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Author's Notes: Well, this chapter is a HELL of a lot better than the last ones, equally as long...if not longer...I actually like this chapter. Well...sort of...

Rei: I don't really like this chapter...

Sorry, but memories must be revealed. Even if there are scary dreams...you get comfort!

Rei: Fine, whatever. Just start already! -hides in a corner-

Okay! Let's read on people! (This chappie contains light rape-age...it was so hard to write. -cries- If you are wanting to skip it, don't read the dream, it not all that bad though. Not too descriptive...thank God...X.X) So yeah, read on!

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A Shaman Story

Chapter 7

Suicidal?

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Rei was lying on her bed in her room, trying her hardest to get to sleep. But, she was a bit anxious and had a lot on her mind.

"Can't sleep Rei?" Luna asked her friend.

"Guess not." She sighed. "He's gonna kill me."

"No need to bring him up, Rei."

"Of course there is! He's gonna kill me for not following him!"

"But you have friends now, they'll help you. And you've still got me! I'm not going to let him hurt you like that ever again! He betrayed your trust! Why should you have to stay by his side? He's scum! An incompetent jackassed FUCK! Okay?"

"Gee, I've never seen you so mad before." She sat up. "I suppose you're right..." I'm just...afraid... "...I'm not just some stupid puppet for his amusement." She clenched her fists. "He will pay." Her glance drifted to the corner of the room, where her two guitars were looking lonely.

"Good, just remember it's not just you out there anymore."

"Hn." Rei got up and grabbed the electric guitar--it was white with what looked to be red ribbons painted on. They had gold stars on them, just like her hair ribbon, and there were also various black stars painted on as well. She went back to the bed and sat down.

"You're actually going to play something??"

"I suppose." Rei said, plugging the guitar into an amp under her table.

"Why the sudden interest?" Luna smirked.

Rei simply shrugged her shoulders. "Don't know."

"Is it because of what HoroHoro said?" Her smirk was widening.

"Of course not, why should that matter?"

"Hmph. You know, I think he really likes you a lot. You shouldn't just ignore him." Now her smirk was a huge-ass grin.

"Oh please." Rei began to strum a few notes. "Horo's my friend--nothing more."

"But he held your hand." Her grin had now turned into a toothy smile.

"So did Ren." Rei answered back, hoping that would shut her friend up.

"Oh...so you like Ren?"

Rei strummed a loud chord that echoed through the room--she was obviously irritated. "NO!" Damn, she doesn't give up!

"Then which one?!"

"Neither!"

"Oh, I see. So you still love him. Even after all he did to you??"

"Ahh! No! I-I...I don't like anyone. Okay?!"

"Hah! You're lying, I can tell. You always stutter when you're nervous, and lying about this is making you nervous. So there. Now who is it??"

"I already told you--no one. Now just shut up, I'm trying to think!"

"You really shouldn't keep your emotions bottled up you know. All you ever seem to express is anger. And if by chance you do actually get happy, it's gone in an instant! Don't be so pessimistic!"

"Atleast I'm not over optimistic." Like a certain ghost I know...

"Hey, what's that supposed to--" She was cut off when Rei started to play an intro to a song. Luna watched as her fingers ran across the strings wildly. I am not over optimistic..

"Yes you are." Rei stopped playing.

"Stop reading my mind! It's an invasion of privacy!"

"So what."

"See! There it is again, no emotion. You and your anger!"

"Gahhh! Why should I feel for someone just to get let down when they don't want me anymore?! Or to sit there crying when they die!? Why should I have to suffer through crap like that? Normal people actually die Lu--you know that! So...even if I did like someone, I shouldn't. I refuse to be betrayed again! It's better that I just train, and get stronger so that I can kill him. Got it?!" She went and put the guitar back on the stand.

"Rei..." I pushed her to far...now she has the look in her eyes again...that she could kill the first person to say something to her...

"What now?!" The angered girl spun around.

"You really should get some sleep..." Luna told her when she saw that Rei was putting on her jacket.

"I can't sleep now, I've got too much on my mind. I'll be outside--stay here." She grabbed her double-dao and left. What's with her today? With all her poking and prodding! I'm fine, so what if I'm angry all the time! It's called personality! Gahhhhh! Rei this, Rei that! Shut up already! God damn! Maybe I just want some alone time! Ever hear of that?! Damn it all--fuck the world!

Rei went outside and started practicing her Dao techniques. She could cut the air in half if should tried hard enough. "Ahhhhhgggggg!" She threw her weapon at a tree and it got stuck. "Great." She pulled with all her might. It popped out and she fell backwards--into someone's arms.

"Hehe, I don't think you should stabs trees anymore."

"Hey Yoh." She smiled as he propped her back up. "Why are you still awake?"

"Probably for the same reason you are. I guess I'm a little anxious." He looked at her. "So, why are you out training and not in your room?"

"Lu won't shut up!" She fastened her weapon onto her back.

"Yeah, I heard some noise...and...a guitar?"

"Yeah, that was me." She started to laugh lightly. "You know what, you really know how to cheer someone up. Thanks Yoh.

"No problem!"

"Well, I'm going to bed now--finally. See you in the morning!"

"Goodnight Rei!" He called back and saw her wave.

So, she went to her room and finally fell asleep...although...her dreams weren't too pleasant...

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-pat huff pat huff pat huff...- She was running as fast as she could, but the walls kept closing in--they were dripping with blood.

"No! Let me out!" She screamed as she fell to her knees.

"You can't run from me Rei. You know that. You'll just be punished." His words rang through the enclosing space.

"Leave me alone!" She clasped her hands over her ears.

"Never." He grabbed her by her hair, lifting her up.

"Stop it!" Tears started to fall from her eyes as he tugged her hair.

"Why should I? You little bitch!" He roughly smashed his lips against hers, prying her mouth open with his tongue--it danced around hers as she lay there, stunned still.

"Let go of me!" She gasped as she tore away from the kiss. Her head felt ready to explode.

"No." He smirked, ripping off her shirt and bra--exposing her bare flesh.

"Stop...please..." Tears were now flooding down her face as she begged him to stop.

Next he went for her pants, then her underwear. She was now completely naked. Lust filled his eyes. "Beautiful."

"Please...don't..." She coughed through her immense shed of tears.

He threw her to the ground, cupping her breasts. He began to take off his own clothing until there was nothing left but skin."Why are you shaking? Don't you love your master?" He slid his hands up her body, massaging her breasts even more. She wimpered at his touch--his hands caressing her soft, white flesh.

"No answer? Alright then." He laid on top of her.

Her breathing was ecstatic. "Please...stop..." She managed to choke up.

"Never in a thousand years." With that he entered her forcefully. No warning. No words of comfort. Nothing. He gripped at her hips roughly as he drove into her being. "You...are mine...Rei."

She screamed in the highest pitch you could imagine--the walls were falling down on top of them, blood falling like crimson drops of rain.

"Rei!" It was a woman's voice.

"Stop it! Get away from me!" She thrashed back and forth.

"Rei!" There was the distressed voice again. "Rei! Please, wake up!"

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"No!" Rei awoke startled--her shoulders were pinned down to the bed--someone was sitting next to her. "Let go of me!" One of the hands lifted, covering her mouth, her eyes remained welded shut.

"Shhh...You'll wake everyone else up..." The voice was soft and concerned.

"Rei! It's okay now! It was just a dream!" Luna tried to reason with the shaking girl in the bed.

Rei opened her eyes slowly, afraid of what she might see. Was it him? Was she naked in the bed? It was so real...happening again...

"It's okay. You'll be alright. I'm here...don't be afraid..." Rei... The hands slowly lifted, one going to her back to prop her upright--she was still shaking violently, her breathing off-beat. "Here, have some water." The hand held out a cup.

She gripped the cup and took a sip. "H-Horo...?"

"Yeah, it's just me." The look on his face was full of concern as he gazed upon her anguished and distressed look. "Are you alright?"

"Why are you here?" Her breathing was slowly returning to normal, but she was still shaking violently. Her voice was cold.

"I heard you screaming and came to check it out. You really had me worried!" He sighed in relief, but he was slightly hurt, as her tone was so hate-filled. "I'm glad you're alright. Lu here was worried too, she was the one who said that water might help."

"Horo..." She still refused to look at him.

"Don't scare me like that again, okay?"

"I'll...try not to..." She looked down further, her bangs falling over her eyes.

"Good." Horo leant over and embraced her in a gentle hug. "You can stop shaking now. I'm here...I won't let you go until you're okay."

Rei blushed like mad as she was buried into Horo's bare chest. "Thank you...Horokeu..."

"You're...welcome." How does she know my real name...? He could feel her hot cheeks against his flesh. He lifted his hand and stroked her hair gently, trying to calm her down. "I'm here...don't be afraid. I won't hurt you...ever. I'll protect you--I promise."

They must have stayed that way for at least an hour or more, Horo always giving out reassuring words to comfort her. After the long while, Horo could finally feel Rei breathing deeply again--she had fallen back asleep, now peaceful. He laid her back down and covered her with the blanket and went to the door regrettingly.

"Goodnight Rei...please...sleep well..." With that, Horo left the room, still quite worried about her.

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Rei woke up the next morning, surprised that her alarm hadn't rang--it was 10:00 AM.

"Hey...Lu...I swore I set my alarm..."

"Yes...you did. After last night, you must have been really tired--you slept through the alarm. It must have gone off for 20 minutes, but you didn't wake up...Horo came and turned it off, saying that you needed the sleep." Luna looked very concerned. "Are you sure that you're alright?"

"Yeah...I just...have a throbbing headache..." She got up and went to the mirror--there was a note:

Rei,

Good morning, I hope you're feeling better. I bet you're wondering why you're up so late...well, after last night...I shut the alarm off so you could sleep. You had a slight fever, so don't worry about school--I'm not going either, so you should be able to find me around the house. There's some aspirins and water on the table if you need them, Lu said you might wake up with a headache.

Come on out and I'll make you some breakfast, okay? Well, lots of hugs.

-Horo

P.S.- I really hope that you're okay.

"Hmmmmm..." She studied the note over and decided to take the drugs--maybe then she'd feel better.

"Are you hungry Rei?"

"No." She sat down on the bed, holding the empty cup.

"Do you want to talk?"

"No." Leave. Me. Alone...

"Please Rei? Are you sure?"

"Would you just shut up?!" She held up her mortuary tablet and Luna disappeared. I hate this world...fuck it all! I just wish I could die...and why is Horo so nice? He should be hitting me, not hugging me damnit! I don't deserve to be loved...

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Horo sat there, Rei up against his chest. "It's okay, I'm here now. Do you want to talk about it?" Suddenly he felt water on his chest--she was crying. He squeezed her a bit tighter. "It's okay, you can cry if you need to." He reassured her, she felt so fragile in his grasp.

"Horokeu..." Her voice was barely audible. She felt he was so warm--like a security blanket wrapped around her...she felt...safe. His embrace was so welcoming...it calmed her...and yet...she hated it, but wouldn't let that show. "Horokeu...thank you..."

He smiled down at the girl in his arms. "I'd do anything for you..."

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"Ahhhhh!" She screamed in frustration. She wanted to hurt so badly. She threw the cup at the wall and it smashed--glass shards going everywhere. She just stared at them. Just one... She picked up one of the shards off the floor. Should I...should I do it...? She slid the shard across her arm, making cuts everywhere. Then, she switched to the other arm. She gasped lightly as the pain stabbed at her body. She had started to with small incisions, but they became longer and deeper as she went on. It hurt so badly, but she didn't seem to care.

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-Smash!-

"What the hell was that?" Horo was startled by the sudden sound. "Oh God, Rei!" He jumped up and ran to her room as fast as he possibly could. His heart pounded like crazy as he turned the doorknob. When he opened the door, his eyes widened in panic.

There was a ton of glass on the floor and……..and there was Rei, sitting on the bed--a bloodly glass shard in hand. Various cuts decorated her now bloody arms and the crimson red liquid was everywhere.

"Rei!" Horo started toward the bed. "Wha-why?"

"Horo…..I……..I-I………" She started to shake as her vision blurred--her eyes looked like blank pools of gray shadow.

"Come on, we have to stop the bleeding!" His voice tried to sound full of comfort, but it wavered as he himself was a bit shaky.

"N-no……..I-I…..Horo I……."

"What? What is it? Tell me what's wrong!"

"You…………you weren't supposed to see this……………………I just…………….I-I………………………I'm sorry Horo……."

"Wha-what?!"

"I just……..I just want to die………" That was the last she spoke before she blacked out.

"Rei!" Horo picked her up quickly, rushing to the bathroom. "Shit!"

He started to fill the bathtub; he had to wash off the blood before he could treat her wounds fairly. Removing her clothes, minus her undergarments, he set her into the tub. He rummaged through the cabinets and found some bandage wraps and disinfectant, then went back and washed her off--she was still unconscious.

"Damn it Rei!" He wrapped her up in a towel and dried her off, careful of the still bleeding cuts. Carefully, he put the disinfectant on her arms and bandaged them up. Laying her against a wall, he went back to her room for clothes.

"Oh my God…." He panted as his heart beat furiously. Quickly, he got her clothes and rushed back, redressing her. He blushed slightly, but finished fast, as he didn't want to make her too uncomfortable. Training the tub, he set her in the living room, going away to clean her room.

"She wants to die….?" He said to himself, as he finished, he changed the sheets, bringing all the trash out of the room. He noticed that he too was covered in her blood, and changed.

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Rei stirred on the couch, suddenly waking--she was startled by the pain in her arms. "What the fuck?" She put her hand to her hand dazedly. Why are my arms wrapped with bandages? Why does it hurt so bad………. She didn't remember anything. Why am I in here…….in different clothes……….? Her eyes widened in panic as an idea crossed her mind. Did Horo do this…..? Is he using me just like he did…? She shuddered at the thought. No. Horo promised he wouldn't hurt me…..he said he'd protect me…….he wouldn't…..he couldn't……..could he…? She wanted to unwrap the bandages, but she figured it best not to.

Suddenly Horo walked into the room--looking very tired and quite saddened. "Hey…….you're up…."

"Yeah……" She played with her hands as the Ainu came and sat beside her.

"Rei……" He started to look down. "Why……why did you do it?"

She looked at him like her was insane. "Do what?!"

"You don't remember do you….? You did blackout after all."

"What do you mean?" The tone of her voice lowered.

"You……you…." She saw tears start to well at the rimsof his eyes. "You……cut yourself………" He closed his eyes, trying not to cry. "……..a lot…….."

"What? I-I did? A-are you sure??"

He nodded. "I heard something smash--when I got to your room, there was glass everywhere and you were covered in blood." His fists clenched as he thought back.

"Oh….."

"I had to wash you off, that's why you're in different clothes."

"O-oh…." She blushed at the thought of Horo washing her--though it didn't last long, as a sudden look of mortification swept over her face.

Obviously Horo saw this. "I didn't touch anything. I swear. I wouldn't hurt you. I promised."

"Hmmmmm…"She smiled. "Thank you HoroHoro……." She saw him smile slightly.

"Yeah."

"What is it?"

"It's just…..you said you wouldn't scare me like that anymore. I-I thought you were going to die…."

"Oh." She started to fidget with a button on her jacket. "I…I-I'm sorry…" She saw him look up, but she didn't. "I'm sorry I'm so much trouble. I really didn't mean to be…….I-I don't even remember doing it….."

"Heh….." He sighed. "It's alright."

"No!" Her wrapped fist slammed on the couch. "No, it's not alright. I can tell that you're extremely worried. I don't want to be a burden. It's just not fair to you…"

"Really….i-it's alright Rei…." Should I tell her the rest….?

"Hey Horo….did……did anything else happen? Did…..did I…..hurt…you..?" Please say no……

"If you mean physically, then no."

"So…..I hurt your….feelings………..How?"

"I…can't say."

"Please Horo! You have to tell me!"

"I-I….I don't think that……" He stopped when he saw the pleading look on her face. Sighing, pain heavy in his heart, he told her. " You…you said that…that you wanted to die…"

"Oh………I thought it was worse." She avoided his gaze. That's it? Feh.

"What do you mean?! This is serious Rei, you tried to kill yourself!"

"Horo…I-I'm sorry……this shouldn't involve you." Don't make it such a big deal…

"I just wish I could have been there to stop you….damnit!"

"Don't blame yourself for my idiotic actions. Like I said, It doesn't involve you."

"But I--"

"It's not your fault so forget about it! And……..please don't tell the others. Promise me."

"Okay….I won't…..I promise."

"Good." She moved to her feet. "Thank you HoroHoro.." She turned toward him again. "I'm going for a walk."

"Yeah, go ahead." He looked up to see her wave. "Please…..stay safe….." It had been said out loud, but she was already gone.

Rei walked back to her room. She didn't know why, but she felt it was necessary. When she walked in, it looked the same as before--minus new sheets being on the bed.

"Hmmmmmm……" She gently closed the door behind her and went over to the nightstand, picking up her mortuary tablet. "Hey Lu."

Immediately, Luna flew out of the stone. "Rei! It happened again didn't it!"

Rei smirked slightly, closing her eyes and crossing her arms--despite the fact they hurt. "Heh, I escaped death yet again."

"Don't you say such a stupid thing!"

"Yeah, whatever. I'm going for a walk if you want to come." With that, she started out the door.

"Okay!"Luna went into spirit ball mode and followed after her.

They walked around town for a while until they reached a park and decided to sit down and rest for a bit.

"Ahhh! I feel so much better. There's nothing like a nice walk." Rei seemed at peace as she stretched her arms up.

"Yeah….a nice LONG walk." Luna sweat dropped, putting special emphasis on long.

"Well, it shouldn't have mattered to you…you float…not walk….but you can relax now." Rei laid down, half giggling, her hands behind her head. "Just drift away….." She already began to daydream.

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Hmmmmm….I hope he appreciates this…. A young Rei wandered down the halls towards the weight room--Someone was talking when she got there.

"Bocchama, I don't think you should train so much."

"My father says it shall all be worth it soon enough." Sweat rolled down the young Tao's face. "Besides, it keeps me away from that little pest."

"Surely she's not that bad Bocchama! And she sits in here all the time anyways…"

"Yes, but in here, she usually doesn't distract me."

"Hmmmm……I really don't think you should be so mean to the girl."

"Well, it really doesn't matter what you think, now does it?"

"Bocchama………"

Does he really hate me so much? Hmmmm……… Rei clutched at the clothing in her hand--they were Ren's. She thought it would be nice to bring him some clean clothes, she also held a bottle of milk in her hand--Ren liked milk a lot.

"100." Ren stopped his weight training.

"Ren-sama…" Rei walked into the room towards him.

"What? And I told you not to call me that." He didn't even look at her.

"Get over it." She said bluntly as she put the items on a bench. "I brought you some things…" She started towards the door, suddenly stopping and turning back around. "Good day Ren-sama." She bowed and left the room.

"That's it?" Ren stood there puzzled.

"That was a bit strange." Bason watched as Ren went over and grabbed the milk.

Ren quickly guzzled down the milk. "She's a strange girl." With that, he headed towards the shower, grabbing the clothes from the bench. "At least she's good for something." He quickly finished, then headed to his room. Her behavior had made him quite curious, and he knew she'd be in his room--she always was. When he got there, he was about to open the door, but he heard her speaking to her spirit--he had found out about her being a shaman quite some time ago.

"Smile Rei!" Luna seemed to chirp happily.

"Why bother?" A heavy sigh could be heard. "Tomorrow's the day. I never have anyone to celebrate with."

"I'm always here on your birthday!"

"Well yeah, other than you."

"You could tell Ren, maybe he'd actually--"

"Feh!" Rei scoffed, cutting Luna off. "Like he would care.He'd just say he was too damned busy to do anything with me. He's always busy……he doesn't like me anyways." She sighed again. "But I really wish he did--even a little bit…"

Tomorrow's her birthday, huh? 15th of September…hmmmm……maybe that's why she's depressed. I bet she's never had a birthday party……ever. She'll be 5-years-old. Heh……I can't believe I'm practically 8 months older than her and she's taller than me! …Well, I suppose it wouldn't kill me to be nice to her for a day….. Ren walked sown towards the blacksmith who made jewelry.

"Hello young master, how may I be of service?" The old blacksmith asked Ren.

"I need a bracelet--by tomorrow." Ren crossed his arms.

"Of course, come pick one." The old man smiled.

"Hmmmm…" Ren got the jewelry piece and left. When he got back to the room it was late, and Rei was already asleep. "She falls asleep so fast……" He went and rummaged through his stuff, taking out a piece of paper and some markers, and quickly made a card, setting it--and the package--on the table next to the bed. "I hope she appreciates this…I'm….too soft…" He muttered to himself as he got into the bed.

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When Rei woke up the next morning, Ren was already gone--he always was.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY REI!"

"Thanks Lu." She smiled and looked to the table. "Hmmmmmm…..what's that?" She picked up the card and the package under it. "Who's this from?"She stared at the card. On the front in read 'Happy Birthday Rei', and there were two kwan-daos crossing each other on the bottom, and little black stars everywhere else. Opening it up, she read it:

Dear Rei,

Happy Birthday I guess. I hope you appreciate this, because it won't come often. Thanks for the stuff yesterday…it was quite convenient. I hope you like the gift…although I think that you'd like anything I gave you. If you want, we can hang out ater, but don't bug me until Isay so. I promise I won't forget. So…Happy Birthday.

-Ren…………sama…

Rei smiled as she re-read the card. "It's……from Ren-sama…" She opened the small box to reveal a beautiful red bracelet. It had a diamond star on it, with wings encrusted with small sapphires. She loved it and immediately put it on—it was a little big, but she didn't care. All that mattered to her was that Ren had cared.

She got out of bed and got dressed, putting her hair up it two small buns on either side of her head, and putting her earrings in as well. When she had eaten breakfast, she went to the weight room.

"Good morning Ren-sama." Rei bowed respectfully before taking her seat on the bench.

"Morning." He muttered back, avoiding eye contact.

"Hmmm." She sat there, smiling at her gift. "…Thank you…Ren-sama…"

"Hmph." He closed his eyes. "Are you going to stare at it all day, or do you want the other part of your gift?"

"Well…..I guess so."

"Alright then, but you'll have to wait until after dinner. I'm training now."

"O-okay…" She smiled shyly, blushing a bit.

So, she sat there for hours until they finally went down to eat—it was Chinese food as usual, but Rei didn't care. Afterwards, Ren and Rei went back up to his room.

Ren crossed his arms. "Well?" He tapped his foot impatiently.

"Well what?"

"What do you want to do? Duh! You know, are we playing with dolls, or some other crap, or what?!"

"Oh…" She looked at the ground. "I…want to walk…and look at the stars…."

"Oh." Ren was a bit taken back by her response. "A-alright then, come on." He walked out, with Rei following him.

They walked together silently until they came to a hill and sat down. For a while, the just sat there. It was a bit chilly and the leaves were falling off the trees. Rei was staring at the sky, Ren was watching Rei.

"What, you've never seen stars before?" Ren finally spoke up.

"Hmmmm? Oh! No, I just love the stars. They're so relaxing and beautiful……you can look at the stars for hours without a care in the world. It's so calm."

"I see……" It was then that Ren noticed a deep scar on the back of her neck. He hadn't noticed before, since he never really paid attention. The way she had her hair up, in the two buns with her hair falling down a bit since it was so long, her scar was clearly visible. He looked at it wondering how she managed to get such a gash.

Rei put her hand over it. "Please, don't look. It's so ugly."

"I….uhh……where did it…."

"I don't want to talk about it." She held her knees and buried her face into them.

Then it hit him. "You were….abused…..weren't you…?" His eyes reflected bits of sorrow.

She started to sniff as a few tears stung her eyes. "He…….he said it wouldn't hurt………but……it did hurt…….it hurt so bad…….he was so big……I-I……….I couldn't stop him from doing it……I thought I was going to die……..I……I……" Tears were now streaming down her face.

Ren now understood why she was who she was. She was a victim to torture and rape. Who wouldn't try and hide it? "Who…..? Who did it?! I swear I'll--"

"N-niisama…." She whispered through her tears.

"What?" Her own brother? He did something so cruel? That's….that's inhuman!

She wiped her tears and looked at him, she was smiling. "I'm glad that you care….Ren-sama. No one has ever cared. But now….I have a friend. Thank you." She looked to the stars again. "I'm so happy that I got to celebrate my birthday. When I was with Niisama……my only gift was…well….you know….But……you made me a card and everything. Thank you so much. Words can't express how I feel…..I…..I thought you hated me. But…..I don't think so anymore……you don't hate me….do you?"

"I….I never said that….that I……I mean I never……" Ren couldn't get the words out. He was blushing slightly at her thanks.

"I understand." Suddenly a shooting star fell through the sky. "Look! Make a wish!" I wish that I could spend more time with you, Ren-sama….

Ren looked up. I wish…..that she's never treated like that….ever again…..

They sat in silence once again. Awhile after, Rei put her head on Ren's shoulder. He blushed even more, but didn't attempt to move her. She fell asleep soon after, so he took her inside. After a short while they were both asleep. If you would have gone in, you would have seen the cutest scene. Rei was curled up against Ren, while his arm was slung lightly over her shoulder. They were both smiling, but neither of them knew.

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"EXCUSE ME! Shaman Participant! HELLO?!"

"Huh, what, who where?! I'm up, I'm up!" Rei's memory slowly died as she looked up at the man before her. "Who are you, and what the HELL do you want? I was busy!" She looked to her wrist, adorned with the bracelet. She smiled.

"I am here to--"

"Yeah yeah, we fight later, look to the stars, blah blah blah." She rolled her eyes. "I know already!"

"No. We are fighting now."

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Author's Notes: Awwwwww...that was so sad! I almost cried as I wrote it! Hehe...yes the pairing remains the same: Ren x Rei. Yes, Horo likes her, but Rei doesn't really feel the same. She sees him as an older brother figure. Originally that whole dream thing was supposed to be her and Ren, but I think it fits better here. ...I think I'm gonna cry! Waaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! T-T

And you're probably wondering, who the hell he is, right? Well, you'll find out in...uhhhhhhhh...far later chapters. If you think hard enough though, I'm sure you can figure it out. It's really not all that hard.

But that little daydream was cute. Ahhhh, but she had a horrible life. -sniff- I'm gonna cry again! Wahhhh... And if you didn't know, Niisama means an endeared form of brother. Why doesn't she just call him niisan? Who knows! That's my wild mind for you. And isn't it weird that 5-year-olds are talking about this? Ohhhhhh!! Plot holes! xD

I AM SO SO SORRY FOR THE LONG AWAITED UPDATE! Life seems to be a time-sucker-upper. Sowwies. T-T

Next time: Life or Death? Shaman Entry Test!

Ren: Now go review you bastards! Push the GO button! Now!

R&R Please.

Holy shit, that was a long chapter. Phew.

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