Connors POV

I quickly let go of her. What was I thinking! OK she is the hottest women I have every seen and her personality just made her more beautiful but I was her mentor. I looked into her hazel eyes trying to put across that I was sorry but the look on her face was just pure shock. I turned and ran out of the gym before she could say anything. This wasn't what I wanted or what I needed. I'm only 19 and a legend in my own right. I had a job to do which I thought I loved, until I met Rosemarie yesterday. How could someone you just met, change everything you know upside down. I knew what I wanted in life and what was going to happen. I knew I probably wouldn't live past 30 so I never thought of finding someone or a family. Well the only way that would happen is with a moroi women but hardly any of them do that, they just wanted to higher their own race and make it more harder for us to protect them. So I just used and abused women, basically I was a player. I knew how to get any women eating out the palm of my hand. How do you think I got to guard at St Vlad's, I really wanted to meet Rosemarie. I heard so much about her and she is the only Dhampir to kill as many Striogi as she had before they graduated and to make it more rare she was the only female Dhampir ever in history to even kill a Strigoi before they graduated, So I really wanted to meet her. Mainly over pride, she beat me! And secondly when I went to speak to the Queen she asked me to go to St Vlad's to keep an eye on Rosemarie and the Queen's great nephew because she thought something was going on between them but I never thought I'll fall for Rosemarie and I've fallen pretty hard.

How could one women change everything in 24hours.

Before I knew it I was walking in the woods behind the academy but still behind the wards. I didn't know how I got here but as I looked ahead, I seen the sun was already up. God have I really been walking around all night. I shook my head. She has seriously got to me and I don't like this one bit. I started walking back to my room. I needed some sleep, I looked at my phone. Great I've got 8 hours until my practise session with Rosemarie. Rosemarie. I need to stop thinking about her like this. This could never work! And even if it could it would wreak us because Rosemarie or the Princess Dragomir haven't been told yet that I might be the Princess's other guardian. They all wanted to know how me and Rosemarie would work together before assigning me to her. So I need to stop any form of relationship happening between me and Rosemarie before we both fall in to deep. Then to top it off, Rosemarie's former mentor and fellow guardian assigned for the Princess, Dimitri Belikov, left about 2 weeks ago and the rumours going around actually could be the truth. Well their were only a few but they all linked to Rosemarie. Some say it was because he couldn't handle her know more, others say it was because the moroi he's assigned to know as offered him benefits but the third one stuck more then the others, because he was falling for Rose. I've only heard that once but Alberta gave that guardian the most evil glance I've ever seen and then told them that it was unprofessional to talk of such things and that Belikov wouldn't dare ruining his reputation like that. But just by the glance she gave them told me this was actually true. So it does explain a lot of Rosemarie's anger at the moment but I don't blame Belikov one bit. Rosemarie was intoxicating in many ways and I know if I don't sort this out soon, I'll end up doing the same and that means Rose and the Princess meeting yet another Guardian and to learn and get to know them again and I couldn't do that and I wouldn't. I wont let her mess up my plans and the life I knew I was destined to have.

Rose's POV

I just stood there and watch him leave me! Why am I doing this again! Dimitri hasn't been out the picture even 2 weeks and I've kissed to men since and both have turned me down. I Think I'm cursed! I'm crumbled to the floor with my head in my hands. I didn't even noticed someone's arms go around me until I felt someone stroking my hair. I looked up to see Lissa sitting there, just staring at me with mixed emotions. How the hell I didn't feel her coming is beyond me but she must of felt what im feeling. This two-way bond now is a pain but I needed comforting right now so I let it slide. I could feel her through the bond telling me everything is going to be OK and that it was a mistake. How the hell did she know what happen.

I was pulled into your head when Conner stepped away from you.

Erm WOW. OK. Slightly freaked at the moment Lissa. This bond is getting stronger then?

By the looks of things, yeah it is Rose. I'm so sorry about Conner but maybe its the right thing. You don't want to go through what you did with Dimitri again do you?

God I know she is right but I felt so unwanted right now. Adrian didn't want me at the moment because he knew he would be a rebound and Conner I don't know. I just need to be by myself for a while and get over Dimitri without a men in my life. I didn't need that I needed to put everything into protecting Lissa and that means more to me then anything.

"Can you walk me back to my room Lissa?"

"Come on Rose you don't need to ask me that." She smiled at me as if she actually read my thoughts which she probably did.

We walked back to my room in silence but it was a comfortable silence which suited me fine. Lissa hugged me once we got outside my room and I walked in and just flopped onto my bed. I knew what I was meant to do now. I'm gonna pretend like nothing happen with Conner and get through my graduation then move to the courts with Lissa like I was meant to do. I don't need know one else in my life apart from my friends and I didn't want to have a relationship no more because I know I'll be lucky to live past 25 especially since I will be guarding Lissa. I must of fell asleep because the next thing I knew I felt myself being pulled to a beach. Great Adrian has decided to stop avoiding me. I was dressed in baggy jeans which hugged my bum, black flip-flops and a white tank top. Hmm not to my usual taste but I liked it. I looked around and seen some swings so I went to sit on one and started slightly swinging and staring out to sea. It felt so normal here and it was pure. Nothing had tampered with it, it was a perfect piece of heaven which I needed right now.

I didn't even notice Adrian sitting on the swing next to me until he spoke.

"hey little Dhampir"

I nearly jumped out of my skin which made him chuckle alittle. God I've missed his laugh which in return made me smile. I slightly turned my head to look at him. He was dressed in ¾ length shorts which were black and a white button down shirt which he had open. His hair was the just out of bed look which actually suited him but the dark circles under his eyes worried me. He must of noticed the worried looked in my eyes and quickly looked away. I let out a small sigh and looked back out to sea.

"How you been?"

"How come you have been Avoiding me like I'm a Strigoi?" I didn't want to answer his question because the boy knew when I was lying so there was no point, so I thought I would throw that one at him. It was the only chance in a week that I've had chance to speak to him.

"Because I thought you could do with some space, Rose and plus you did actually hurt me and I needed to think thing through." He didn't look at me once while saying this, he was staring out to sea just like I was.

"Well you don't need to hide from me no more, Adrian. I had my eyes opened tonight and I know what I want to do now. I don't want to hurt know one no more and I'm just going to stick to what my life is actually about, which is protecting Lissa. And how am I meant to do that when I'm involved with someone."

Adrian looked at me then so I turned my gaze onto him and I noticed hurt in his eyes but it was gone quicker then a blind of an eye. Then the dream started to fade and I was once again back into darkness. Seems like he didn't like that answer but that's what im going to do.


A/N .. Hey all =D

i know i aint updated in a few days and im working on the next chapter

but i thought ill let you all know i wont be updating for about a week because im

going on holiday with work tomorrow for 5 days, so i gave you this chapter as a leaving

present and ill tell ya what the next chapter is... its in Dimitri POV XD

which i just got a bad case of writers block half way through because i wanted to give

you that aswel :( so im sorry and i know you are all gonna kill me for telling you that

but it will keep you hanging on.

so you all know what to do... REVIEW PLEASE!!!! i like them alot... and they help me

write if i know what people think of my first proper fanfic :D

oh disclaimerrrr the lovely Richelle Mead owns the characters apart from Connor .. hes all mine :D