Hey everyone! I'm back. Been a little busy with some stuff. This one is done in Jakes POV. It's done to Tourniquet by Evanescence. I hope you enjoy it!

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I tried to kill the pain

But only brought more (so much more)

I knew kissing her was going to be a bad idea. I thought that once she realized how she felt about me, she would give me a chance. But she didn't. I had to watch her leave and marry the leech. That and the events after that have led up to me lying here in so much pain.

I lay dying

And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal

I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming

I don't want to feel this pain anymore. I'm dying; it hurts too much for me to still be alive. I just want to scream all my pain away. I'm praying that death will be quick, so I don't feel the pain and the regret.

Am I too lost?

To be saved?

Am I too lost?

I've done some things lately that I'm not proud of. Things that have taken me from the path that my ancestors have laid out before me. I thought I could force her to love me. I've abandoned my family and my tribe all for her. I'm too lost to be saved now.

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

I just want to put a tourniquet on my heart to stop the pain. Death will be my salvation. I embrace it with open arms.

Do you remember me?

Lost for so long

Will you be on the other side?

Or will you forget me?

I miss her so much. I wonder if I'll see her on the other side. Will she remember me? I haven't been myself for so long. I've been so lost lately. Will she still see the same little boy that I was? Or the man that I've become.

I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming

Am I too lost?

To be saved?

Am I too lost?

Death seems so much closer now, I can feel the darkness approaching. I scream for it to take me under. Nothing can save me now; I've been lostfor so long now I wouldn't want to be saved.

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

I've never been the religious type. I know of our legends and the gods that we pray to, but I wonder if the good I've done will be enough to redeem me. I wonder if salvation will be mine in the end.

(Return to me salvation)

(Ohhhhhh)

(I want to die)

I feel cold now. Which is saying a lot since I've been a werewolf. Running at a 108 temp has become the norm for me. To feel the cold is oddly soothing for me right now. I know death is closer now. I just want to die now.

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

Will she be there to greet me? My sweet salvation. She's always been my salvation. In this dark world, she was always my light. I want to see my light again.

My wounds cry for the grave

My soul cries for deliverance

Will I be denied?

Christ? (Christ)

Tourniquet

My suicide

Please just take me now, my soul is crying to be delivered. The pain has become too much for me to bear. I didn't think death would hurt this much. I should have thought this out more clearly. All I wanted was to see my light. My salvation. Even if it meant by my own hands.

(Return to me salvation)

I can hear my heart slowing down and I know this is it. Time to see if I have earned my salvation, or if I cursed to continue to be alone forever. I close my eyes one last time...

(Return to me salvation)

I open my eyes to the brightness all around me. I look around at where I'm at. A bright light is coming my where am. I smile as I realized I have earned my salvation, because coming to welcome me is my Angel, my sweet salvation...

"Hey Bells..."


It's a little dark I know, but I really wanted to do a dark Jacob POV. I wanted to leave it to up your imagination about whats going on and draw your own conclusions. But for those that wanna know whats going on, scroll down further passed this note for details!

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So basically everything is the same up to the end of Eclipse. Bella still chose Edward. But the only difference was Edward agreeded to change her right after the wedding, before they left for their honeymoon. Well something went wrong and Bella didn't survive the change. Jacob, being upset, formed a plan to see his Bells again. He went to the Cullens alone and demanded that Edward pay for his crimes. They fight, Jacob falls. Edward bites him and as the venom is shutting down his system, he reflects on what brought him here, and his salvation. He knew it would end like this, he knew he would die.