They kissed! But I am also angry with Connor for leading Jude on. Also, I friggin hate Daria, you can tell by my writing haha. I also think it's funny that it is Connor who has been crushing on Jude.
"Hey, where's Dylan?" Jude looked over at Daria as she came up beside him when he was getting books from his locker for second hour. He did not want to deal with Connor so soon after yesterday. Nor did he want to see Daria asking about Dylan. Even though he still had doubts of his boyfriend would cheating, with a girl, he still narrowed his eyes at her.
"I haven't seen him yet today." Shrugging, she turned to walk away, but he stopped her. "Hey, what were you guys doing yesterday? He asked me to come but I had plans with Bree. What did I miss out on?"
Her face turned serious and she shrugged once again. "Just hung out at the volley ball pit, and then went out to eat." Jude didn't like the look on her face as she turned and left him standing there. Connor couldn't be right; it wasn't possible. He was pretty sure no guy interested in girls would date a guy and let himself be fucked in the ass. Fucking Connor; making him have these doubts.
Trying to push the thoughts out of his mind, he grudgingly made his way to Mrs. Laughlin's class and walked in the door just as the bell rang. He sighed, sitting down beside him but not looking at him. What was he going to do about this; how could he be angry at him but want to turn and talk to him. Jude was in between wanting to yell at him and wanting to talk to his best friend about how he was tearing his own heart out with his thoughts.
Jude froze as he looked up to the board and saw Mrs. Laughlin hanging up his picture on the front wall. He heard chuckling beside him and let his head fall into his arms on the table. A hand poked his leg and he sighed. "What?"
"It's fantastic." He whispered as their teacher started to talk about putting emotion into your art work. Jude could just choke that woman.
Turning his head to look at his friend, he glared. "I should've burned it."
Connor raised a shoulder and let his head lay on his arm, mirroring his friend. They stared at each other for a few moments before he spoke again. "I hope you believe me when I say I would never lie to you."
"That's why I hate you right now." He admitted, hating himself for how his eyes started to burn with the warning of tears.
"I'm sorry."
He choked back a sob. "Yeah, me too. If anyone else would have told me, I would have laughed in their face."
"What are you going to do about it, Jude?" Connor moved his hand and he didn't pull away when he laid it on his. The other boy rubbed his thumb against his hand.
What was he going to do? It was obvious that just breaking up with Dylan was not something that would happen, but it was obvious that he believed it now. Maybe he could somehow get one of them to admit it, or get them together at the same time and confront them. Fuck, maybe he would get lucky and get hit by a bus before he had to deal with any of it.
"I think I'm gonna pass on the emotional suicide today."
His smile was sad. "Want me to come over tonight?"
Jude smirked. "You'll just take advantage of me."
"I wish I had the balls to." Connor squeezed his hand and bit his lip, as if wanting to say something but holding back. Jude raised his eyebrows and waited. "Can I have the painting?"
"No."
Connor pouted. "Why not?"
He pushed his shoulder into his. "Cause I want it, wanna come over to help me find a place to hang it?"
Smiling, he nodded. "I'd like that."
"Hey guys, how was school?" Lena was the only one home when Jude and Connor walked through the door. He sat the painting on the in table by the door. Jude shrugged, and his friend looked over at him with a sad look. Nodding, she motioned to Connor. "Can you give us some time to talk?"
"Oh, yeah, of course. I'll just go up to your room." He said to him and he walked up the stairs and out of earshot.
Leading the way into the kitchen, she sat at the table and waited for him to sit across from her. "I'm guessing this has to do with Dylan."
He felt his eyes start to prickle with tears, but he held them back. "Connor saw him and Daria kissing yesterday."
Frowning, she leaned forward to hold his hand. "Do you believe him?"
"You think he would be here if I didn't?" She raised a shoulder and let it fall. "I don't want to, but when I saw Daria today I asked her what they had done, when they were hanging out. She said they had been hanging out at the volley ball pits. Connor said that's where he saw them kissing." He paused and then couldn't hold back his tears anymore. Jude let them fall and choked back a sob. "He's cheating on me, mom."
"Oh, baby." Lena walked around the table and wrapped her arms around her hurting son. She pressed her lips against his head. "Honey, I'm so sorry. I have to say that it's better that you did find out, I'm sure you would rather know than have it going on for far longer. Dylan is such a good kid, I would have never thought this would happen."
Jude pressed his face against her and let his sobs come freely. "I don't want it to be true, but I trust Connor."
"Me too, baby." She pulled away and got his eyes. "What are you going to do?"
He shrugged. "I don't know, I don't want to lose him."
Lena put her hands on either side of his face and smiled sadly. "You have a very good friend up there who knew he could lose you if he told you that. He cared enough to take that chance, I'm sure he can help you through this. Not to mention Bree, but I feel like she would just offer to make them disappear."
They laughed together and Jude thought about the boy waiting in his room. Connor was his best friend, and he wanted to be more. He knew it would be worth it, that he would be a better boyfriend, a better best friend, than Dylan. But, he was not going to rush into another relationship. There was still the hope that this was all some huge misunderstanding, even though Jude had no clue how it could be anything else but his boyfriend cheating; ex-boyfriend?
"Maybe I could take her offer. Thank you, I love you." He hugged her one last time before heading upstairs to his waiting friend. Connor was sitting on his bed when he stopped at the door, watching TV. Watching him for a moment, he couldn't help but notice how beautiful he was. Not only that, but he was such a good person, and he loved Jude, without caring if he was loved back or not.
"Can you imagine how all this would be different if I didn't leave?" Connor asked, looking over at him.
He cocked his head and leaned his shoulder against the door frame. "Think we would be happily together at this point?"
"Aren't we right now? Even if we are only friends at this point." God, he wanted to kiss this boy. Connor patted the spot next to him and the younger boy walked over to sit on the bed beside him. He didn't pull away as his friend put an arm around him. "I'll always be here for you, even when you don't want me to be."
Jude reached over and grabbed his hand, entwining their fingers. "I wish you never left, we could've saved so much heartbreak."
"Are you saying you want to be with me?" Connor looked at him, questioning with his eyes.
"Connor, I'm not ready to think of anything like that. I'm still with Dylan, no matter what's happening at the moment." His friend nodded and pressed his lips to Jude's forehead. Wrong spot, he wanted to say, but he just let himself be content with this little bit of affection he was giving. Of course, he knew he could probably have however much he wanted.
They sat in silence for a while before Connor pulled his hand away and pulled Jude's head to look at him. Pressing his lips to his, as if knowing his friend's thoughts, the younger boy didn't pull away. It wasn't Connor who furthered the kiss, Jude licked his way into his mouth and pulled his friend on top of him, relishing the weight.
He sighed when Connor pulled away. "We can't do this."
"You said you wanted to take advantage of me." Jude answered with a smirk. He pulled him back down to join their mouths, but after a minute of heated kissing, he pulled away again.
"I told you I care too much to do this. You need time, even if you don't want to think anymore, you need to." Fuck, he was perfect.
"What the fuck?" The angry voice made them both look toward the door to find Dylan standing there, eye wide with shock, but it quickly turned to anger. Connor leapt away from him and Jude stood to go to his boyfriend. Dylan started to back away as he got closer. "How long have you been cheating on me?
Closing the door behind him as he left the room, Jude leaned back against the door. "How long have you?"
Dylan narrowed his eyes. "Excuse me?"
Jude was immediately pissed at him. "Are you seriously going to deny it? Bree saw you kissing Daria yesterday, so since you've moved on maybe I should too." He didn't want to say it had been Connor because that could be used against him in this situation. Dylan would just say he was lying to break them apart.
His eyes soften with sadness and he turned away. "I didn't know she liked me till yesterday."
"So you cheated on me?"
Turning back quickly he shook his head. "No, she kissed me and I was so confused, she's been my friend for so long and I never knew." He came forward to stand in front on Jude. "I've been ignoring her since then. I was coming over here to talk to you about it, but then I walked in on that." Jude couldn't help but feel relived, but at the same time a voice at the back of his mind told him Dylan could be cheating. "Are you going to break up with me, for him?"
Jude didn't know what he was going to do. He loved Dylan, they had been together for a while, but the connection he had with Connor was so strong. His heart hurt with the decision that he knew he had to make. "I think I need a break to think."
Filling with tears, Dylan's eyes looked like he lost all hope. "I'm already as good as single."
Grabbing his arm as he turned to walk away, he pulled him into his arms and pressed his lips against his. Dylan wrapped his arms around his neck and kissed him feverishly back. Jude pulled back and rested his forehead against his. "I love you, but I'm so confused right now. Just, just please give me some time to get myself together."
"I'm afraid he's going to be the one you choose." He pulled back and made sure he was looking into his boyfriend's eyes. "You love him, and I'm afraid it'll be stronger than what we have."
Shaking his head, he sighed. "It's not stronger, it's just different."
Pulling away from him, Dylan wiped his eyes. "I'm afraid to wait for you, just to have my heart broken. You only have so long before you lose me anyway." He turned and walked away, and Jude didn't stop him.
Hearing the door open behind him, he let himself lean back into the warmth of his arms wrapping around him. "I may have been listening."
"Figures."
Connor turned him around and grabbed his hand, bringing it to is lips. "I can stay away if you want, let you have your time to think without me being here to influence the outcome."
Jude shook his head and smiled sadly. "I don't think it matters."
"Everything matters, Jude. It just depends on how much. Your heart matters; it matters the most, to me. If Dylan doesn't understand how much this is hurting you, than he doesn't know you at all and won't ever. It's so easy for me to read you, yet he has no clue who you are." Leaning down, he kissed Jude's cheek. "I'm going home so you can think."
Grabbing his arm he shook his head. "No, stay please. Don't leave me."
"This isn't helping the decision."
Shrugging, he pulled him back into his room. "No, it's helping me, though." Pushing him down onto the bed and snuggling up beside him, he let out a sigh. He needed to be held, but he thought about Dylan, caught up in a misunderstanding and being hurt because of it. Jude didn't deserve any kind of happiness.
Well, Connor was telling the truth, but there was so much more to it. How do you guys feel about everything that is going on? I feel so much for my OC, Dylan. There is always the possibility of twists though, and sometimes my stories flip completely around. You've been warned.
