A/N: Ok so you all hate the story, got it!!! But, i like the story so i'm going to keep writting and posting new chapters!!! I wish you guys liked it more but, apparently you don't because your not reviewing. maybe after i finish writting it and it's over i will just delete it?!?!? who knows!!! Thanks those of you who reviewed the last chapter after 5 days!!! oh wait, that was no one!!!! GRR!!!!! oh well you guys hur tmy feelings but you don't seem to care!!!!
Amber
P.S. and yes i'm still sick!!! Not that anyone cares!!!!
In the car Jacob and I talked about a few things, but after we got about 10 miles out of town he brought up a subject, that personally I didn't want to talk about.
"Do you love me?" How was I supposed to answer that? He knew I loved him so there had to be some double meaning in his words, but what could it possibly be? Was he asking me…? No he couldn't be, could he? I told him I wasn't ready to get married but I said nothing about this. Should I play dumb? I can't handle the emotional feeling in that right now. Will he understand that? Did he construe my wanting to go on the honeymoon trip with this? I said it was just to get out of Forks.
"Of course I love you Jacob, You know that."
"I know that you love me, but are you in love with me? You have always said that you loved me you just never said you were in love with me." He was right; I never said I was in love with him. In fact I told him I wasn't in love with him. But, now truthfully I think for the first time in my life, I'd have to say that I Bella Swan am in love with Jacob Black. I have never been to say that before now but I think I can now, now that I know Edward and I can't be together. I don't think I want to be with Edward now. That's the first time I think, I have been able to say Edward's name and not feel that hole in my heart stretch.
"Jacob, I'm in love with you. I'm sorry never said that before, but I didn't want to believe it before because it meant forgetting Edward, and… I wanted to make sure that I…" I started tearing up. "I felt like I was deceiving him, if I admitted I was in love with you. I was going to marry you, and I know that was wrong, but I also knew that I was pregnant. I knew that I still loved Edward. And I was still going to marry you. I'm sorry, but now I know I love you; I'm in love with you. Edward is one of my past and I have to deal with that. But, I love you now. You are my one and only. I gave up eternity to be with you. Do you have some kind of spell on me?" I added the last part to lighten the mood. I really am in love with Jacob.
"Thank you, I needed the reassurance. I shouldn't doubt you but, I don't know you have always seemed so attached to Edward in some kind of way. But, thank you for choosing me. I am definitely the luckiest person on the face of the earth." Why was he saying that?
"No, Jacob I'm the luckiest person on the face of the earth. I couldn't ask for anyone better. Not even Edward would suffice now." I was telling the truth too. Edward just wouldn't do anymore, I needed Jacob.
"Thank you but how about we just call it a tie? Were the two luckiest people on earth?"
"Deal."
"Good, now next subject." I said.
"How about the next subject continues when we get on the plane? Because, Hun, were at the airport. I will get the bags."
"Wow that was real fast. You sure? I can grab some bags if you want."
"That's fine I just have your bags. I put my overnight stuff that I had at your house in the bags so it's just that. But you can pop the trunk."
"Fine, give me the easy stuff. But, if it's because I'm pregnant, you're going to get it!"
"Oh no, your not going to hurt me are you?"
"No, I'm not going to hurt you." I ran up to him and pushed him against the car. "I'm going to smother you in kisses!" Then I kissed him passionately. I pulled away to catch a breath.
"We really have to get going." Jacob breathed
"How long do we have until the plane leaves?" He looked at his watch
"Oh, shoot we only have 5 minutes."
"Well, then let's go to Minnesota!" We put our luggage in baggage claim, got our tickets and went to wait for the plane. When the plane came and we boarded the plane. Jacob put our stuff in the overhead compartment. We took our seats. I sat by the window and Jacob on my side, it was a 2 seat per row plane. We put up the armrest between our seats. I laid my head on his shoulder. I never realized I was so tired. As soon as my head was lying on his shoulder and his arm was around me my eyelids fell and I fell into unconsciousness.
JPOV
Wow, she is so amazing. I never even noticed she was so tired. I love her. I'm glad she chose me. I'm sorry for what she is going through though. I can't believe our luck. Well at least we have each other for this. I don't think she has processed it yet. I don't think I have even processed it yet. I can't wait until we get to the Hotel. I took a moment away from my thoughts and looked at this goddess that is all mine. She was sleeping soundly. I didn't even hear her say a word yet. That has to be good considering if she were dreaming it probably wouldn't be about anything good. When we were about to land I kissed her forehead. "Hey sleepy head it's time to wake up." I whispered in her ear.
"Huh" she asked sleepily.
"The plane is landing, I would carry you off but I have to get the carry on."
"I'm too tired to move."
"As soon as we get to the Grand Lodge you can sleep. Alice even rented us a black limo."
"Great." She said in heavy sarcasm. I guess she was waking up. We loaded off the plane and went to baggage claim. We got our bags and went to find the rent-a-car desk to pick up the limo, with driver.
BPOV
I can't believe Alice got us a Limo! She is so going to get it! It better not say just married considering we aren't. The limo driver opened the door and let us in. he took the bags and put them in the back. After getting in Jacob and I sat next to each other I lie down and put my head on his lap I was so exhausted.
"Jacob, tell me that I had a nightmare that were married, that the baby is fine."
"I can't do that Hun. You know the facts, and unfortunately they are true. I'm sorry." With that I fell asleep. The next thing I knew we were at the grand lodge and Jacob woke me with a kiss.
A/N: ok so i'm not even going to ask you guys to push that mesmerizing little purple button that says o this time because i know none of you love me enough to waste 1 minute on me so ha! be that way i don't care!!! (breaks down crying) be that way!!!!
Amber
