A/N: Chapter 7! Yay! Thanks so much for all of the reviews for the last chapter. After I wrote that one, I didn't know if I would need to write another one, but after last night's episode, I figured we needed to fix a few things. Here's my take on how I wished things would have happened! I hope you all enjoy it! Please review if you feel the urge to do so! Xoxo- Katie
Disclaimer: I don't own glee.
"Joining the celibacy club? Don't you think that was a little much?" she asks him as she peppers kisses across his chest.
"Hey, you joined up again, so why couldn't I? Although after what we just did and what we've been doing, I'm not sure either of us belongs there," he jokes. "I used it as an excuse to get close to you last year."
"You're pretty close to me right now," she smiles up at him.
"Yeah," he replies, kissing her nose. "But I wanna be close to you at school, too."
"Aren't you afraid Lauren will get jealous?"
"No. Are you afraid of making Finn jealous?" he asks and immediately wonders if he shouldn't have.
Just as he had kept up his relationship with Lauren, she kept her flirtation with Finn. It was weird and strange and messed up in so many ways and on so many levels, but it worked for them, at least for awhile. Initially, things had been OK, she could handle it with Finn because she knew who she would be with each night and she knew that he was the one she loved. Unfortunately, things weren't so simple anymore.
She knew she should never had told Finn that her mom would be gone all afternoon, but she had no idea that he would suggest that he should come over. Reluctantly, she had agreed and somehow, they made it up to her bedroom. She smiled and did exactly what she had become so good at doing: she lied.
She lied when she told him that his kisses felt good. She lied when she told him that it was about so much more than becoming Prom Queen. She lied when she said that Puck had been a mistake; that she wished her first time had been with him and that was when the warning bells started to blare inside of her head and heart. It wasn't right, not at all. It was one thing to flirt with Finn at school, to let him hold her hand and pass her notes, but it was another thing to let him kiss her when all she could think about was Puck and everything they had shared together in that bed. She wasn't being fair to him, even if he said he understood and didn't mind keeping it a secret. It wasn't fair and it needed to end.
"Finn wait," she had said, gently pushing him away.
"Shhh, it's OK," he whispered against her neck. "I won't tell anyone. It won't get back to the celibacy club."
"No, I can't do this. It has nothing to do with the celibacy club," she clarified and sat up.
"I don't get it. I thought you wanted to be with me again."
"I'm sorry Finn, we never meant to hurt you, again."
"Who's we," he asked, thoroughly confused. "What's going on, Quinn?"
"I can't be with you and I've just been using you to help my popularity, but if we're being fair, you know the only reason you were with me was to make Rachel jealous."
"Who's we," Finn asked again and she averted her eyes. "Just tell me."
"Me and Puck," she said, lifting her head to look him in the eyes.
"What? So after Sam broke up with you it was me and Puck all over again?"
"No. Puck and I, we've been together for awhile."
"How long is a while?"
"Well, officially since not long after he got back from juvie."
"And unofficially?" Finn asked, not knowing if he really wanted to find out the answer.
"I don't think I ever stopping wanting to be with him. Finn, I'm so sorry. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt you again and that's why I'm ending this."
"I just don't get all of the lying and the secret, Quinn," Finn said.
"Please don't blame Puck. It's all my fault. I wanted to keep it a secret. I thought I was protecting people from getting hurt."
"Epic fail."
"This is why you should be with Rachel. No matter what, I can't love you the way she loves you and I know that you can't love me the way you love her. This isn't fair to anyone. I started it and now I'm ending it."
"You're right," Finn admitted as his shoulders sagged. "I do still love Rachel and I did think that if she say and I together she it would make her feel the same way I felt."
"So go get her back. If you need me to, I'll even tell her that it was all my fault."
"I dunno, maybe I need to be on my own for awhile. So are you going to make Puck run for Prom King with you?" he asked with a sly smile.
"I don't know. It doesn't really seem like his thing. Maybe I'll just run solo."
"Wow, you must really love him," Finn said as they walked down the stairs to her front door.
"Why's that?" she asked.
"Because you're not forcing him to do something he doesn't want to do."
"Finn, are we…OK?"
"Not yet," he replied honestly. "But we will be. I'll see you at school tomorrow."
She sighed in relief as she closed the door. For the first time in a long time, she felt like she was doing the right thing. That night she hadn't told him about what happened with Finn when he came into her room later than usual. On top of practicing for Regionals, helping Miss Pillsbury with her botched song, he still had basketball practice and he nearly passed out when he landed on her bed, wrapping his arms around her waist and laying his head on her shoulder. He held her close like he was afraid of losing her or something and she knew that she had to tell him, had to assure him once and for all that she was his, even if it had to wait one more day.
"You know, Finn thinks he gave me this hickey," she says and brushes the hair off of her neck.
"Like he could make a perfect heart shape like this," he scoffs, brushing his lips lightly over the purple spot that shone through her smudged makeup.
"Stop," she giggled. "You'll just make it worse."
"Sorry."
"It was so great of you to bring it up in celibacy club. Were you feeling spiteful? Trying to mark your territory?"
"Both," he says but backtracks. "Come on, you know I don't think of you as my territory."
"I know."
"Honestly, it wasn't bad seeing you in school with Sam because I'd catch your eye in the hallway and just know that it was OK. With Finn, it's always like I wonder if you'll think what if I didn't mess up with Puck, where would we be?"
"Are you serious?" she asks, sitting up and looking down at him. He shrugs his shoulders and nods somewhat dejectedly.
"You've chosen him over me before," he replies after a moment, absentmindedly tracing a pattern on the bed sheet.
"And that was my greatest mistake ever. You are my first choice. You are what my heart wants and you're my last choice. I don't ever want anyone else. Not Sam. Not Finn. You. And that's why I told Finn the truth."
"You did?" he asks looking up at her quickly.
"Yeah, and I owe you an apology. I took advantage of your patience and I wasn't fair to you, to us. Even though you said that you didn't mind keeping us a secret I should never have let you because I don't want you to be my secret. I'm not ashamed that I'm with you. I love you."
"I love you, too," he replies and pulls her back down into his arms, kissing her deeply. "Maybe you should stay home from school tomorrow."
"Why?"
"Because I'm going to have to break up with Lauren now and tell her the truth. Who knows what she'll do."
"I think I'll go. Besides, someone will have to come find you in whatever dumpster she decides to throw you in."
"Good point," he chuckles and recaptures her lips once again as she drapes her arms over his shoulders and brings their bodies even closer together.
