Chapter 7
When he got back to Burt and Carole's house he walked into the bedroom and fell onto the bed crying. Carole knocked on the door softly, opening it and sitting on the side of the bed, rubbing circles into Blaine's back, trying to calm him down. She left, unsure if Blaine heard her say she would be right back over the loud gasps as he tried to catch his breath and stop crying.
She came back about ten minutes later with a cup of tea for each of them, and Blaine was curled into the corner of the bed against the wall, holding his knees, shaking, and hyperventilating. Carole set down the tray and rushed over to him, pulling him into a hug, her shirt instantly getting wet from all the tears. "Blaine, honey, what's wrong?"
Between gasp he managed to tell her that he was having an anxiety attack. He pointed to the half unpacked suitcase on the ground. "I-I-I h-have m-my a-anxiety pills i-in there," he choked out. "I n-need one w-w-with a drink."
"Of course, yes, let me find that.." Carole said, a little scared and trying to quickly find the pills. "Ah-hah! Found 'em!" she exclaimed, shaking one into her hand and giving it to Blaine along with the tea. He swallowed the pill and tried to calm himself down while waiting for it to work, Carole still rubbing his back and repeating "Shhh it's okay, shhh." over and over until he was calm enough to move and breathe normally enough to talk.
"What caused that Blaine? Are you okay?"
"I- I fucked up, Carole. I ruined everything I had with Kurt - My whole future - because I felt lonely. I- I fucked up the best thing in my life and hes never going to forgive me because I did a disgusting unforgivable thing and I just want to forget it ever happened and just talk to him and I just want to hug him and kiss him and tell him that I love him and that I made a mistake and that's all it was - A stupid, stupid mistake, but I can't because he won't talk to me!" he cried.
Carole hugged him again. "He will come around sweetie, you have to believe he will eventually talk to you and understand it was a mistake. He still loves you. I know that much. He would never stop loving you. He couldn't. You haven't seen how he talks about you when you aren't there, Blaine. He is not going to let all of that be thrown away because of a single mistake. It will take a while to regain his trust, yes, but it will happen at some point, you have to believe that."
"Nobody has ever stuck around, Carole. They all leave. Every single goddamn one of them leaves. They don't care about me. Nobody cares. Why would Kurt? I'm pathetic. And I broke his heart. Why would he ever want me back?"
Carole frowned. "Believe me, sweetie, he really does still love you. Will you be okay on your own? I have a few things to do but if you need me I can just do them tomorrow okay?"
"Don't - I don't want to waste your time. Don't waste any time on me..."
"It's not a waste of time, Blaine. YOU aren't a waste of time. We care about you, Blaine, and we don't like seeing you like this."
"I'm sorry.. I shouldn't be bothering you with my problems.. I shouldn't be imposing like this and making you take your time to take care of me.."
"Blaine. Stop apologizing. You don't need to be sorry for anything."
"Sorry." Blaine said with a slight smile.
Carole laughed. "Smartass."
