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{BPOV}

For weeks, I avoided jasper like the plauge. When we would go on our buddy system hunts, I would always grab hold of charlies arm before anyone could say anything about it. I knew what they had said about it being dangerous for someone else to feed with us, but I always had my dad go way down wind from me so that i wouldnt attack him. I knew how true it was though. Because Jasper had attacked Alice for being to close to him when he was feeding. Ripping limbs from her several times. Jasper started to opt for going on his hunts alone and only acompanying her on her. He felt like shit for attacking the woman he loved. 'What the fuck ever dude.'

After we had our little argument, he had tried to talk to me several times. Said it was causing him physical pain not to be around me and he didnt appreciate haveing to be put through it, because he loved alice. I would round on him and call him an insensetive jerk, maybe give him a good punch in the face, or a knee to the nuts and ask him how that was for pain. 'Fucking Jackass! He should fucking know that it hurts me just as much... more actually because i have to watch my mate shack up with the latest edition of crack whore.'

I walked into the farm house and made my way to my new computer that i had bought to pass the time. As I was logging into my you tube account, Jasper walks up to me and quickly wraps his arms around me from behind. I struggled to get out of his hold until the chair broke under me from the force of our little tiff.

"Let me go..." I said taking a deep breath, trying to calm down before i bit the shit out of him.

"Not until we talk. Its been a month, and we both cant keep going on like this." He said as he drug me to the couch, still kicking and twisting to no avail. He plopped down on the couch, forcing me to sit on his lap, but i didnt go easy. I made sure that i plopped right down on his lil' Major and with enough forse to sink us both deep into the couch and spring back up like daisies.

"Mother Fucker..." He hissed in my ear. I felt his breath on the shell of my ear and neck. It was fucking Hot as shit!

"Well, since you seem to be hell bent on holding me hostage. What can I do you for, dear asshole mate of mine?" I asked him, My voice dripping with the hidden message of, 'Fuck you duche bag!'

"Why do you hate me right now? What did i do to you?" He asked. And I rolled my eyes.

"I dont hate you jasper, I just really cant fucking stand you right now." I said all sweetly to him.

"I know that, smart ass. I want to know why?" He said, blowing on my neck again. Im sure that if I was still human, I would have had chills all over my body by now.

"Because you are the biggest Jerk alive! Now let me go!" I yelled while trying to squirm my way out of his arms again. He held me a little tighter and pulled me closer to him.

"Stop." He ordered me, but I just squirmed harder and started yelling and cursing him like a dog. It felt good to do it to. I heard him let lose a possesive snarl, then I froze for a split second as I felt fear and arousal course through my body. He quickly took the chance of me being momentarily frozen to turn me in his arms, plant me on the ground while he loomed over me. His eyes bore into mine as he snarled at me... daring me to move. I felt more fear rise in me at his unspoken dominance over me.

"You will listen to me MATE!" He drug out the word mate as he leaned in close to my pulse point... If i had a pulse.

What other choice did I have? Oh, that's right. None. So I laid perfectly still, not necessarily giving in, and perfectly quiet. And he took his chance.

"Bella, what I said after our hunt, that wasn't meant to hurt you. It was the truth. I do love Alice.."

Ouch.

He continued, "But you are my mate. My fate-made true mate. I'm not saying that I'm in love with you, but..." he paused and chewed on his bottom lip, as if trying to find the right words. "...but these last few weeks, the pain that I've felt from not being near you, has made me realize that... I need you, Bella. When I'm not around you, I feel..empty, I guess is the word I'm looking for." He paused again, this time with a sigh.

"Jasper, I'll listen to you, but can we please get up and sit on the couch or something?" I asked.

He nodded his head and got off of me, and sat next to me on the couch with his head in his hands.

I tried to rub his shoulder as I spoke up, but he just softly brushed it off.

"Jas.." I started, but he started shaking his head.

"I'm not done, Bella. I need to finish before I lose my nerve.." He said.

Well, this was different. I never thought I would see the day that the strongest vampire I knew would be so emotional all on his own. I didn't know how to react, then he continued.

"I know you think that I must be only feeling this way because of the mating pull, but that's not the reason. When the mating pull is causing pain from being away from their mate, that's all it is; pain, from not being near their pain. I've come to be drawn you, Bella, to the point where I would even say..I miss you when you're not with me."

"When we hunt and you go with Charlie instead of me, it hurts. I do believe I now know what you were talking about when you told me that it hurt Alice when she was told she couldn't hunt with me. That's partially what caused me to regrettably attack Alice when you wouldn't go with me; because I saw her and was pissed off that it wasn't you feeding with me. I don't know why, though... I've never had that problem before... But, Bella, I want you to understand what I'm saying..." he finished. Now it was my turn.

"Jasper, I'm sorry. But, you've got to know.. I was more than a little hurt with what you said. I don't know why either. Maybe, it was our little intimate moment on our hunt that gave me false hope, and your words, your confession, just shattered that hope. I haven't wanted to be around you because it hurt so much to see the man that I care so deeply for, and that is supposed to be mine by fate, being with someone else that he is in love with. Do you get what I'm saying?"

He opened his mouth to answer, but I interceded.

"Yes, I felt the pain too from being away from you, but the reason that it didn't affect me as bad as it did you is because.. Jasper, I'm already drawn to you.. I have been since the day I wound up at
Peter and Charlotte's house. No, I didn't fall immediately for you, but when you knew exactly what I needed when I was on edge about Charlie, you acted upon it. You didn't push me to do anything I didn't want to do. For crying out loud, you helped me change my dad so that I wouldn't lose him because you claimed you couldn't bear to see me hurt if I lost him!"

I paused to look at his face and into his eyes.

"Don't you see, Jasper? I've never had that.. Not even Edward did any of that for me. I love you, Jasper. And that's why I can't be around you.. It just hurts too much, so much that I can't bear it.."

"Im not going to make you choose, Jasper, but i can't sit around and watch while you and Alice are... while you're with another woman..."

Jasper looked at me, a shocked expression on his face. I smiled slightly at him, then got up from the couch.

"There back." I told him when i heard the booming laughter of emmett not far from the house.


{JPOV}

I watched as Bella got up and walked away from me. Her emotions were swarming in a twisted and painful way. I hated seeing her like this. I could feel the longing to be with me. I felt like the biggest jackass alive. And I was. Bella deserved better then me. I wanted to curse fate for giving her a broken toy soldier instead of strong willed man.

I hadnt even knew that i was wondering around outside until I felt a hand touch my shoulder. I turned around to see Alice behind me.

"Jasper, We need to talk." She said with a little more attitude then was called for. I lifted my eyebrow at her tone of voice.

"Ok, What on your mind?" I asked calmly.

"I think we need to leave. Go back to the Cullens house and stay there for a while. Being around Bella is not doing good for our relationship." She said more like an order then a suggestion.

"Im not going anywhere, Alice." I calmly stated again,

"What?" She asked a little shocked.

"You heard me Alice. Bella is my mate and even if I wanted to, Which I dont, I couldnt leave her. The physical pain it would cause me to be that far away from her would be enough to drive me mad..."

"So your going to choose her over me? Your wife? The woman that you have been with for over 50 years!" A loud smack was heard through the forest. There was an erie silence, and the only thing that could be heard was the angry huffing that came from Alice.

"And you call yourself a fucking man! You and me will be leaving tomorrow! I will not allow that Bitch to ruin everything!" Alice screamed at me. I felt my eyes go black. And before I knew it, I had my hands on Alice's neck, growling sinisterly.

"Lets get one damn thing straight. I do not belong to the cullen clan. never have and never will. I am a whitlock..."

"Your not the same man you used to me!" she screached, and i tightened my hold on her neck warningly.

"No im not! Im finally being me! I am a whitlock and I am the leader of my own clan... Bella is my mate, and i dont think I take to kindly to a washed up pixie talking down to her! And We are not married." I pushed her slightly as I let go of her neck. He hand instantly went up to rub the sore spot.

"Are you fucking kidding me right now?! She has you so fucked up in the head... You've been sleeping with the little slut havent you?! Ill Fucking kill the bitch!" Alice yelled as she turned to make her way over to the house where Bella was. I grabbed her by the arm and slung her around, pushing her hard against a tree, when she tried to move, I slammed her back into the tree again, growling a low and threatening growl to her.

"You touch her, and I will rip your fucking ass to shreds and use your head as a door stop..." This bitch was fucking pissing me off. Now I knew why peter and Char never like her. I smiled wickedly before continueing. "And just to set the record straight... I would have already fucked her legs numb, if i didnt have a fucking rat hanging from my arms." I pushed her again into the tree, then leaned away from her.

Alice and I turned out heads to look at the path into the small forest we were in. Bella came walking into the clearing. For some odd reason, I felt the need to tear her clothes off right then and there. Alice watching or not. She was still just wearing the same jean shorts and tank top she was wearing earlier when we talked, but looking at her now, I see a BIG difference in the way i see her.

"Hey there Alice, Jasper. What are yall doing out here? She asked innocently." I smirked when the smell of a lie hit my nose. She knew exactly what was going on with Alice and me.

"You fucking cunt! You have alot of nerve showing up around me right now! If it werent for Jasper protecting your ass, You would be crispy and fried!" Alice screamed at Bella. I saw Bella's Eyes take a deep dark turn.

"Listen closley Alice Cullen, Its the complete opposite. Last time I checked, You were the one fucking my mate, not the other way around. I have told jasper that i didnt want to be with him while he was with you..." She placed her hand over here dead heart and mocked innocent. "Out of the kindness of my dead heart." She snapped back into fuck you mode. "But... since you want to be a fucking twatt licker, I think i will claim my mate... so scurry on back home to Eddie boy..." She said as she turned to me, striding slow and suductively up to me, wrapping her arms around my neck before kissing and licking my dead pulse point... 'FUUUUCK! Thats hot as hell.'

I watched as she turned her glaze back to Alice.

"Shoo shoo Fly." She said scooting her hand to make her leave.

'Fuck fuck fuck fuck...Theres about to be a scrap match!' and right as I though that, Alice came running toward bella.

I felt Bella smirk against my lips, then turned and swung her arm back. 'Holy Shit!' Bella had done knocked Alice's head clean off her shoulders and her body lay at our feet. Before The head could connect with a boulder and shatter, I ran out to it and caught it.

"Stupid Bitch, provoke my mate again, and I wont save your ass next time." I told her as i got back to where her body was, fusing her head back on.

"Now, That was a fucking warning. I have not slept with Jasper and wont until your skinny skeletor ass is out of the picture. A bit of gratitude would be fucking nice seeing as This is the first time I have touched you for being with my damn mate. And If you ever, I fucking me EVER put your filthy boney hands on him again and hit him... Your head will find itself rolling into a pyre. Do I fucking make myself clear?!" She said grabbing alice by the hair and forcing her to look up to her.

"Crystal." Alice said glareing at Bella.

To say i was proud of my mate was an understatement. I was turned the fuck on... and hard as a rock. I looked down at Alice.

"Get your shit out of my house, and get gone. I dont want to find you coming around here. If you do, I wont be responsable for my mates actions..." I turned to leave, grabbing Bella by the arm. "And if you havnt figured it out yet, We are fucking done." I said, then walked away from my now ex girlfriend with my mate in tow.

As we were just getting to the house we heard a shrill screaching coming from the spot we left Alice in. 'Damn, and now that i think of it, that bitch was way to fucking controling for my taste.'

"Bella, Do you wanna go for a hunt with me?" I asked her. She looked up to me and smirked.

"Back to Raywood?" She asked. I nodded smirking back. "Race ya!" She said and took off like a Bullet.

'Cheating Bitch...' I mumbled under my breath, then took off after her.


We made it back to raywood. About a mile outside of Daisetta. once we had hunted and fed, we sat back down at the same creek as last time we were here and cleaned ourselves up.

"So what got Alices panties in a bunch?" She asked me.

"Bitch wanted to tell me i had to leave with her, then demand I return to the cullens. I Aint about to do that shit." I told her laying on my back beside her, looking up at the clear sky and stars.

" I thought you liked being with the cullens? You seemed to be content with them." She responded, laying down beside me.

"Well I guess im one hell of an actor then, Maybe I should be nominated for a grammy award!" I told her with a laugh. she laughed with me. "I hated it there. I was never left alone for a second because they thought i was going to slip up. Bella, I am probably one of the most controled vampires around humans as a vampire can get. I dont have slip ups. If i want a human, Ill get one. plain and simple." I told her with a shrug of my shoulders.

"What about me? You lost control with me." she pointed out.

"And like I said. I dont have slip ups. I felt the hunger for you rise up in Edward. Believe it or now, I felt the pull for you back then as well. When I felt Edwards hunger spike up, I lunged for him, not you. I knew I had to protect you... it was me lunging that brought him out of his little bloodlust for a split second and he was able to shove you away from him and get out. If he had killed you that day, I would have killed him, and then followed you. I didnt know it was a mating pull at the time because i was never around you enough to figure that out."

I saw her nod her head and star at the stars above us. She looked like an angel with her long chocolate brown waves bellowing out around her. I wasnt quite sure how to handle the feelings that were coming on to me so suddenly. just earlier today, I didnt want to be with her, and now... I cant see myself without her. 'She is my mate... this beautiful girl is my woman by right... '

"Jasper?" 'Such beautiful lips, and her body is curved in all the right places...'

"Jasper, are you ok? Maybe we should... " I hadnt even noticed that she was talking to me while i was in my head. All I know is that one second im admireing her beauty, then the next, I had her underneath me with my lips on hers, both if our lips battling for control. I pulled back from her lips and began to trail hot kisses down the column of her neck, then worked my way back up to her lips. We made out like that for a while longer, then I pulled away from her. both of us breathing hard. trying to cage in our hormones.

"We should probably get back. the sun is about to come up and the others are most likely wondering where we are." She told me, looking down at the ground.

"Look at me Bella." She just shook her head slightly.

"Bella, Look at me." I said as i grabbed her chin and pulled it to my eyes. "Im so sorry for hurting you. I want to... try and make us work. I have never had feeling like this before for anyone and i dont know what to make of them..." She smiled slightly at me.

"Jasper... Its too soon for us to be declaring feelings for each other. You just broke up with Alice not 24 hours ago." She told me.

"I know, and I agree, but i just wanted you to know where i stood. I dont know why all of a sudden I feel different about you, but I do. and I know its soon. But I figured we could try... we can take it slow and just let it flow. See where it leads us." I told her, running my thumb over her bottom lip.

I saw her nod at me, so i leaned down and pecked her lips once, then helped her stand up with me.

"come on, before they send out a search party." I said laughing. She laughed with me, and I felt something rise up in my stomache at the sound of it. making me smile as we ran hand in hand.

It took us longer then usual to get home, we decided to take a scenic route, and I showed her some of my brother and my favorite spots as a kid. Every single one of them looked different, every one of them but one. The creek that we used to camp at when we went hunting together. The forest was a little more grown up then i remember it, but besides some extra vegitaion, it looked exactly the same. The rock that my brother had carved his name in was still there. Still bearing the scare from where he took his knife to it.

"Its beautiful Jasper. I have never seen so many fireflies in my life." She told me as she danced around them. She glanced down at the rock I was looking at, reading the name before turning to me.

"Who's name is that?" She asked, tracing it with her hand.

"My brother's. He died in the war." I admitted while looking away from her.

"What happened to him?" Bella asked me, sitting beside me on the rock.

"We had been sleeping in our tent in galveston. A young soldier ran in and told us the city was being attacked, Before the man even got out of our tent to carry out his orders, he was shot down. My brother saw the man responsible point his gun at me next. I tried to kill him first, but my brother knew I wasnt going to be able to shoot fast enough, so he ran across the tent and pushed me out of the way, but he was standing where i had been when the gun went off. He had taken a bullet for me and was dying in my arms. next thing I knew, he had given an order to drag me out of the tent and leave him behind. Ill admit I was not in my right state of mind. We had been so close to each other. I didnt want him to die, let alone go through it by himself.

I went back to find his remains and they were gone. I never saw my brother again, shortly after that, I had been taken and changed for maria's army. The last thing I remember hearing from my brother was 'I love you lil' bud.'" I smiled weakly at her as she wrapped her arms around me for comfort.

"Im so sorry jasper. I cant imagine what you must be feeling." she told me as she rubbed my back.

"I feel like a failiuer. Thats why I trained hard in maria's army. So that next time something like that happened, I would be ready to protect peter and char... because they became my family. I refused to lose them to." Bella stood up and pulled my face to look at hers.

"Now you listen here Jasper Whitlock! You are a very strong man! It was a horrible way to lose your brother, yes but it was not your fault. He did not die for nothing. Jasper, dont you see? your brother died because he loved you, and wanted you to live for him." She said to me, I couldnt help the flow of tears as they streamed down my face.

"I know... I just wish I could have done something..." I probably sounded stupid and full of drama, but When it came to Garrett... I couldnt help but to feel pain. And I felt it by the truck loads.

Bella wiped my face with her hand, and I turned my face into her palm and kissed it. I grabbed her other hand in mine and kept the other one held to my cheek.

"Bella, please tell me you forgive me for being so stupid..." I asked her. She smiled at me.

"Well duh... of course I forgive you... because your my stupid mate." She told me while laughing sweetly.

I leaned in to kiss her, pausing slightly, checking to see if it was appropriate. When she didnt object, I moved to seal her lips with mine... Then a scent carried its way to my nose. I immidiatly pushed Bella behind me and a snarl ripped its way up my throat.

"Whats wrong Jasper?" Bella whispered to me. Then she tensed when she smelled the scent to.

"Who is that..." she asked

"I dont know, but I dont recognize the scent." Another snarl ricocheted off the trees to warn the tresspasor, but when they kept coming I crouched, getting ready for an attack.

'Whoever this is on my damn territory is about to get a very warm welcome service!'


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