AN: Thanks for your great reviews. I'm glad you liked the last one shot, even if I wasn't satisfied. So a few things about this one. I didn't use exactly a song from a Disney Movie, but instead from a Disney Musical...it's almost the same XD I chose the wonderful and inspiring song "For The First Time" from the musical adaption of Disney's Tarzan, which is btw one of the greatest musicals ever (along with Wicked). The show is specatular, the songs are amazing and the story is funny, touching and exciting at the same time. I really love that song (I slightly prefer the German version, though). Again I used some phrases from the song with slight changes.

This chapter is a bit experimental again, because it basically just tells Elena's and Damon's feelings towards each other from both POVs.

For this, Damon is written in cursive.

Kat: I'm really sorry, but I won't continue "Once Upon A Dream." The one shots will all jut stand alone. I hope you still like the other ones.

I'd love to get some reviews :)

Disclaimer: I don't own The Vampire Diaries, the characters, the wonderful song or the musical Tarzan.

For The First Time

"So for the first time
Can this be love?
Oh for the first time
I know it's real"

When Matt and I first got together I thought it was love. He was my best friend for a long time and then the first guy I've ever dated. I never thought anything could keep us apart and that the first love will remain forever. Well, forever was really short. After my parents died I wasn't the same girl he knew and fell in love with anymore and it hurt him to see the "new me". So I made a decision for both of us and broke up with him.

When I met Stefan I realized that what Matt and I shared wasn't love. It was a crush, a puppy love and nothing more. Stefan made me see the light again after I fell deep into the abyss I created. At least a bit. He was sweet and kind and just too good to be true. Maybe that was the problem from the beginning. Even after I discovered what he is, I thought he was too good for me. I thought he was my real first love.

But nowadays I keep thinking. Stefan and I never really shared a relationship alone. Well, maybe the first few days after we met, but that changed after I visited the Boarding House for the first time. The moment the door opened and I looked into the mesmerizing electric blue eyes of the one Damon Salvatore my world was turning upside down. Stefan and I were the couple, but there was always Damon. Sneaky, sarcastic and self-absorbed Damon.

I found him likeable. I hated him. I started to grow on him. I liked him. I felt something more than friendship for him. I hated him again. I liked him again. I started to feel more for him again. It had always been like a rollercoaster ride with us. Now, I can't even say what I feel anymore.

This affection I feel for him his hard to understand. I see him and my heart skips beat. It's not the way I planned things to happen. It should have been Stefan, but it is not anymore. Maybe it wasn't from the beginning. My whole world seems to change. Wherever I turn it's his face I see, even if I close my eyes. And I feel like I can't disguise it any longer.

The strange thing is, with Stefan everything felt always like a dream. A beautiful dream you never wanted to wake up from, but still a dream. Having Damon around feels real. Everything he does, everything he says and even when is not doing anything at all makes my heart ache for more. I consume every minute I spend with him. Don't want to miss anything. And those little lucid moments when he touches me, takes my hand or strokes my cheek, I know that I never felt this way before.

So here I am feeling things I've never felt and all because of him my world is changing.

That woman makes me crazy. One time she is angry at me for doing something "not so nice", well mostly because I don't do nice, and then she suddenly changes her mind and wants to be BFF. She wants me to be the "better man" and I know I've changed since I met her. Her stupid never ending speeches about the good in my nature, her kindness and trust touched something that was buried deep inside of me. A side that was hidden behind the face of a killer. I don't want to kill anymore, unless it is necessary. I was good living my life as an undead person. Killing, drinking from innocent girls and making Saint Stefan's life as miserable as possible, but NO she had to come along. I was curious when I first saw her. She looked and talked exactly like that damn bitch from hell. Stefan was head over heels in love with her. Two good points to get to know her and possibly drain her out of blood. Haha. Yeah, bad move I guess. I got to know her better. She was nothing like Katherine. Her personality was the exact opposite and even after the many bad things I've done, she sorta started to like me. I seriously thought that woman was suicidal when she first said I was her friend. But she wasn't the dumb one in our so-called relationship. It was me, because I fell in love with her. But, hey I can't help. She turns my whole world upside down.

Lately I feel like a little girl again who tries to impress her crush. Whenever he appears I start to talk louder, giggle or do something just to get his attention. Everything that I do, I do to catch his eyes. Those damn beautiful blue eyes. Of course he notices and makes flirty comments and of course I argue with him about it. That's just the way we work.

The problem is he is not the only one noticing my strange behavior. Bonnie does and Caroline and Jeremy and Jenna and I guess even Stefan. When they ask me if I act that way because of him I can't even deny it anymore. Sure, I don't exactly scream out "YES!", but I don't say anything against it, either. I feel guilty about it in some way.

She is acting strange towards me. She giggles a lot, talks nonsense and I catch her staring at me more than often. We've been through a lot and I rescued her more times than I can count. Our relationship was strained a while. She claimed I had lost her and I deserved it, because I killed her brother. Okay, I have to say he came back to life. But still I deserved it. We worked it out and got back on friendship terms. Well she got back to be being friends with me and I started to lover her more each day, kinda the same, huh? Something changed. She is different. We are different and even if I would never ever consider this to happen I wonder if she feels the same.

This affection I feel for him has clearly gotten the better of me. I was depressed and withdrawn into myself after the accident and "old Elena" died. I used to be fun. I used to be outgoing, witty and adventurous. But after everything that happened I thought I would never be this Elena again. Well, I was wrong. Meeting Damon resurrected the "old Elena" or rather the "real Elena" again. With him I can be everything I used to be and even better. I have the feeling I can breathe without pressure, I can be me without fearing to disappoint his expectations.

This affection I feel for her has gotten the better of me. After I turned I shut every emotion off. I was a vampire and lived for my instincts. I didn't care for people. I hurt and killed and had fun doing so. She brought the humanity back. I don't even know how she did it. It just happened and it sucks. I care for the damn Barbie Girl, I like baby Gilbert and even the witch is not THAT bad anymore. Of course I would never tell any of them that I actually kinda like them. But that's the difference with Elena. I have no problem showing her I care. Not anymore. I talk to her a lot. About my past, about my feelings and about things not even Stefan knows. When I'm with her, I don't need to be Damon the bad ass vampire anymore. I can be Damon the vampire who still carries a human soul.

Matt wasn't my first love. Stefan was close, but he wasn't, either. Looking at Damon I ask myself one question: For the first time, can this be love?

I thought I loved Katherine. I searched 145 years for that bitch believing it was love, when it was nothing more than a poor obsession and the sad wish for real love. Looking at Elena I ask myself one question: For the first time, can this be love?

For the first time I know it's real. What I feel is completely different from everything I felt before. It's painful and consuming and breathtaking. Just real.

For the first time I know it's real. It's scary, and normally I don't do scared, and it's unpredictable and intoxicating. Just real.

And with him I feel so completely. I never really believed in soul mates, but I guess I have to reconsider that. With him I feel like a part of me that was always missing is finally where it belongs.

Sounds strange but with her I feel complete. All my life and I live for a long time now, I was searching for something more. Whenever I near her, I feel like I finally found it.

I now I am her doppelganger. And I know there were a plenty of other women before me, but still I feel uniquely like no other to him.

But still there is this part of me that tries to deny. That warns me not go too far and stops before I fall so hard that I can probably never get back on my feet again.

I honestly never thought that this would happen to me. That I would be drawn to a woman like that. Sometimes I want to run away from it and start to be the cruel monster again. Without feelings.

But even with the doubts still in a corner of my mind there all these emotions racing through me tell me I must, tell me I can finally fall and give in.

I could never run away from her. It surprises me that I'm even able to feel that much. Not even when I was human I had so deep feelings for someone.

I think I'm finally finding who I am through him. The person I want to be. And isn't this what true love is all about? You can find yourself and be just who you are and the other person accepts and loves you no matter what.

I think I'm finally finding who I am. When I was human I was the rebel of our family. When I turned I was a vicious killer machine. But I never really knew who I really was. The person that had been inside. She shows it to me, every day. Isn't that what true love should be all about? You can be yourself with all the idiosyncrasies and quirks and the other person still accepts and loves you?

For the first time I'm actually sure about what I truly want.

All the things she does making me wanting her more each day.

For the first time I really understand what's going on. I see what I should have seen months ago; when I told him it would always be Stefan. There was never another option for me, nor there ever will be one. No matter what decisions in my life I will make, I will always end up on his doorsteps.

For the first time I really try to understand. I try to understand what's going on in her head and what she wants. Is it him or is it me? I have a slight hope that maybe after an eternity of rejection I can get some piece of happiness. But it's just a hope.

Yes, for the first time I realize that all the things that really matter are happening to me every time I'm with that man.

Yes, for the first time I realize that all the things that really matter are happening to me every time I'm with her.

I want him. I want him to want me and I want him to love me, because every time I'm with that man (and I say man not vampire, because that's what I see) I feel the spark, the sensation and the fireworks.

I want her. I want her to want me and I want her to love me. I wish I could be that man (I say man not vampire, because that's what I want her to see) that makes her feel the sparks, the sensation and the fireworks.

'Cause for the first time I really love.

'Cause for the first time I really love.

The End