I haven't written in so long so I apologize but please bare with me while I try to get back into the swing of things. I am looking forward to some really great Zombie scene in the future of this story! Please give me some feedback, it would be greatly appreciated.

"Shane, let her rest. She needs her rest now." Rick spoke softly but with such a stern tone.

"NO! I want to see her."

Lori reached out and grabbed Rick's hand when he started to follow after Shane. "They need to do this their way, not ours. They have a lot to work out."

Shane stopped furiously up over 23 steps opening every door to every room upstairs until he found the room with Corrie. He saw the brunette hair and tears filled his eyes. He contemplated walking right back out of the room, he stood in the door way silently arguing with himself. The longer he stood in the doorway the harder it was for him not to wake her up. There was so many things he had to say to her, ask her why. Why wasn't he good enough. Was leaving him worth it? Did she find what she was looking for? The questions raced through his mind he watched every move she made in her sleep. The rhythm her chest made going up and down and the way her fingers sometimes moved.

The door quietly closed behind him as he slowly walked over to the side of her bed. He fell down to his knees as he took her warm hand in his and squeezed it tightly. This woman was everything to him, his future, his home, his life, his best friend and in one brief moment he had lost everything that had every meant anything to him. Everything he could ever want in a woman walked away from him causing every fear he had ever had about their relationship come true. He wasn't good enough for this woman. He had don't everything he possibly could to keep her happy but still she left him without a word.

Corrie laid still and silent in the bed. She could hear every breath and every move Shane made. She was too sacred to open her eyes and see his face, she didn't know what she would say and worse than that she didn't know what he would say to her. She knew she did wrong by leaving him. Nothing she found could have every compared to the life she was building with Shane. Feeling his hands holding hers she and to fight every urge to open her eyes. The moment she felt his hands slip away from hers felt her heart becoming heavy. This was not the way she was supposed to be spending her life. She had to make things right with him.

The door closed once more and Shane was out of the bedroom. Corrie used all the strength she had in her body to sit herself upright in the bed, her hands pushing the covers off of her body. She regretted not opening up her eyes and letting him know that she knew he was in the room with her but she couldn't risk the argument. She wasn't in the shape to have a fight with him.

"Did you talk to her?" Lori's voice filled the downstairs of the house as she laid eyes on Shane coming down over the stairs.

"No." He responded. His hands wiping away the few tears that had run down his cheek.

Rick quickly escaped the room and ran downstairs as he went in search of Corrie. Shane left the house as quickly as he possibly could leaving only Andrea and Lori in the living room.

"What was that all about?" Andrea asked.

"They have a history." Lori was reluctant in speaking. She knew something had been going on between Andrea and Shane and she didn't exactly know her rights in speaking of Corrie and Shane to her.

"What kind of history?" Andrea's head cocked to the side.

"Corrie is Rick's sister. She and Shane were supposed to be married about 6 or 7 months ago and Corrie left him at the altar. None of us knew that she was going to leave but when we all found out it was too late. She was gone, even months after all Rick would get were 5 minute phone calls from Corrie telling Rick she was fine." Lori sighed. "Rick always worried about her. Even though she would say she was fine Rick could tell by her voice she had found her self in a world she didn't want."

"Shane never told me.. No body every mentioned her"

"No, we didn't. We would never talk about Corrie in front of Shane. Shane was the worst we had ever seen him. He was so lost without her in his life. She was the only good that Shane had ever had." Lori could see the strike of pain wash over Andrea's face. "Shane had only ever treated women as trophies, a game. The women treated him the same way... it was like an I screwed Shane club and even if he didn't say when Corrie came along she treated him differently."

It grew quiet quickly. Lori wrapped her arm around Andrea and squeezed her gently. "Talk to him." She pulled herself off the couch and walked up the stairs.

Andrea's footsteps seemed so loud in the dark of the night. Fall was coming and it wasn't long until they would have to leave the farm and find somewhere more permanent place to say and outlast the cold winter. The only bright side about the coming winter was the possibilities of the walkers dying off quickly. If that was even a possibility.

"Shane, can we talk?" Andrea squat down next to Shane's tent door and slide the zipper up to see Shane sitting down. She could see the rage across his face.

With no response from him Andrea crawled into the tent and zipped the door shut. She sat next to him and placed her hand on his back. "Why didn't you ever say anything about her before?"

Shane was mad. His blood was boiling, he had always had trouble managing his feelings but this was an all too new feeling and he wasn't sure what way to react. He wanted to scream and yell. He wanted to cry and beg her to take him back. Life was nothing like it was 7 years ago he spent every day wondering if she was okay, if she was alive during this... he didn't even know what to call life now. In one quick second she was right back in his life, just as quickly as she had left it.

"I never thought I would see her again. I worried about her every day. I wanted to leave everyone, Rick, Lori, Carl, Glenn, you... everyone just to go see if I could find her but every fucking day I realized I didn't know where she went. How the fuck could I save her when I didn't know where she was too?" Shane slammed his fist down against the ground. "I wasn't good enough for her. I wished every day to have her back into my life. My heart aches for that woman in there. She's my world."

Andrea felt the hard sting of rejection as she heard his words. She knew she could never measure up to this woman who had so obviously effected Shane in such a way. "I'm here for you now Shane. You know we have something good going on." Andrea leaned in towards Shane's cheek but he quickly moved away.

"Andrea, not now okay?" He spoke loudly and with authority as he pushed himself away from the blonde. For a quick moment in time Andrea had made him forget about the pain he felt by Corrie leaving but now... now that he knew she was right there nothing was going to keep her from his mind.

"Shane, talk to me."

"I have nothing to say right now OK? Please leave."