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It was late in the evening and the police finished clearing up, and i finished screaming my head off. I was contemplating suicide most of the time as i thought thier was no reason for me to live anymore. I dont have anyone to love, and no one loves me. I was sitting on the pavement against a wall as a cop walked up to me.
" Umm...kid sorry again for your loss, i know you dont wanna talk but i just need to know if thier is anyone nearby that you trust to take a night in until tommorow where we can find you a suitable home." He sounded very sorrowfull. I new thier was always Mikasa but... I knew i needed to ask them... I Nodded my head and said my nieghbors. This was going to be horrible.
As we knocked on the door we saw Mikasa wearing my scarf looking shocked.
"MUUUUM!" Mikasa shouted. When Mikasa's mum came the cops exclaaimed to her what happend, and he said that I knew Mikasa very well and if i could stay with them for the night. Luckily, they said yes and i started to get 'unpacking'. Eventhough we were robbed, i managed to salvage some clothes. Me and Mikasa both knew we needed some time away from eachother so i decided to ask if i could sleep on the couch. Luckily Mikasa's mum was very nice and polite so sheallowed me to. After that i just sat on the couch thinking...Thinking of what i just went through...Of how it was real life...Life is so cruel.
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It was in the middle of the night and i still couldnt sleep. It wasnt school tommorow though so If i could manage to sleep now i would still be able to sleep aslong as i want. But after about 10 more minutes i gave up. I just couldnt stop thing about what happend. I started to tear up. I just couldnt handle this so i knew what i had to do to calm down. I got up from the couch with still blurred eyesight from the tears. I adventured to the kitchen and managed to find a small sharp knife.
"Perfect." I mumbled as i strolled over to the bathroom. And then i started. I started to have small cuts on my arm, and started to moan out with pain and pleasure. I soon realised the adrenaline was helping with my thoughts. I needed more i thought. Soon enought i made 5 cuts on eacharm, Every one getting deeper and deeper, till the last one was nearlly jabbing half way. I was about to make another one till i heard a knok at the door. 'Shit' I thought.
"Are you okay in thier?" She asked.' Shit it was Mikasa' I thought.
" I-I'm F-Fi-Fine..." I said trying to hold the pain in.
" No, I know its not!" She sayed as she opened the door.' FUCK I FORGOT TO LOCK THE DOOR!' She was startled to see blood all over my arms as i was holding a knife. She looked at me for about 10 seconds until she ran up to me and hugged me.
" WHY! Please, dont leave me...I know how you feel, and i know that your not the only one that feels that pain when you cut your arm!" Mikasa shouted at me.
" What?" I asked.
" When my dad and mum died, i thought the world was over for me. I did the exact same thing as you until i stopped when my step mum came into my life. She helped me through, and I call her my mum cause I hate it when people ask about my real mum... I just hate thinking about it..." Mikasa slowly said as she started to tear up.
" I'm sorry...I'm really sorry... Please can wekeep this a secret though?"
"Of course..C'mon lets get those bandaged up."
I nodded as she pulled out antibacteria spray and bandages.
"This might hurt." Mikasa said as she sprayed the spray all over my arm. I cringed in pain, holding back my immense scream within me.
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-MIKASA POV-
I finished Bandaging Eren up as i looked up and saw Eren's green,glistening eyes intertwine with my dark, grey eyes. Without even talking our faces started to move closer to eachover's until our lips met. I was suprised with how soft and gentle Eren's lips are compared to Jeans...JEAN I thought as i immediatly pulled away. As much as I wantedto taste his sweet succulent lips again, I was no player.
"C'mon...get some rest." I said as i waited for him to come out the bathroom. I needed to walk him to the couch as i didnt want to make any possible way for him to do that again. As he jumped into bed i tucked him in and stared at his lips for a moment. My face started to get closer to his, but as soon as I realized what i was doing, i pulled away, and left to go bed.
