I just want two parts (; LOL
Chapter 6 – Questions from the past: Part 2
"You sure have changed" I said. Shoot! Did I just say that? To all the gods out there, please help me and tell me that Mikan didn't hear any of that!
"So, why are you up so late?" said Mikan. Thank you, gods!
"I couldn't sleep and I was hungry. You?" I said. "You must be hungry too? You didn't eat dinner last night" and Natsume was worried about you.
"Oh yeah" she said, catching her fake laugh. I know Mikan, her eyes wonders around when she's lying. "I wasn't in the mood, PMSing. Wanna go look for food together?" she also speaks faster than usual when she lies.
Even since Mikan came back I haven't seen her in the cafeteria. This is my first time I'm eating with her and I'm really glad she's having fun. What happened to her? What made her change? Why didn't she respond to any of our mails? Is she hiding something from us? "Mikan?" I said. Millions of questions roamed my mind. "Do you mind if I ask you anything?" Before I could even stop myself… "Do you mind if I ask you anything?" I heard her mumble something. I can't resist it anymore. "What exactly happened to you?"
I could see Mikan's shock expression on her face. What the hell was I thinking? "It's okay if you don't answer me, I know it's personal" Then why did I asked? Stupid Ruka!
Imagine my surprise when she said, "You've gotta promise me not to tell anyone, especially Natsume" Hiding something as big as this to Natsume is like asking for you own deathbed. But Mikan needs me. "I'm sorry Natsume" I thought and nodded.
"I know Ruka Nogi, he wouldn't tell anyone" I thought to myself. And so I started my long story.
"It all started when the Elementary School Division Principal died" I said. "I know, a person would think that all hardships will end there. But it didn't, when I laid my hands on the principal to steal both his alice and his life force I felt as if a darker chapter of our lives started"
I could see Ruka's interest in the story and I could also see his different expressions but from all those expressions, confusion is the most evident. "Then I couldn't see Natsume, I couldn't find him anywhere. Turns out he used too much of his alice and suddenly collapsed. Of course you know about that already" I continued. "For 2 months I pushed myself to believe that everything's going to be okay, that from that day on, I would live a normal life in the academy with everyone. On the day Natsume disappeared, I felt that I was living a lie for 2 months. As if, the feelings from the night the principal died all came back and it's stronger than before"
A tear was about to fall but I instantly wiped it away so that Ruka wouldn't tell me to stop. I've gone this far, I can't stop now.
Flashback
I woke up, feeling restless. "Shit, that weird feeling from last night just doesn't go away" I thought. I checked my phone to look at the time, surprisingly there's a new text. "That's odd, no ones texts me. All my friends are in the academy" I flipped my phone open and checked who it was.
"Of course, it's Shiki-kun" I said to myself. I read the text and again and again. I read it a thousand times before it sunk in. "WHAT?!" I suddenly got up, dressed and ran to the hospital as fast as I could. It took me 20 minutes to get there.
"Shiki-kun! Where's Natsume?" I shouted upon seeing Shiki-kun's back. I kept running until I could face him.
He faced me and said with utter gentleness, "Mikan…" and I knew this isn't good.
"No!"
"He left with no trace…"
"No! This can't be happening!" I said. "How could you do this, Natsume?" I thought. "You must be joking, right?" I asked Shiki-kun. "This is all just part of his plan to surprise me, to make me happy! Right?" No, I can't accept this. "Shiki-kun, I beg you please just say yes and I will forgive everything!"
"I'm sorry, Mikan. I want to say yes but…"
"NO!" and I run away. I ran and I ran. To where? I have no idea. I just kept on running until my legs gave up. To my surprise I arrived at the nearby temple. As if my legs have minds of its own, I walked up the steps, rang the bell and prayed. "Please, tell me that this is all just a lie" I prayed. "Please, tell me that this is just a nightmare. That when I woke up, I would see Natsume" God knows how long I stayed there, I didn't move a muscle as if I'm waiting to wake up but I just can't. I know this is reality, I know that this is happening now.
I didn't notice the footsteps nor the familiar aura. "Mikan" Ruka said. "Everyone's looking for you. How about we go back now?"
End of flashback
"I kept going back to that temple, hoping that maybe I would wake up from that horrible nightmare. I just wanted to make all the bad feelings, bad memories to go away. But of course it didn't." I said. I could see Ruka's pale face now. "When we moved, Yuka and Shiki-kun was trying to convince me to train myself, to be an AAO member. I kept on saying no"
"What made you say yes?" asked Ruka. I guess he noticed it, I'm sure of it.
"I was on my way home from the wet market. Then I saw eyes with the color of fire. It was a little boy, he looked like Natsume because of his eyes. He was in the middle of the road. I was admiring him too much that I didn't noticed that his life was in danger." I said. I kept on telling myself not to cry, I can't let Ruka see me cry. Not again. "With the blink of an eye, the little boy was hit by a car. Ruka, I didn't know what to do. I ran to him but with the blood he lost, he didn't make it."
"All these years, Mikan was suffering so much?" I thought to myself. I heard her say. "Ruka, I didn't know what to do" I saw a teardrop fall to her cheeks and ray of sunlight was struggling to lit the dark cafeteria.
"I even tried the Life Force Alice" I heard Mikan say. "I tried to give him some of my life but he didn't make it, I was too late. I realized that that guy who looked like Natsume is somewhat like Natsume. Probably lost in the middle of nowhere, hoping to find someone to help him. And I'm always me; a bystander who just watches everything as if unfolds."
I could sense Mikan's guilt. She's blaming herself when Natsume ran away. "So I said yes, hoping that one day I could save Natsume from the darkness" she said. I thought that her story is done. I mean, that's enough despair for a human to feel. "You see, I was in a mission for AAO, it is part of my training and Yuka wants me to find something for her research. You know Z's new face, trying to make alice better for everyone. A girl was kidnapped by some pathetic bunch of men, she has the Drain Alice. It's a very powerful, dark alice. I was about to save her when a something triggered the fire alarm."
Mikan, I didn't know you were there the night Kazune died. "The guards saw me and tried to kill me. I killed them all but before I could kill this strong guy, he shot the girl. I didn't know what to do. She was dying in my arms. I told her to drain some of my soul but she didn't want to and she gave me this stone" Mikan took out her necklace that's consisted with alice stones. "The black one, she gave it to me before she died"
"She gave Mikan her stone? Her last alice powers?!" I thought.
"Then I remembered the little boy and how much he resembled Natsume and how much I compared him to the little boy. I realized that the little boy is dead. It never crossed my mind until that day that Natsume could've died already, with his Limitless alice." Mikan continued. "I still continued to train myself but in the process of making myself strong, I lost all of my will. Heh, you must think I'm pathetic now, huh Ruka? How can someone who has two strong alices be so weak, huh?"
I didn't know what to say anymore. I can only give Mikan a hug and let her cry. "Shh, just cry it all out" I said in a whisper. "We're here now, It's going to be okay"
Kind of dramatic, huh? LOL
Well, I hope you liked it! I got the idea of the hug thing from my best friend. She always always hugs me whenever I'm sad.
Reviews please! (:
I'll probably update this later tonight, I just received a text from my professor that my Saturday classes are cancelled!
Love, Faux
