First of all I wanna say how sorry I am with not writing as much as I used to. School's been hectic and stressed really. Hope everyone had a great Christmas and New Year.
Jane and Maura came home early from work. They've been working very hard lately. They have found out that Paddy have been framed, by his ex co-worker Edward Nash. Edward decided that he would from Paddy for the murder of Casey Jones. Edward went after Casey because he cheated on Edwards sister Judy with Jane.
Jane had the song in her head the entire ride home from work. They got home and inside and Jane still had the song The bleeding stuck in her head. Jane starts humming the song loudly.
"Jane honey, what are you humming?" Maura ask looking at Jane.
Jane smiles at Maura "The bleeding by FFDP." Jane smiles
"What does FFDP mean?" Maura asked couriousily not knowing it's a hard rock and metal band.
Jane smiled "FFDP means Five Finger Death Punch. Is it okay if I play the song that I have stuck in my head?" Jane asked and Maura noded.
Jane put The Bleeding on and handed Maura her her Iphone 7, Maura being quiet listening to the lyrics of this medal song.
A few minuets have past since the song was over. Maura felt the tears threaten to fall because she thought that this song was towards her.
Jane looks at Maura as soon as the song just about to start again. "Maura please speak honey." Jane looks at her.
Maura gets up without saying a thing, gives Jane her phone back. Maura goes in the bathroom downstairs and locks herself in there breaking down crying. Thinking that the song was towards her and wanting to end the relationship.
Jane followed knocking on the door "Maura! Maura can you please open up." Jane asked at the wodden white door that was blocking her from her love.
"Leave me alone Jane! Go stay with Frankie or your mom for the night! I don't wanna see you till tomorrow and then we will talk." Maura yelled
Jane confused why Maura was acting like this, actually more hurt then confused. "Maura can we talk about this like grown adults please." Jane asked leaning on the door post of the bathroom door.
Maura who's heartbroken doesn't really wanna deal with Jane right now. "Jane I mean it get out of my house now! Have your mother listen to the song and ask you to tell you why I'm acting like I am. Take a change of clothes and leave, I need time to think." Maura sits on the edge of the tub.
Jane stands there holding the frame of the door with tears threatening to fall from her face. "Maura first of all this is our house it's been our house ever since I proposed to you. Second you need time to think about what?" Jane asked
"Nothing Jane I just need time to think about stuff. Please stay with your mom for the night." Maura yells from the tub.
Jane moves into the bedroom getting an overnight bag. "I respect that Maura but we can't always run from our problems. If you want me to go for the night I will." Jane yelled back packing a pair of sweatpants, a Boston PD t shirt and a heavy hoodie.
Maura didn't respond, Jane finished packing for the night. She stopped at the bathroom door "I love you Maura see you in the morning." Jane leaves
"I love you too Jane." Maura whispers so soft that Jane couldn't hear. To forget about the song she stripped and ran a bath.
"Jane why are you here? Shouldn't you be with Maura?" Angela asked
"Maura kicked me out of the house for the night." Jane said looking right at Angela.
"Oh Jane what did you do?" Angela sat down and looked at Jane serious. Jane pulled out her phone and pulled up the song from her iTunes account.
"I screwed up ma, and Maura is pissed off. I honestly don't know what the hell she is thinkng right now. Maura said for you to listen to this song and tell me how you would've felt if you were in her shoes." Jane starts crying not controlling it.
Angela hugged her daughter "Put it on Jane, let me listen to it." Angela looked at Jane "Everything will be fine Jane just believe." Angela looked at her daughter.
Jane puts on the song for her mother to listen too. After the minute instrumental the lyrics started.
'I remember when all the games began
Remember every little lie
And every last goodbye
Promises you broke, words you choked on
And I never walked away its still a mystery to me'
Well I'm so empty
I'm better off without you and you're better off without me
Well you're so unclean
I'm better off without you and you're better off without me
The lying
The bleeding
The screaming, was tearing me apart
The hatred
Deceiving
The bleeding
It's over'
Jane looked at her mom and started crying harder. "This song was not to Maura but she took it wrongly. I love her I always did and always will." Jane looked up. Angela nodded.
'Paint the mirrors black (to forget you)
I still picture your face and the way you used to taste
Roses in a glass dead and wilted
To you this all was nothing,
Everything to you is nothing'
'Well you're so filthy
I'm better off without you and you're better off without me
Well I'm so ugly
You're better off without me and I'm better off without'
'The lying
The bleeding
The screaming, was tearing me apart
The hatred
The beatings
Disaster
It's over
As wicked as you are, you're beautiful to me
You're the darkest burning star, your my perfect disease
The lying
The bleeding
The screaming, was tearing me apart
The hatred
The beatings
It's over
Disaster'
After the song was over Angela gave her a hug. "Jane you got some explaining to do to Maura. This song makes her think that you don't want her and that you're are better off without her and she's better off without you." Angela said looking at her daughter to where she's about to breakdown
"I do want her and I can't live without her ma, it's just that I love this song, it has nothing to do with Maura or our relationship. How do I make it right to her?" Jane asked knowing Angela was one of the beat at stuff like this.
"Take her somewhere really romantic and tell her how you really feel. That's all I gotta say. If she gives you a hard time she can talk to me." Angela gave Jane a hug even if Jane protested over it she knew it would help.
"Thanks ma, that really helped. I'm going to try get some rest and call it a night. I love you see you in the morning. Thank you for letting me stay the night unexpectedly." Jane said looking at her mother.
"No problem Jane, just remember what I said, it might take her awhile to come around again but I know deep down that she has unconditional love for you. Have a good night Jane sleep well. If you need anything you know where I am." Angela said before walking to the kitchen to make herself some tea before bed.
Jane goes up to the guest room puts her stuff down and gets in the bed. She was praying that Maura wouldn't call off he engagement. She hope that Maura is understanding about the song. Jane finally gets to sleep about an hour of thinking about Maura and what Angela has told her.
Maira on the other hand spent the rest of the night reading her medical journals and meditating. She wounded up falling asleep while she was meditating.
Thanks for all the reads and comments. Please don't hate me for Jane and Maura's fight, wait to find out what happens with the two of them. The fight just came to my mind. The song I picked for this chaper are The bleeding by Five Finger Death Punch. Everytime I hear it, the song reminds me of Jane and Casey, Angela and Frank in a way. I always loved the gutair in this song. It's a metal song so you can listen to it or don't listen to it, mainly depends if you like that type of music.
