01/09/2015
Dear Baby,
Today was a bittersweet day. Your dad and I got to hear your heartbeat today. I couldn't hold back the tears of joy knowing you are alive in my belly. Your dad even teared up a little before kissing me and thanking me for giving him you. I should really be the one thanking him because your dad changed my life and gave me things that I never could have dreamed about, including you.
The reason today is a bittersweet day though is because sixteen years ago today, my mother, your grandma was murdered. That day changed my life forever until someone named Richard Castle, the love of my life, broke down the walls I had erected around my heart and taught me about all the joy and happiness I was missing in life by wallowing in my mom's murder. Your dad gave me life, a reason to live again. I will love him forever for giving me everything.
Oh Baby, I can't wait to meet you, to hold you and give you everything you need. I'm just so happy right now.
Remember I will love you for always.
Love, Mom
