I'm back with the first half of the 'Structures Reformed' section of the story. 'Structures Reformed' is the last part of the 'Road To Recovery' section of the story. This part is entirely in Jade's POV, to show her first therapy session. Thank you to all of the reviews, and I thank all of you for reading my story and telling me what you think. 'New Beginning' won't be going on much longer, maybe 2 more chapters after Tori's therapy chapter, but there will be a sequel. I'm posting this earlier than planned, and the next chapter will still be up on tuesday.
If anyone is interested, I have 2 other story ideas. The first is called 'FairyWood Arts', which is a Jori story where the four main girls get Fairy spirits to guide them. The spirits are of the 4 seasons. Winter for Jade, Summer for Tori, Spring for Cat, and Autumn for Trina. The other is a CaTorAde fic, with Tori and Jade as the parents and Cat as the child. I based it off of the episode 'Helen Back Again', when Sikowitz had them do that for a lesson. I don't have a name for it yet, so if anyone has any ideas, let me know.
Please let me know which one you would like to see after 'New Beginning'. I will work on the sequel and the new story at the same time.
Disclaimer: I own the laptop I type and post this on, the plot, and the 2 OC's. It was supposed to be 3, but Carlos won't be seen until the sequel. I also don't own Dr. Drew from Celebrity Rehab.
Jade is a little OOC in this story. I didn't realize it until recently. I don't know if I mentioned it in earlier chapters, but I'm letting you all know now. I know I mentioned before that there were 2 new couples. The first one will be introduced in this chapter, the second not until the sequel.
Chapter 7: Road To Recovery part 5 - Structures Reformed - Jade
It's been a few days since I was let out of the hospital. I heard from Tori that her dad has taken a personal interest in the search for the bastard claiming to be my father. The day after I was let out, Dr. Ramirez called me to say my appointment with a therapist was in a couple of days. I asked her what she meant and she told me Tori called and set it up. I was upset at first, but the doc explained to me that it was all in good intention, and that it would help me in the long run. I agreed, but I didn't say anything out loud.
On monday, the first day of therapy, I wake up and get ready. I haven't slept well lately, which I think is a form of PTSD, or something. It takes me a little longer than usual, because I stop to stare at myself in the mirror. I don't look any different, except for the black rings around my eyes. I contemplate not going to school, but Tori promised to pick me up on the way. I couldn't tell her no, so I get ready. Instead of wearing my usual skirt, leggings, combat boots, and tight top, I completely change my outfit. I grab a pair of loose fitting sweat pants, an oversized hoodie, and a pair of dirty tennis shoes I didn't know I had. My make-up is non-existant today as well. My hair in a ponytail that was done in a rush.
I hear the horn of Tori's car as I grab my Gears of War messenger bag, wallet, keys, and phone. I falter as I get to the living room, fear striking my features as I look to the spot where IT happened. I don't realize I was still standing until I hear a knock on the front door. It shocks me back to the present, and I go open the door, seeing Tori standing there, worry evident on her face.
"You okay? You look a little out of it." She asks, a little hesitation in her voice.
"I'm fine." I barely whisper that, taking another quick glance at the spot.
She notices my eyes glance at the spot by the couch, and places a hand on my shoulder. "Come on. Let's get you out of here."
I grab her other hand and we head out to her blue Mustang convertible. I give a slight smile, my mood brightening slightly because she got this car because of my black one. Mine's not a convertible though, but no complaints.
The ride to school is silent. I'm in no mood for small talk right now, and Tori can tell. I glance at her a few times, and she always looks away. I see worry in her eyes, which leads me to believe she's thinking about why I froze a minute ago.
We get to school about twenty minutes after we leave my house. She pulls into a spot, and shuts the car off. I go to step out of her car, but she stops me.
"Are you going to your therapy session today?"
"Yeah. How did yours go?"
"Could have been worse. Trina was asked to go with me because of how well she knew me, and she explained how I have been acting lately. They were surprised that I was in a better mood than what Trina was telling them."
"I'm glad. And I'm really sorry about how I acted. I saw Ryder and my jealousy came in stronger than ever. I don't know why, but I guess I was scared you might leave me for him."
"What would make you think that?"
"I don't know. Come on. We'll talk more after school. Don't want to be late."
We both get out of the car silently. I wait for her so we can walk in together. I open the door for her, letting her step in first. I go to head to my locker after I tell her I'll talk to her momentarily, when I notice her stop in her steps. I look around her, and smile at what I see.
"Damn, Beck. Slow down. Save the heavy making out for private."
"Jade!? I thought you were supposed to be at your therapy session today?" My ex-boyfriend said, while hugging Tori's best friend, André.
"That's not until 5 today."
"Hey Tor. Thought you were gonna be in later?" André says to Tori, being unusually shy.
"Change of plans. My parents changed them last night."
"What was going to happen?" I ask, looking at Tori.
"They wanted me to take the day off for myself. I told them I'm fine, so they changed the plans they made. That's why I called you to say that I'll pick you up for school." Tori says with a slight smile when she looks at me.
"I'm glad." I say, as we get on with the day, taking another small glance at the two guys holding each other close.
End of the school day
Tori drives me to my therapy session after school. She asked to stay so I have a ride home, but I told her I'll call her when I'm done. Doctor Ramirez said the session will take a bit, anywhere from an hour to two. She told me my therapist was a well known one here in L.A. He worked with a lot of celebrities. He has his own show for celebs with alcohol and drug problems, but apparently is certified for a variety of therapies.
We pull into the parking lot, and I get out, heading to the door. Before I take a step, I feel my body get turned around and a pair of lips on mine. Tori's, to be exact. Even though our relationship is still being worked on, and I'm not sure if we're ready to jump back into things, I happily accept her kiss and kiss her back with as much passion as I can. We release from each other's hold, and we walk into the building together. She promises to leave when I go in, but we both know she'll wait for me until I get out. We walk in, and I go to the sign-in desk, signing my name and the time of my appointment. We wait for a few minutes until the doctor's aid comes out and calls me name. Tori waves at me, telling me she'll be waiting for me.
I follow the young aid into the hallway leading to where the session is taking place. She looks to be about mid 20's, blonde hair. She reminds me of Britney Spears, before she shaved her head. I pay no mind to her, simply following her into the room. She tells me to wait, and Dr. Drew will be here shortly. After almost ten minutes, the door opens, and an older guy walks in, wearing a nice suit, minus the jacket.
"Good afternoon, Jadelyn. My name is Dr. Drew. How are you so far today?" He asks, holding out his right hand for a handshake, his left holding a pen and a pad of paper.
"I've been better Doc." I say, not holding his hand. "And it's Jade. The only person who ever called me by my full name currently has the L.A.P.D. after him, so I'd appreciate it if you don't call me that."
He doesn't look upset, which causes me to believe he deals with comments like that on a regular basis. He takes the seat in front of me, keeping his eyes on me the whole time.
"I wasn't told why you were here. Dr. Ramirez personally requested me, saying you needed reliable help. May I ask what happened?"
"You can ask, but it doesn't mean I'll tell you."
"Understandable for a first meeting. What did you mean by your comment about your name? You said the only one who said it has the cops after him. Why?"
I look at him, and he gets a curious look in his eyes. He looks down, writing something on the paper he brought with him. After a few moments of uncomfortable silence, he speaks back up.
"Jade, I can tell you don't trust me, but I'm here to help. Dr. Ramirez has told me that you seemed to connect with her, meaning to me you trust her. Would it be more helpful if she were here with us?"
"No. I don't trust you because I've never been a fan of people like you. I only 'connected' with the dOC because she kinda reminds me of someone I care about greatly. No other reason."
"Care to explain? I don't mean to pry, but it will help you get better in the long run."
"What do you mean it'll help? How is finding that out going to help you or me in any way?"
"You trust her because of a resemblance of some kind that only you know to someone you care about. I just want to find out what it is about them that causes you to react that way to them."
"They're caring, and none-judgemental. Happy? Doc Ramirez was cautious around me. Not prying into my life."
"I'm glad. Tell me about this other person, the one you car so much about."
I sit quietly for a few moments, not looking ar him. Finally, I speak up. "All I feel like saying at the moment, is that I love her. I have for a while, and she's always helped me, no questions asked, regardless of how gankish I acted around her."
"I see. Would having her in here help? It's not something we usually do, but I can see that you won't tell me too much."
"I want to, but I think it'll be better if she stays out of these. She has enough to worry about right now, and even though I know she'll want to help, she needs to get better herself."
We sit and chat about random things. He learns that it was my father I was talking about earlier, and that it was because I was a lesbian that I met Doc Ramirez the way I did. I haven't told him what my father did to me, and he didn't ask. I guess he was trying to to push me because he know it wouldn't help. After an hour, he tells me that wer're done for today, and he'll call me when I can set up another appointment. He tells me I did well, which surprised me because I don't think I told him anything major.
I walk out, seeing Tori jump out of her seat and hug me tight. I don't fight out of it, I actually hug het tighter to me. We walk out, heading back to her car.
The drive back to my house is silent, but it's not uncomfortable, but unexpected. I figured she'd try to ask me what happened, but she was silent the whole way. As we get closer to my house, I'm a little shocked at what she says when she finally talks.
"I have a proposition for you." She asks, not looking away at the road.
"A proposition? What are we, discussing a business deal?" I joke, but I get serious when I see the determination in her eyes. "Sorry. Continue?" I ask, unsure of where she's going.
"How would you like to move in with me? I doubt you like staying there, and we have to room. If you want, I can talk to my parents to see if it's okay with them."
I don't respond right away, which I guess makes her think I don't want to, because she starts to stutter a little, trying to apologize. I place my left hand on her right thigh, getting her to stop quickly.
"I'll think about it. You're right, I hate staying at that house, but I don't know. I'll think about it later, and tell you during school tomorrow what I came up with, K?"
"K. Just know you won't be pressured."
"I know."
If the therapy session didn't seem realistic, I apologize. I've never watched 'Celebrity Rehab', so I don't know what happens, and I have no experience with them. The next chapter will be Tori's first therapy session, explaining things a little further than I did here. The Beck/André relationship felt a little rushed to me right now, but it'll be explained further in the chapter after Tori's.
