Disclaimer- Stephenie Meyers owns the characters used in this story, I am just borrowing them.
AN-Thanks for the encouraging words and emails. This is a short chapter, but necessary to get where we are going.
Drastic Decisions
BPOV
"What did I do, what did I do?" I repeated out loud to myself. The tears were streaming down my face. I knew that this was going to be the single most humiliating thing that has ever happened to me. I practically molested Edward, one minute we were playing , like we have a hundred times, and I just couldn't control the impulse to kiss him. I replayed it back in my mind, me leaning down and making contact with his mouth, our lips touching. I placed my fingertips on my lips, still feeling the heaviness and splendor of the kiss, the tongues… wait... He kissed me back, maybe he liked it…
Maybe he didn't Bella; maybe you didn't give him a choice. If he wanted to kiss you, he would have. How was I ever going to face him?
I had dreamed about the day that Edward Cullen would take me in his arms and kiss me with all that he is, but never once in my dream, did I walk up to him, push him on the bed, hold him down and make him kiss me. I felt stupid. I jumped into the shower and just wanted to wash away my humiliation while the memory of the kiss burned into my brain.
I wrapped the towel around my body and prayed that when I opened the door, I would not find Edward in the hall or worse in my room. I peered out the window and the hall was clear. I slowly walked in my room and found it empty. Relief settles through me and I was grateful to be alone. I took my time leaving my room and as luck would have it, Edward had gone to Seattle to sign his contract for his new job. I spent the rest of the day with Alice shopping. I hated shopping, but it brought Alice joy and it also kept my mind off of the morning events.
The next few days went by in a blur. Edward was very quiet and after he tried to talk to me the other day, I haven't seen him at all.
Flashback
I was lying on my bed listening to my IPod and hadn't heard the knock at the door. When I opened my eyes, Edward was standing there looking at me. I had no idea how long he was standing there but I pulled my headphones out of my ears and gave him a small smile.
'Hey" I said quietly not looking him directly in the eyes.
"I haven't seen you around the last few days? Edward stated
"Yeah, I have been doing a lot of wedding stuff" I lied
"Listen Bella, I wanted to talk to you about…"
"Edward… I whispered with an unsteady voice on the verge of tears "If you care about me at all, will you just forget what happened. I was out of line."
"Bella, but…" he started
My eyes started to well up and I looked up at him and said
"Please" I begged
Edward nodded at me and sadly left the room without saying anything else.
End of Flashback
It was all for the best. This way, Edward didn't have to feel sorry for me and in time, I would get over the feeling of school girl crush. I would move on and Edward and I could some day go back to being friends. Right now, I couldn't trust myself to be alone with him. Yes, this was better for both of us.
EPOV
I feel like crap. The last few days have been the worst of my life. I drove to Seattle and I just accepted the job of a lifetime and it was Bella who I wanted to celebrate with, but instead I was being shunned. She avoided me at every turn. I am not even sure what happened that morning. One minute we were kissing and the next, I am the enemy. I just don't get it. The kiss was amazing; I have never experienced anything like it. Could I have been so wrong?
I tried to sort things out and talk to her about it, but she shut me down. She didn't want me to say anything. She started to tear up and my heart broke. What ever happened in her mind after the kiss, I couldn't help but feel responsible, and I left her alone to not cause her more pain.
I even and spoke to Carlisle and asked his advice.
"Be honest Edward, If Bella has all the information she need to make a decision, and things don't change, then you at least know you tried, if you don't disclose your feeling will always wonder. This could have a happy ending and if you love her enough, you won't just let her go without a fight." Carlisle advised.
He was right in every way! I wanted to lay it all out there and see if there is hope for us. Bella was the one for me, now I just had to help her see that.
I knocked on Alice's door and I hoped that I wouldn't run into Bella. Alice opened the door while talking on her cell phone. I scanned the room and was relieved to find her alone. She raised her finger to let me know she would be done in a minute.
"Yes Jasper, ok, I will see you tonight. I love you too"
She smiled as she hung up the phone, but I didn't waste anytime
"Alice… I need your help!" I blurted out
I sat down and told Alice everything, from the time I picked Bella up at the airport to the other morning's amazing kiss and then her reaction to it.
After I finished Alice looked concerned.
"Edward, if I know Bella she is punishing herself for something. She doesn't exactly see what the rest of us see when it comes to herself. What I do know is that Bella smiles and laughs and jokes with you more than anyone else. Edward, you are Bella is meant to be, so I say you have to do it; you have to tell her how you feel." She beamed
"That is why I am here Alice, I need your help! I want Bella to not only hear my words, but I don't want her to even question my sincerity or my purpose. I want her to know that I lover her, so can you do it? Will you help?" He pleaded
Alice smiled confidently "Edward, by the time I am done creating this moment, you will have a hard time pealing her off of you. " Alice smiled confidently.
I don't think that I have ever loved my sister more. I felt confident that this was going to work. I had my sister on my side and I never bet against Alice.
Alice and I brainstormed all night and spent the next day making preparations for the big event. I thought of all the things I wanted to say to her, things I wanted to do with her. I was not going to take no for an answer. She had to see that we were meant to be.
AN- All kinds of surprises coming up in the next chapter... I am having fun writing, thanks for reading. Any helpful hints or ideas would be appreciated.
