Near's POV
It has been at least a year or so since I found out about Mello's death. Let me tell you, it wasn't easy. I know that he hates me but I can't help the fact that he is my only friend that I can trust with my life. Mello, you may be wondering why I am even writing this? I really do care about you. I may be emotionless but I know what love is. Let me explain what you meant to me. You were the best thing to ever come into my life. When I first arrived at Wammy's I was lost, clueless. I was confused about what would happen next. I didn't think that I could be happy without my family around but, you proved me wrong. I didn't need my family to be happy. I needed you. And I still do. Matt may have used and abused you in the past but that doesn't mean that you have to leave everyone who loves you. That may only be me but at least someone cares. I hope you know that I will not be the same without you around Mello. In fact, the moment I learned you committed suicide my heart collapsed. I couldn't handle the fact that you were gone. Mello, I know you went through many terrible things in your life, and I wish I could have been there to help. Mello all you needed to do was talk to me. I could have stopped this. I never wanted to see you die so soon and I regret anything I could have ever done to hurt you. When you decided to kill yourself did you think of how much this would effect everyone else? Even Matt is mourning your death. But me, I'm the most heartbroken of all. I thought you were better than this. Just because you have a bad life doesn't mean you should end it yourself. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Mello, I love you and miss you.
