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Think you could walk on such a thin line
Jerome and I stood there for a few minutes, before I pulled away.
"Amber, what happened?"Jerome asked me softly
I looked down. "It seems as if almost all of my friends have gone behind my back."
"Why would they want to do that to such a pretty girl?"
I looked up again, into Jerome's eyes. He was blushing.
"I-I mean, why would anyone want to do that to you?" Jerome stammered out.
I shrugged. "It seems as if Joy is the only one that didn't do anything wrong."
"I think it would help me understand if you told me what happened," Jerome told me.
I shook my head, and a few more tears fell down.
"You don't have to," he said quickly, noticing the tears.
I just shook my head again. If I told him, he would never talk to me again.
"Hey, Amber, look at me," Jerome says.
I look up at him, and he begins talking.
"Amber, even though I don't know what happened, I can promise you your life isn't over. Whatever Nina and I'm guessing Fabian did, you can get through this. You're beautiful, and you're going to find somebody who treats you right."
Now, I don't know who leaned in first, but all I do know is Jerome and I kissed.
Once we pulled away, we just stood there, looking into each other's eyes.
"Oh, so this is your game? Kissing your ex-boyfriend's best friend?" a voice sounded from the door.
Jerome and I both turn to see Alfie standing there, looking extremely mad.
"No, Alfie, it's not what it looks like," I try to tell him.
"It's exactly what it looks like. Why can't you just understand I'm with Willow now, slut?"
I look at Jerome, who looks like he's about to punch someone.
"I am not a slut," I say quietly to Alfie.
Alfie rolls his eyes. "Please, I know you fancy Fabian too. I know you were in the bathroom with him. Hooking up with him, maybe?"
I could feel the tears rolling down my eyes. "He needed help with something and I could only help him with it in the bathroom!"
Alfie rolls his eyes again. "Likely story. Fabian and Nina are looking for you. They are both crying, so I bet you did something to upset them, slut."
"Alfie, who knew you, could be so cold!" I say back to him.
"I'm only mean to people who deserve it," he replies.
"Get out," Jerome says, quietly.
"What?" I ask him, thinking he's talking about me.
"You heard me, get out, Alfie," Jerome says, more loudly.
"This is my room too, Jerome. Why don't you make that freaking bitch over there go?"
"She can stay. You're the one that's fucking messed up!" Jerome swears, seething with anger.
"I'm the messed up one? You're the one that hooked up with the class slut!"
I had had enough.
"Thanks, Jerome, but I have to go," I run out.
I grab my coat, put on my shoes, and run outside. It was raining, how appropriate.
My feet started running, and I had no idea where I was going. I just had to get away. My feet took me to the 'Sibuna' clearing in the woods. I curled up into a ball on the ground, and immediately started sobbing.
Who knew people could be so cruel? No one ever told you that when you were younger. When you're little, you think everything is funny, you have nothing to regret, and you don't get called names.
Alfie had hit a really soft spot. I hate being called a slut. Now, this is something nobody knows about me.
The person I call daddy now is not my real dad.
My real dad, Thomas Woods, used to abuse me. Even though I was only three, he would still get mad that I couldn't walk, couldn't talk, couldn't do anything hardly. He would call me a slut almost every day for no reason at all. Sure, he called me other things, but that's the thing that affected me the most for some reason. The scar on my hip, everyone that knows my secret thinks I did it, but it was from him slamming a beer bottle on the table that I was standing right next to. Not even my mother knows he did this to me.
Thomas Woods walked out of our life when he learned that my mom was pregnant again, with my little brother.
I haven't heard from him since, and I'm sure I don't want to.
Once my mom married my step dad, David Millington, he became like my real father. He would do anything I needed, and soon we became even closer than my mom and I.
His co-worker is the father of Nate.
I started sobbing even harder when I thought of Nate.
He freaking betrayed me. He knew that I didn't want Nina to see that picture.
Then Nina had that nightmare, and told Fabian.
Fabian told Nina to go to the counselor to talk about it. I guess the nightmare was really bad.
But Nina didn't have to put my name into it. She could've left my name out of it.
She also knew that Joy knows my secret and would be more than happy to talk to Nina and try to help her.
I can't trust anyone now, except Joy. I find it strange, because she is the last person I would ever expect to help me.
'Kill yourself.'
I gasped at that thought. I never had one that was that straight forward.
'You know you want to!'
'Look, there are even pills in your pocket!
'Just do it! No one gives a damn about you!'
'No one likes you. Not even your own father.'
'Jerome was just kidding himself; of course he doesn't like you. He only kissed you because he felt sorry for you!'
Then I heard Alfie's voice. 'Slut!'
I don't even remember pulling out the pills, or dumping them all into my hand.
'Go ahead. No one will miss you.'
I started by putting two in my mouth.
'Oh, that's all you got? Put more in.'
I did as commanded, and soon enough they were all in my body.
I lied back down, and soon enough I started feeling really tired.
I let my eyes droop, and before I was emerged into total darkness, I heard the voice.
'Finally, you did the right thing!'
Poor Amber. I feel evil.
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