It defines me
That will be my anchor.. my demise..
It will always ring in my mind
Why? Why does it always deafening me?
I wish I know when I already know.
It was the first thing that she thinks
The first thing she'd say
The first thing I will hear
If anyone asks her about me
It defines me
I never helped.. not in her eyes
When I helped, the results are so little
When I don't offer help
Somehow she always make me feel like I ruined her life
I suppose it is true
I did ruin her life.. and I still do
I exist
I exist burdening her
Why doesn't she just give me up?
I feel like I know why
Some stupid notion of guilt
Not abandoning her responsibility
She reminds me of that word everyday
How can it not be my first thought?
I see it in her eyes when she looked at me..
Worthless, and I memorized her lips as she say it.
Oh, she just said it again.
