It defines me

That will be my anchor.. my demise..

It will always ring in my mind

Why? Why does it always deafening me?

I wish I know when I already know.

It was the first thing that she thinks

The first thing she'd say

The first thing I will hear

If anyone asks her about me

It defines me

I never helped.. not in her eyes

When I helped, the results are so little

When I don't offer help

Somehow she always make me feel like I ruined her life

I suppose it is true

I did ruin her life.. and I still do

I exist

I exist burdening her

Why doesn't she just give me up?

I feel like I know why

Some stupid notion of guilt

Not abandoning her responsibility

She reminds me of that word everyday

How can it not be my first thought?

I see it in her eyes when she looked at me..

Worthless, and I memorized her lips as she say it.

Oh, she just said it again.