HEY EVERYONE I REALLY THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO GET TO 20 BUT I GOT TO 19

CLOSE ENOUGH I THINK I UPDATED THIS CHAPTER FOR MY NIECE DESTANIE

SINCE I DIDN'T GET 20 IM SORRY THERE WILL BE NO SHOUT OUTS OF UR STORY

SO THERE ARE SOME TWISTS COMING AND I BET YOU NEVER SAW IT COMING

I NEEDED SOMETHING TO GET MY ATTENTIION AGAIN LOL SO DISCLAMER:

"BRIANNA I HEARD YOU DON'T OWN ANY THING IS IT TRUE?" SHANE ASKED ME

"YEAH SHANE ITS TRUE I OWN NOTHING" I SAID WITH A SAD FACE =(

"WOW THAT SUCKS FOR YOU" SHANE SAID WHILE LAUGHING

I HIT HIM OVER HIS HEAD

ON WITH THE STORY

(((UPDATE ON 25)))

Dear journal

I know I haven't wrote in a while but I have been busy. Me and Shane are friends again I told him that even though I loved him I couldn't get back with him I have to see where his friendship is. As for me and Chad were still best friends even though we kissed we made it final that we didn't want to ruin our friendship. I'm working on a song with Shane for our performance its kind of a break up song in a way. We both thought it was a good idea. Only two more weeks till the end of the semester performance is hear. I worked on my vocal skills and I learned my voice even more that I already knew. I met good friends and I lost some yeah I miss them and I hope on day we will see each other again one day. I'm still unsure on my life. I still want my new start in LA, my mom and dad finally gave up and got a divorce my dad moved back to New Jersey and my mom stayed in Roswell. But I hope things get better well like always I have to go. I just wanted to let you know what was happening in my life.

Love Mitchie T.

I got done writing so now I was off to advanced singing. I was working on a song called I'll never get over you. I guess it was about Shane it was a old song that I was working on but I ended up giving up because my broken heart turned into hate. But now I'm trying to finish the song its actually due on Monday. I was walking down the hall when I over heard a familiar voice.

"Dude so are you going to tell her?"that was Shane who was he talking to? I walked a little closer and saw him talking to Jason

"How can I Tell Mitchie Shane?" Jason whispered but loud enough so I can hear.

"Man I have no clue but you have to tell her come on you kissed her own cousin." Shane said

What Jason kisses Terri is that the reason why her and Jack broke up? I decided I heard enough I went down to the quad I had a hour till class started anyways so I went to my favorite bench and decided to finish my song. When someone came up behind me and covered my eyes.

"Guess who?" a voice said it wasn't that soft sweet voice I loved so it wasn't Shane but it wasn't Chad's either. It was actually a voice I haven't heard in a while it sounded like it was familiar.

"I don't know who is it?" I asked like it was going to be that easy.

"Nope you have to guess who it is or I'm not letting go" oh my god I know who it is there is only one other person who acted like that with me it was...

"Jack you ass I was scared!" I yelled and he started to laugh

"My bad sorry my Mitchie .T what you doing?" he was the only one who called me that name and I loved it.

"Its okay Jack S... nothing really just got done with this song and now I was about to wait for class to start and you what you doing at school?" I asked looking really confused.

"Oh nothing really I just needed to get away from things so I decided that I was going to visit you. Wanna go to the cafeteria and get something to eat?" he said putting his arm over my shoulder as we got up and was headed to the cafeteria. I saw Shane and Jason had left there spot but then I noticed that there was a blond in front of me and a curly haired guy. Oh man thats Jason and Terri oh man drama at 2 o'clock.

"Is that Terri in front of us?"he asked I just stayed quit. What she done was wrong all I knew was that she broke up with Jack two days before there anniversary.

"Yea I think it is her...wanna leave before she sees us?" I asked getting ready to leave but too late they saw us.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING STALKING ME NOW JACK!" she yelled making a scene every body was watching us now. I just looked at Jack and he had this hurt expression on his face. I never hated my cousin till right this moment. Jack done everything for her what ever she needed he got it. He was good to her but she threw his love down the drain like he was nothing.

"I wasn't here because of you I needed to talk to Mitchie she is still my friend with or with out you!" he yelled back but with a more calmer tone. Terri on the other hand looked like she was about to flip.

"Oh like she wants you here Jack no one wants you here now leave! I certainly don't" I cut her off

"Look Terri I don't know whats up with you lately but Jack didn't do shit to you! He done everything for you and who are you to tell him how I feel! He is like my older brother I never had so I do want him here now just leave both of us alone!" I yelled back I knew she was about to slap me she had a bad temper. She raised her arm and I just closed my eyes she hit me right in the eye. I ended up falling but I got back up and hit her back I hit her nose and she started to bleed.

"YOU FUCKIN BITCH DON'T EVER TELL ME WHAT TO DO YOU STUPID SKANK TWO FACED WHORE!" I yelled the old violent Mitchie was back I just blew it I was tired of everything ever since I came to this school she was a bitch to me she turned into a Tess but two times worse. We were throwing hits back and forth I pulled her hair and spitted in her face. She kicked me and slapped me. She started to yell at me like she was a animal.

"I'M NOT A BITCH MITCHIE! YOU ARE! DIDN'T YOU EVER FIGURED IT OUT I WAS THAT GIRL THAT BROKE YOU AND SHANE UP IT WAS ME! I JUST HAD A WIG ON REMBER I USE TO HAVE THAT BROWN HAIR ON. IT'S YOUR FAULT WHY PAUL IS DEAD ITS YOUR FAULT WHY TROY DIED ITS YOUR FAULT WHY YOUR PARENTS GOT A DIVORCE DON'T YOU SEE IT MITCHIE YOU RUIN EVERYONES LIFE! WHY DONT YOU DO ALL OF US A FAVOR AND DISAPPER" she yelled I just stood there letting all the words sink into me she was right that was her at the concert she hated me and Paul this was her plan all along. I just felt a rush that I couldn't stop I had to be strong again but I couldn't not now she tore down my wall by those words. I just turned and I saw Shane he looked mad Jack looked like he was going to hit someone and Jason just stood there in shock.

"Mitchie"Shane said in a hurt voice I had tears running down my face and soon as I knew it I was running off again. I didn't want to be around any one I just wanted to run I didn't stop I just kept running. I didn't care I just wanted to leave I stopped at the bus stop and got on the bus I didn't know where I was going. I usually stayed around the school. I got off at the last stop it was the beach I just walked off the steps and ran to the sand. I sat down and just cried and cried. How could she be so mean and hateful I never thought my own cousin could do that to me. She knew I loved Shane and now because of her I lost him. I just looked strait at the water it was beautiful the ocean seemed to calm me down. I turned off my phone so I wouldn't be disturbed.

(SHANE POV)

"Mitchie"i said softly and she just looked around and decided to run off again.

"I can't believe you done that to us to Mitchie.. Why Terri do you hate her that much?" I asked she just looked at me and laughed a bitter cold laugh I felt cold chills go down my arms.

"Oh Shane when will you ever learn? I already told you dear that she took everything from me now its only down fall from now on for her and thanks to you I got my wish" she smirked

"Burn in hell Terri" I said and ran off after Mitchie. After about a hour looking for her I went back to my room where Nate, Caitlyn and Jason were trying to call Mitchie. They looked scared like something bad happened.

"has she answered yet?" I asked not wanting to hear the answer they all just shook there head and went back to texting and calling her.

"I'm sorry Shane I didn't know Terri was like that" Jason said while looking out the window

"It's cool we all didn't know how she was I just hope we find Mitchie soon"

(MITCHIE POV)

I was sitting in the sand for like a couple of hours I turned on my phone and it went off like crazy. I had 20 missed calls and 25 text messages. Most of them were from Caitlyn and Shane saying where was I and if I was okay or call me once you get this. I just read them and went to the next messages some were forwards and there was one from Chad asking me if I had ten dollars to lend him and there was one from Jack asking me if I was okay. Then there was one from Jake he wanted to know if I wanted to hang out. I text him back telling him where I was at. He agreed to come and now I'm waiting for my friend Jake. I felt someone sit next to me and put there arm around me I looked up and it was Jake. I told him what happened over the phone and he was upset that my own cousin could tell me that. He broke the silence by talking first. I turned off my phone and looked down.

"How you feeling?" he just looked at me and played with my hair.

"I don't know Jake it seems like when every thing starts to finally work on my side it takes a nasty twist." I said I was still crying I don't think I ever stopped. Jake was some one I could talk to and he would just listen and hold me thats what I needed the most.

"I know Mitch everything that you went threw isn't fair your like my little sister and I hate when you get hurt." I just laid my head on his shoulder and starring into the ocean. I didn't say any thing and he knew all I needed was someone to be there to hold me. The difference between Jake and Chad I run to Chad when a boy breaks my heart with Jake I can tell him anything and he knows exactly what I need or what to say. With Shane I could do both but I didn't want him to see me having another mental breakdown.

"Jake do you think I should give Shane another chance?" he looked at me and smiled

"Yeah I noticed when he is around you smile more and your eyes sparkle with happiness." he said while trying not to laugh at the faces I was making.

"She is the reason why we broke up I should have heard him out before I went A-wall on him huh." Jake just nodded and we just fell into silence after that. We watched the sunset go down. It was pretty it was orange and red and it made the water look twice as beautiful. I looked into Jakes greenish eyes and kissed his cheek and he hugged me. Then he stood up and grabbed my hand to help me up. We went to the pier and ate some tacos (my fav) we walked around for little bit. We just kept up little random conversations. We talked about his new show that he is in called Zombie High. I talked about a record deal that the winner is going to get after the performance. Then he talked about chicken and I started to laugh and since then he kept making jokes that made me happy again.

"Jake your the best. From all my friends I think I can trust you the most" I said we were holding hands. If someone saw us they probably thought we were a couple but to us is was his little sis and he was my big brother. It's been like that since the day we met three years ago he was always protecting me and I loved him for that.

"No problem Mitch ill do anything for you. What is a big brother for any ways right." I just smiled and that was all that needed to be said. He took me back to the dorms we were parked in the parking lot. I didn't have a curfew it was Friday so I could be out a little later.

"Mitchie no matter what any body tells you its not your fault that Paul and Troy died it was the drunk drivers and that stupid ass hole who shot Troy it's not yours and as for your mom and dad it between them its not yours okay now put that mouth to use and smile again I hate to see you sad" I smiled and he got out the car to open my door he was always a gentleman to girls. He grabbed my hand and we were walking to my dorm and we hugged and he went back to his apartment. I went and I grabbed my guitar and started to sing the song that I was working on earlier.

I started to play the tune and I sighed and started to sing

I hear you're taking the town again

Having a good time.

With all your good time friends.

I don't think that you think of me.

You're on your own now.

And I'm alone and free.

I know that I should get on with my life.

But a life lived with out you could never be right.

As long as the stars shine down from the heavens.

Long as the rivers run to the sea.

I'll never get over you gettin' over me.

I try to smile so the hurt won't show.

Tell everybody

That I was glad to see you go.

But the tears just won't go away (won't go away)

Lonliness found me.

Looks like it's here to stay.

I know that I ought to find someone new.

But all I find is myself always thinkin' of you.

As long as the stars shine down from the heavens.

Long as the rivers run to the sea.

I'll never get over you gettin' over me.

oh... No matter what I do.

Each night's a lifetime to live through.

I can't go on like this. (I need your touch)

You're the only one I ever loved... oh.

And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens.

Long as the rivers run to the sea.

I'll never get over you gettin' over me.

I'll never get over you gettin over.

Never get over you... gettin over.

I'll never get over you gettin' over me

After I was done singing I went to sleep and thats when the nightmares started.

"I'M NOT A BITCH MITCHIE! YOU ARE! DIDN'T YOU EVER FIGURED IT OUT I WAS THAT GIRL THAT BROKE YOU AND SHANE UP IT WAS ME! I JUST HAD A WIG ON REMBER I USE TO HAVE THAT BROWN HAIR ON. IT'S YOUR FAULT WHY PAUL IS DEAD ITS YOUR FAULT WHY TROY DIED ITS YOUR FAULT WHY YOUR PARENTS GOT A DIVORCE DON'T YOU SEE IT MITCHIE YOU RUIN EVERYONES LIFE! WHY DONT YOU DO ALL OF US A FAVOR AND DISAPPER" Terri yelled

I tried to run but I couldn't "STOP LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled but they kept hitting me

"NO ONE WANTS YOU!"

"IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT MITCHIE"

the voices kept playing on repeat in my head. Till I couldn't hear any more blood was all over from everyone hitting me.

"leave me alone please stop" I cried out then I saw Terri for the last time in my dream and she grabbed a gun and yelled "JUST DISAPER!" and with that she shot me.

I woke up screaming and crying I looked at the clock it was 2:18am I just laid in bed crying. I got up and grabbed my phone I turned it on and called someone who I needed more than everything right now.

"Hello... Mitchie are you okay?

SO THAT WAS THAT CHAPTER WERE U SURPRISED??

I WAS I DIDN'T KNOW HER COUSIN WAS SO EVIL

WHAT A BITCH LOL

LIKE BEFORE ILL UPDATE ON 25 REVIEWS

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