlisle and Jacob were arguing in the hallway. It was needless to say he was angry.

"Jacob please calm down"

"Calm down? You people take everything that is beautiful and pure and turn it in something horrible." He screamed. I stopped halfway on the stairs, I was too afraid to let them know I was there. He brought all my bags with him, this wasn't a good sign.

"She is still the same girl" Carlisle tried to reason.

"Still the same girl? I know nothing of her. All she did was lie to me." He growled.

"Jacob.." I whispered. They both looked up. I kept staring at Jacob, he clutched his jaw when he saw me.

"Can we please talk?" I begged while I walked down two more steps.

"Ruby… Renesmee whoever you are" He said with an icecold voice "We have nothing to talk about" he said. We maintained eyecontact for a few more seconds before he shook his head. He turned around and left, not even looking back one more time. He just closed the door and didn't came back. Carlisle's eyes found mine, his eyes full of pity he stared at me. I just turned around and fled back to my room. I locked the door and fell on my bed. I cried in my pillow, I cried and cried until my body was dehydrated and the tears dried up. Everything made me think of him. The stars that looked over me right now, sleeping in his arms. And most of all the disgusted look he gave me when he walked out of the door.

He had been my first everything. My first real friend, my first lover and my first home. I wandered how it would have been when I never would have getting in that car. Or if I never went into the woods and met Emmett that day. But on the other hand then I would never met my family.
They knocked so many times I lost count. I didn't responded and never opened the door. I wanted everyone to go away, I didn't want their sympathy. I just wanted that they didn't made my life so complicated. In the morning I wasn't able to cry anymore, I stood up and brushed my teeth. The reflection in the mirror stared at me like an old friend. I looked horrible, but I've seen worse. Living on the street wasn't easy either. When I walked downstairs eyes followed me everywhere. I tried to ignore all of them. I walked to the kitchen and tried to find something eatable. But there was nothing, the only thing they had was coffee and tea. So I made myself a cup of coffee. I sat down on the couch and fought with the remote. The stupid television didn't seemed to work like I wanted it to.

"Here let me help you" The blond female popped up from behind me. She grabbed the remote control out of my hand and pressed some buttons. To make it even worse she put up the Disney channel.

"I heard you crying last night" She mumbled. "That filthy dog isn't worth it"

"What?" I hissed.

"He is just a stupid Dog, he isn't worth the trouble. Be glad he is gone" With those words she just hit a sore spot.

"Be glad? Do I look glad" I said while I jumped up "He was my friend, he took care of me. He was the first person to give me a home. Made me feel special" I said while me eyes were tearing up.

"And now I'm here. Stuck with people I don't even know. People who didn't even want me in the first place" Out of anger I threw the coffeecup on the ground. The black liquid splashed all over the place.

"So are you trying to tell me I should be happy with you guys? The people who dumped me in the forest? The people who found me went completely mental! " Jasper and Emmett walked in trying to find a reason for all this commotion.

"Do you know what they gave me for my birthday? An exorcism!" I wiped away the tears that streamed down my face.

"He was the only person that made me feel normal, so don't you dare speak about him in that way"

I rushed back to my room. Coming out was a bad idea in the first place. Quickly I locked the door, just a second before someone tried to open it. Why didn't this people leave me alone, I wasn't a kid anymore I didn't need them. Not anymore, I needed them real bad a few years ago. But not anymore. When the anger reduced I got bored. I didn't know what to do with my life at this point. I was locked in here with no purpose. After a while I decided that I would talk to Carlisle. So I walked downstairs and waited for him in his office. He came in after sunset. I picked up a book about anatomy which I read until he came back.

"Renesmee, how are you?" He asked me surprised I was waiting for him in his office.

"Will I ever get older?" I asked him. He frowned and laid down his bag and coat.

"I think you will live quite a while. Your body is functioning perfectly" He answered.

"That's not what I mean. Will I ever look older or will I look 18 forever?"

"To be perfectly honest, I do not think you will age"

"So there is not a single chance I can ever work as a vet" I whispered defeated. He shook his head and I sat down in the nearest chair. I had nothing to fight for, all my dreams were crushed.

"Thank you for being honest with me" I mumbled and walked out of the office. Grabbing a glass of water on my way to my room I felt their eyes in my back. Again. When I opened the door I noticed someone sitting on my bed.

"Renesmee" He greeted me

I sighted deep when I stared at the man who was my father.

"What do you want?" I asked agitated.

"Ï think we need to talk"

"I don't" I said while I folded my arms before my chest.

"you are just as stubborn as your mother" He sighted while he tried to give me a smile.

I shrugged my shoulder. I just wanted him to leave and let me be. He ran his hands through his hair absentmindedly.

"What do you want from me" I asked him straight to the point. No nonsense.

"I want to get to know you"

"Fuck you" I replied "So now that I walked into your life you want to play the dad? Newsflash you are NOT my dad. You are too late, I don't need you anymore" I growled. This family was playing on my nerves.

"Renesmee wait" he said when I walked down the stairs.

I grabbed my coat and shoes and put them on.

"Renesmee listen to me" He shouted after me. These people were completely mental, what was their problem.

"WHY WOULD I LISTEN TO YOU" I shouted back. "I HATE YOU, YOU'RE NOT MY DAD. I DON'T HAVE A FAMILY AND I DON'T WANT ONE EITHER' I slammed the door in his face and ran into the woods. Stupid Cullen family. I ran and ran until I found myself in the middle of the woods. There were no sounds behind me so they didn't follow me. At least that was a good thing. Without even realizing it I walked to Jacob's house. I saw the light and climbed the nearest tree. I stared at the house, the house that I once called home. I started to rain and within seconds I was completely soaked. But I didn't left, I held on to this little piece of hope I had. I saw him in the kitchen and on the couch. I could help but smile when I saw him. I watched the house for the whole night before I returned to the Cullen's house. I took a long hot shower and was able to sleep since days. When I woke up someone was sitting in my room. Golden eyes stared at me when I sat up.

"Good afternoon" He smiled, his name was Jasper if I wasn't mistaking.

"Hi" I said

"We are the only ones home today" He smiled "They asked me to look after you"

"I can take care of myself" I grunted while I wrapped myself inside the blankets again.

"Renesmee I know who started off on the wrong foot, but I want to make that right. I download a movie and even bought you Ben and Jerry's"

I sat up suddenly realizing that I was craving for Ben and Jerry's. Also I didn't feel that angry and sad anymore, it seemed a little better.

"Fine" I sighted and stepped out of bed. And that's how I made my next friend in the Cullen family. Maybe it had something to do with his ability to make me feel better, or maybe it was because I treated me like an adult. But I liked Jasper. We talked about this past and I even let him in on mine. A little that was. After that it went a little better inside the house, we made progress. Babysteps that was but still progress.

I went to the exact same spot every night. The Cullens knew but never said anything about it. They shouldn't try either because it was none of their business. When I climbed down on the seventh night something jumped me. Big paws pressed me to the ground and razor sharp teeth were just a few inches from my face. I groaned and tried to push the wolf off me, but it was just like deadweight I couldn't move it for an inch. I was getting trouble with breathing and needed to do something or else I would suffocate. So I did what my instinct told me and bit the wolf, he let his guard down for a second and I ran. I ran as hard as I could. When I arrived back home I flew right in the arms of Emmett.

"What happened" he asked worried

"Something attacked me" I cried. My heart was racing and there was still a lot of adrenaline pumping through my body. I was shaking like a leaf. Emmett carried me to the couch and Jasper brought me tea. Carlisle checked me to see if I was hurt and Esme got me a blanket and went to make me something to eat. I sat between Jasper and Emmet both trying to comfort me as much as they could.

"Can we do something for you?" Jasper asked while he send me a wave of comfort.

"Please don't leave me alone" I begged. I fell asleep with my head on Jaspers lap and my legs over Emmett's. They kept their word and stayed with me, they barely moved making it so comfortable as they could. I woke up because someone slammed the door really hard. Agitated I opened my eyes. My head was killing me and I felt a little dizzy. Probably because I didn't fed for a while. When I realized what was happening my heart jumped up. The pack was here, I heard their voices in Carlisle's office. I noticed Emmett was their too, but Jasper stayed behind to keep me safe. He gave me a look.

'I need to go in there" I begged him. He nodded, he seemed to understand. So I jumped up and ignored the stars in front of my eyes. I walked to the room and opened my door.

"She attacked a wolf, she crossed the border" I heard someone say. I cleared my throat forcing their attention on me.

"Don't you think I should be here, if this meeting is about me?" I said staring at the one who just spoke. I searched the room and found Jacob. He squinted his eyes and clutched his jaw when he saw me.

"Is it really necessary to bring the whole pack here?" I asked directing the question to him. "We could have talked about this you know, just the two of us. "

He didn't reply. So I continued. "Could you please ask them to leave?" I said locking our gaze. He gave them a sign and the pack left the room. I turned around to the Cullen "You too, please" awkwardly they walked to the livingroom together.

"Jacob" I said while I gave him a long look. His eyes were cool and he returned my stare. I took a few breaths and took a chair to sit down. The room was spinning around me but I needed to focus. Maybe this would be the last time that I would ever see him, I needed to make up. And I needed to make up right now. He kept standing there.

"You attacked a wolf, you crossed the border" he growled "You broke the rules"

"The wolf attacked me and what border are you talking about?" I answered.

He squinted his eyes again "They didn't tell you?" I shook my head.

"What were you doing there anyway?" He asked folding his hands before his chest.

"Reliving memories." I said while I shrugged my shoulders. I was something change in his eyes when I said that. I stood up to reach out for him. I shouldn't have done that because I wasn't able to breath anymore. I gasped for air and fell down on my knees, My eyes started to tear up and a red haze made it impossible for me to see. Blood dripped out of my eyes and nose. I coughed and spitted out more blood.

"Jake please help me" I begged before I lost consciousness.