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9 Reasons Why

Video 7- Derek

"Derek, lucky number seven. Seven was always my favorite number, along with the number eight, so symmetrical. I wanted you to be number seven Derek, wanted you to be my lucky number. I said I would explain a few things and I will but you are going to have to stay with me. This is going to be hard for me to say and for you to hear." Stiles rubbed his eyes tiredly as he stared at the phone. He got up slowly from next to the bonfire and headed into the woods, towards Derek's property.

"I wanted the bite from you Derek, I know that you know that by now. I know that you would have given it to me, I know I would have been an asset to the pack. I knew you were waiting for me to ask." Stiles sighed and stopped walking, looking tired and haggard. Derek's heart clenched at how tired the boy looked, at how sad his eyes seemed. "I knew all of this and...I was still scared, scared that you would say no, scared that you didn't want me to be an 'official' member of the pack." Derek growled lightly at the stupidity of that statement.

"Oh shush sour wolf, I know I was being stupid." Stiles smiled slightly at Derek through the phone as Derek sighed heavily at the nickname. "I wanted you to know, the real reason I didn't ask is because...I wanted something that I was afraid you wouldn't give me, I wanted the bite from you, but I wanted it like Peter was going to give it to me." Derek stiffened and his eyes went wide. The pack all looked at him in disbelief and then looked back at Stiles, his sad smile still in place.

"Of course I would go and fall in love with the emotionally constipated sour wolf, just my luck, always wanting the unattainable. At first, I thought that my heart sped up in fear when you were around. It wasn't until later that I liked the way you shoved me up against things, or the way you said my name. I liked the way you looked at me, like you knew I wasn't telling you the truth. I love the way you smell, like the wild, pine trees and home. I wanted to be special to you but I didn't know how to make you see that. I tried at first, to make you notice me, and I'm sure you did but I got so scared, so afraid that it would ruin everything, the pack, our friendship, everything if I told you the truth." Derek felt his heart pick up in pace as pain clenched his insides.

"I wanted to be your mate Derek, I wanted to be with you forever, dark scowls and all." Stiles chuckled slightly in mild amusement, imagining the scowl that was currently on Derek's face. Derek started walking again, everyone hurrying to keep up so they could continue to listen.

"I know that you are probably looking for me right now, know that I messed up somewhere and forgot to cover my tracks. I'm not infallible, especially when I'm tipsy and haven't slept in days. You wont find me, well you might, but not in time to do anything. Damn, I'm really letting things slip today." Derek comes to a screeching halt a look of horror and panic dawning on his face. The pack looks at his expression in confusion before Stiles continues.

"I've gone and ruined the surprise huh? I know that at least Derek has figured it out now, maybe Lydia as well. I'm not leaving you guys, not in the literal since anyways. I'm...moving on, hopefully in a vertical type direction." Stiles chuckled at his own joke and waited a couple of seconds letting it sink in before he continued.

"Derek... he's not...he can't!" Lydia's voice was panicked as she shook her Alpha in fear. The rest of the pack donned slowly horrified expressions as they looked at their Alpha.

"He's going to commit suicide." Derek's voice is empty but they can all hear his heartbeat beating erratically. "We've got to find him. Now!" Derek's voice is commanding and they all run towards Stiles scent, it's getting stronger the closer they get to the upcoming clearing in the trees. The clearing where he met Derek for the first time, the day after Scott was bitten.

"Ah yes, I'm sure you've figured out where I am now, the clearing I first saw Derek. Well Derek, there are other videos to get to before you find me so I need to get moving on. Remember though, you'll always be my sour wolf." Derek's phone went dark in his hand and he growled in frustration and ran faster only to stop when he reached the clearing and there was a loud beeping to his right, his head whipped to the side and looked at Isaac in horror.

Isaac took out his phone and saw the video, he looked up at Derek and he nodded, giving him the go ahead. They searched the clearing while Isaac started the video, not finding the boy but his scent was very recent.