"Oh my god!"
"Rachel it's going to be fine" Finn said trying to calm down his girlfriend.
The group was at the park after making a narrow escape from the security at the mall, Finn was sat on the picnic bench as Mercedes look over his nose which was bleeding. Rachel had been freaking out since they stopped.
"What if they find us? We'll get put in prison?" Rachel gasped loudly "what if they only allow me to be play convicts in all my future roles?" gasping even louder she added "what if those parts don't have solo's?"
"Rachel, everything will be fine" Finn said comfortably.
"I think it's broken" Mercedes said, about Finn's nose "looks like we'll be heading to the hospital earlier than planned"
At this Blaine lifted his head up from where he sat cradling his hand due to a newly broken knuckle, he had fun with the Finn and everyone but after seeing the guys that had attack them Blaine just wanted to go see Kurt.
His eyes
His mouth
His hair
Even his clothes
He was looking at an exact replica of himself
How?
How could this be?
Maybe he had made his final descent into madness, it had started with voices and it now ends with hallucinations.
"Hello Kurt" Words in Kurt's voice came to his ears but he was not the one to speak them.
The newcomer, Kurt's double, smile slightly has he noticed Kurt's failure to respond to his greeting as well as his frightened posture. "You are scared"
Kurt remained where he was, silent. The double made to step towards him but when he did so Kurt took a step back as too keep distance between the two.
"I understand that you must be confused but time was running out and you weren't taking the hint"
Confusion graced Kurt's face
"You need to wake up" the double said desperately.
"What do you mean?" Kurt asked finally finding his voice.
"This is not your life. The voices of your friends have been telling you so."
Kurt looked up surprised making his double laugh.
"Here you are staring at yourself yet you are surprised that I know about the voices that you hear?"
"Fair point" Kurt said in reply "but I suppose a figment of my imagination would know what's going on in my mind"
The double laughed "Almost right. I am from your mind but I'm not imagined."
"Yeah, Okay. That makes perfect sense."
The double signed "why do we have to be so difficult?"
"We?"
"Well I am a part of you."
"Okay I really have lost it haven't I?" Kurt asked himself "I'm getting frustrated with myself"
"You are not crazy. You're sleeping."
Kurt looked at the double as though he had grown another head before starting to pace while muttering to himself "oh my god, this is it. My life is over. I've gone over the edge. I'm going to spend the rest of my days sitting in a rocking chair forever having arguments with a hallucination of myself. Oh god, am going to end up wearing corduroy."
SMACK!
Kurt was left holding on to his cheek as it left stinging and begun to turn bright red from the sudden impact of the doubles hand against him.
"Oh look at what you've done now, I've gone and chipped a nail." The double complained at Kurt stared at him, shocked at his actions. "Don't look at me like that, you were getting annoying."
"My cheek hurts, so I'm either really far gone or your real."
"Wrong!" the double look at Kurt obviously starting to get frustrated "I told you, I'm from your mind. All of this" he said gesturing around him "is in your mind."
"What do you mean? This is my life"
"Is it?"
Kurt looked at the double insulted and knew he was about to get defensive because maybe deep down he did wonder if this was his life "Of course it is. How could it not be?"
"Think Kurt. Would your father tell you not to come home, would your friends allow you to ignore them for days?"
Kurt's heart began to beat faster; he knew the answers to these questions but he couldn't accept it. This was his life. His father. His friends. Kurt closed his eyes as if doing so would block out the doubles words.
"What about Blaine?"
Kurt looked up at his double staring into his eyes.
"Would he tell you to give up the solo? Leave the warblers?"
"Stop it"
"Would he hurt you?"
"Stop" Kurt closed his eyes and raised his hand to his ears trying to block out all sound.
"Would he make you live in fear? Would he force himself onto you?"
"BLAINE LOVES ME!" Kurt shouted releasing his ears.
The double smiled "Yes he does" he took a step towards Kurt "Blaine's voice that told you that was full of love, wasn't it? That is the true Blaine. The one you see is not the real one."
"Why are you doing this?" Kurt said as tears released from his eyes and started to make their way down his porcelain face.
"Because you need to wake up." The doubles face softened "This isn't real. You know that. This is all in your head and it's time for you to wake up. Look at your car"
"Ah! You're done" Rachel said as Blaine came out of an examination room that he was in having his hand looked at "everything okay?"
"Yeah, they just taped 2 of my figures together" Blaine said as he began to look round for the others "should be fine in three weeks. Where is everyone?"
"There just in the canteen I said we would meet them in Kurt's room."
"Well thanks for waiting for me." Blaine said, and while he did appreciate that she cared enough to wait for him he was a bit disappointed that he wouldn't be able to visit Kurt by himself.
"I was thinking we could sing him a song"
Blaine was surprised by her statement at first, it was unexpected, but he realized that he liked the idea and suddenly he wasn't upset at having company when visiting Kurt.
"Yeah, I think that's a good idea." He said smiling.
Kurt turned his head and looked at his car "what am I meant to be looking at?"
"The writing."
Just when Blaine and Rachel were nearly at Kurt's room they saw a familiar face.
Kurt looked but once again he couldn't make out what was scratched into his car.
"I don't know what it says."
"Yes you do. Look"
"CAROL!" Rachel shouted and began to skip down the corridor, grabbing Blaine's hand and dragging him with her. But when carol turned around they both stopped dead in their tracks.
Her face was full of worry.
It was then Blaine noticed the people rushing into Kurt's room.
Kurt looked for a third time but again he was unable to read the words.
"I don't know!" he shouted.
"Read it!"
"Blaine? Rachel? What are you doing here?" Carol asked trying to hide the worry she felt from showing on her face but she didn't do a good job of it.
Ignoring Carol's question he asked one of his own. "what's going on?"
"Something's wrong, I don't –"
Before carol could finish her sentence Blaine ran to Kurt's room, he froze in the door way.
"I can't, I –"
"LOOK AT IT!"
Standing around Kurt's bed was a crowd of doctors and nurses, messing with needles, and tubes, all of them rushing to do what they could to try fix the pale boy. Everything seemed like a blur, people were shouting and there was a loud beeping of a heart monitor that was beating much faster than it should have been. In the corner stood Burt whose eyes were filled with tears that threatened to fall, it was after looking at this grown man at Blaine felt the wetness of his own cheeks
"Charging. CLEAR!" Blaine's attention was brought back to the doctors. He felt his breath catch in his throat as he saw Kurt as he reacted to the current that had just been sent though his body.
Kurt turned once again and looked at the car.
He saw it.
The writing.
One word scratched into his car.
Fag.
Kurt remembered.
Even though the room was full of people and noise there was one that sounded the loudest to Blaine. One noise that made the whole room seem silent in comparison.
The continuous, high tone of heart monitor.
Authors note:
WHOO! I updated. Bet you weren't expecting me to update so soon. But I did :D its shorter than the last but I feel if I made it any longer it would just drag.
Any who, I hope you enjoyed this chapter.
10 cookies to caramarie1918 who knows what's happening in Kurt's head, well done :D
I want to thank you all again for your alerts/favs and reviews. I was very surprise at all of your kind words and it was because of all your encouragement that this chapter is up as soon as it is. So thank you all so very muchly.
Last time I said we will find out what happened to Kurt in his chapter but we didn't. Sorry. That will now be in the next chapter.
Once again thank you all for your support, to those who have been reading since the beginning and to those who have just found this story.
