Most of the Constance at St Jude's students had decided to stay on the island for dinner and bar hopping later on. Serena and Dan had resurfaced at dinner but Chuck was nowhere to be seen.
"So what did everyone do today?" Serena asked.
"I think the question is what did you do, or who did you do today" Blair said, cringing when she realised how much she sounded like Chuck. She had spent way to much time with him.
"Ew B, you sound just like Chuck. Where is he by the way?" Serena asked.
"Last I saw he was at the bar alone. Probably depressed that he hasn't got any in awhile" Adam snickered, glancing at Blair wondering just how long ago they had actually slept together.
"I'll meet you guys at the bar" Blair said getting up from her chair.
"I don't want you walking around here alone Blair" Nate said and Serena and Dan quickly agreed.
"She won't be alone".
"Chuck" Blair said looking into his eyes for the first time since they were lying on his bed and she pushed him away.
"We'll meet you at the bar" Chuck said repeating her words.
Serena and Dan exchanged a confused glance. She had no idea what was happening here but she would definitely be quizzing Blair later. Before Nate even had the chance to argue Blair had left her chair and was following Chuck down the beach.
Chuck and Blair walked along side-by-side in silence. He was mad at her for her little show with Nate earlier and she was mad at him for his hurtful words at the bar but the truth was they wouldn't want to be anywhere else than where they were right then.
They stopped at a secluded part of the beach. Blair looked around and saw they were surrounded by palm trees. She felt a little nervous. She knew she could trust Chuck – trust Chuck to protect her but to keep it in his pants she definitely couldn't trust him to do that.
"Sit" he commanded, breaking the silence.
Blair obeyed and they sunk into the sand, sitting so close together their shoulders touched. Silence fell over them again. Only the sounds of the waves crashing against the shore could be heard.
Chuck could feel the tension and realised because she was still upset with him she wasn't going to talk.
"Look Blair" he cleared his throat. She continued staring out at the ocean. "About before…at the bar…I was angry".
He waited for her….nothing.
"I shouldn't have said those things".
Blair could feel her heart racing. "Go on" she said still refusing to look at him.
"They weren't true and you didn't deserve it. And…"
"And" Blair turned to him and raised her eyebrow.
"And… you looked extremely sexy in your red bikini today Waldorf"
They both laughed breaking the awkwardness and intensity.
"Chuck" Blair whined as she punched his arm playfully. "How about you're sorry?" she asked
"Chuck Bass is never sorry" he said smugly, but Blair could tell he didn't mean it.
Once again they both stared at the waves as silence enveloped them again. Chuck was getting restless. He hated the silence and he was dying to know what she was thinking but she sat still beside him staring at the moon glaring on the ocean water. Her shoulder was still pressed against his and he could feel the warmth of her skin on his and he involuntarily shivered.
"I better get you back before Nathaniel starts worrying that I have taken advantage of you…again"
Blair didn't want to leave but had no idea what the others would be thinking with her and Chuck missing for so long. She didn't want to have to answer any questions so she got up and brushed the sand off her feet.
They started walking towards the lights and noises from the many clubs dotted along the beach of St Lucia. Chuck had hoped she wouldn't jump at the chance to be back in Nate's arms again but she had and he felt a rush of emotions; anger, hurt, jealousy.
Before Blair knew what she was doing she had called him to stop. "Chuck"
"Waldorf, save your breath. You are back with Nathaniel, I'm happy for you" he lied.
"You are?" Blair asked a bit disappointed.
"Only if you promise to share a bed with me again" he smirked.
"Is everything about sex with you" Blair snapped unimpressed.
"Of course"
"This is why you and I would never work" she stopped walking and crossed her arms.
"On the contrary Waldorf. No one else has ever made you as excited as I do. No on else has ever made you moan the way I do. No one else is more alike than you and I" he breathed, standing right in front of her, their bodies against one another.
"There is more to a relationship than just sex Bass" she said angrily, taking a step back.
"And that's why you belong with Nathaniel, Blair. I don't do relationships".
"How would you know? You've never tried?" she asked, suddenly wondering why she wished he did relationships.
"I haven't tried, because I'm not interested" Chuck said, challenging her.
"Fine, take me to Nate" Blair demanded like a child.
"Of course you would run back to him when things get tough" Chuck said, anger forming in his voice.
"At least things are never tough with him"
He grabbed her forcefully and pulled her to him. "Things are never exciting either. You know this Blair, you just won't admit it because you are to scared of life without Nate".
"I am not"
"You are and that's why you always run back to him"
"Who else would I run to?" she asked, holding her breath waiting for his response.
Chuck was silent. "We should get back. The others will be worried about you" he muttered and he started walking away.
"No. We are staying right here until we have spoken about this" Blair demanded and Chuck didn't move but still had his back to her.
"What do you want from me" Blair asked quietly, a tinge of sadness in her voice.
Chuck turned towards her "I want you."
A smile formed on Blair's face and she could feel her heart racing again "I thought you didn't do relationships?"
"I don't" he replied. The smile left Blair's face
"But I'm prepared to make an exception for you" he smirked.
Blair was silent. She was now more confused than ever. Her ex boyfriend seemed to want to give there relationship another go and the guy who had taken her virginity and was a good friend to her and Nate was seriously suggesting he would want to be in a relationship with her.
Chuck saw the confusion across her face and frowned. "You still love Nate".
"I, I don't know" she answered honestly. "I know your reputation Chuck" she said softly.
"What are you saying?"
"I'm saying Nate isn't a womaniser. I can trust him".
He took her hand and looked into her eyes. "I would stop for you Blair. I will stop tonight".
"I want to believe you but I can't".
"I'm not lying Blair. It's your decision, you need to choose".
Blair felt overwhelmed so she brushed past Chuck and started walking quickly toward all the people, she needed to get out of there.
Blair found Nate, Jenny, Serena and Dan in the crowd and rushed towards them. Anything to escape Chuck. He was following her though, wanting to make sure she was safe with her friends before he gave her what she wanted and left. He had no idea what had just happened but her making a mad dash towards Nate basically told him what he didn't want to know, or accept; she loved Nate.
"Chuck, Blair where the hell have you guys been? We looked everywhere" Serena said, wrapping her friend in a tight hug.
"We got lost" Blair lied.
"How do you get lost on the beach" Dan questioned before Serena shot him a silencing glare.
"We have to get back; apparently the ship needs to get moving again, something to do with the tides" Serena said.
They all made their way down to the shore where they were loading the students onto small boats to take them back to the ship. They all climbed onto the small boat and Nate sat next to Blair with Chuck opposite them.
Nate noticed the goose bumps forming on Blair's thin arms.
"Your cold" Nate said rubbing her arms and handing her his jacket. She let him place it on her but shifted slightly away from him. Once they boarded the ship they all made their way to the deck upstairs for a few quiet drinks. Blair noticed Chuck didn't join them and she felt disappointed but at least Nate was there, right.
They sat on the couches drinking. Serena was snuggled up against Dan already falling asleep.
"I'm going to get her to bed" Dan said pulling a sleepy Serena off the couch.
"Sounds like a good idea" Jenny said yawning with Lauren quickly following.
"Wow this party suddenly died, I'm out of here, care to join?" Adam asked staring at Blair.
She shook her head and Adam left leaving Nate and Blair alone.
"Are you still cold" Nate asked fixing his jacket which was falling off her.
"I'm ok" she said quietly.
"Nate" Blair began but he interrupted. "Me first" and she sat back in her seat indicating for him to go ahead.
"Blair I don't know what I was thinking. I didn't mean to hurt you I was just so confused and I didn't know what I wanted. Everyone is always telling me what to do and expecting things from me that I wasn't sure whether we were in a relationship because that's what we have always done or if I actually wanted to be with you".
"Nate" Blair tried to interrupt but he continued.
"I should never have broken up with you. I was stupid and I have no idea what I was thinking. I miss you already and you're the one I want to be with Blair. I love you".
Blair was so shocked; she nearly dropped the glass she was holding. She had waited so long to hear Nate say those words to her but something just didn't feel right.
"Blair" Nate asked brushing a lose curl behind her ear.
"Nate you really hurt me" Blair said quietly.
"I know and I wish I could take it back but I can't. I can make it up to you though" Nate said, a mischievous smile forming on his face.
"What do you mean?" Blair asked.
"Well I have a key to one of the deluxe suites, it's empty at the moment, maybe we could check it out" Nate said taking Blair's hand in his own. Blair had no idea what to say. She should be thrilled, Nate had said he loved her and now wanted to sleep with her. But all she could think about was her walk on the beach with Chuck and that he said he wanted to be with her and that he would change.
"I've got to go" Blair said flinging Nate's coat off her shoulders and running towards the elevator. She willed the elevator to move faster, she couldn't wait to see him. The doors opened and she ran past her and Serena's room almost tripping in her heels. She pulled the key card Nate had given her out of her clutch and quickly pushed it into the key card slot. It clicked and she opened the door and rushed in. She saw Chuck in his boxers standing by the window leading onto the balcony pouring himself a scotch. He turned expecting to see Nate and was slightly shocked when he saw Blair, as beautiful as ever standing in front of him.
"Blair" he questioned.
She stood in front of him for a moment, catching her breath.
"Are you ok?" he asked.
"I choose you" she said.
"What did you say?"
"I said I choose you". She ran towards him and wrapped her arms around his neck looking into his eyes "I want you".
Chuck could feel his pulse beating rapidly. He wasn't sure he had heard right but looking into Blair's eyes he knew he had. He wrapped his arms around her waist and couldn't help but smile. He lent down to kiss her and just as he did he heard his name being called.
"Chuck? Chuck you better still be naked because I'm coming in for seconds".
'Shit, fuck, shit' Chuck thought in his head just as a tall, tanned female with black hair walked through the balcony doors wearing only lingerie.
"What the hell is going on?" she asked seeing Chuck and Blair embracing.
'This isn't happening' Chuck thought. He felt Blair pull away from him and he knew he was losing her but he kept his arms wrapped tightly around her waist. A tear spilled down her cheek and Chuck felt like the biggest jerk in the world. She tried to untangle Chuck's arms from around her waist but he wouldn't let her.
"Let go of me Chuck" she demanded, her voice trembling.
"No Blair I'm not letting you walk away. I can explain".
"Don't bother" she yelled jerking away from him. "I believed you Chuck, I'm so stupid I knew you couldn't change".
She turned and walked toward the door.
"Blair wait" Chuck yelled trying to grab her again but she had already run out.
"Fuck" Chuck yelled, throwing his glass at the wall. The girl in front of him shuddered as the glass smashed.
"Chuck what the hell is going on?" she asked, confused.
"I just lost the one girl I actually want. And for what, a night with you?" he growled.
"You know what fuck you, you weren't even that great" the girl lied, quickly pulling her dress on and walking towards the door.
Chuck picked up a piece of broken glass and continued swearing under his breath.
"What the hell was I thinking" he yelled angrily to the empty room.
I hope you guys enjoyed! I know this was meant to be an all character fic but I always get carried away with Chuck & Blair! I will make more of an effort to include the other characters in the next chapters.
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