Note: I heart not having Writers block XP
No Hesitation- Roxas's POV
After our cuddle coming to an abrupt end, Axel and I found ourselves in an alleyway, searching for the one responsible for our new foul moods. Axel didn't seem as angry as I was, he seemed more anxious than anything. We'd handled an intruder before, but even I knew that this was different. Xemnas wouldn't have sent us all out unless the alien was a severe threat.
"Maybe we should split up." Since we got out of bed, this was the first he'd spoken and it slightly surprised me. "You know, to cover more ground." He seemed uneasy about his own idea, but we both knew it was for the best.
"Okay." He walked over and kissed me on the lips lightly before running away. I nodded to myself and ran in the opposite direction, clenching my keyblades tightly.
I turned down each street, checking my surroundings carefully each time. I watched the others as I passed them by. Demyx, was taking this with a great deal of caution, slowly sneaking down each alley with water dancers behind him. Luxord was sending his cards down each dark ally to check for the enemy before he ran in. Xaldin would have taken the intruder head on, obviously, because he walked down every corner as if he were invincible.
Saix was only walking and gazing down each alleyway before walking slowly into the darkness. The scarred nobody being out only told me further how serious the enemy was.
Running ahead of them, I turned down an alley that I could check on. I couldn't see what I was doing, so I picked up a stick and held it up. "Fire." I whispered, making a torch for myself. It was a dead end.
I changed directions to leave and move on to the next alley. Unfortunately I bumped into someone and fell back. Looking up, I saw who it was. He had a kind of bandaging on his face and a red cape.
I jumped up in surprise, bracing my keyblades and readying myself to fight.
"Hello Roxas."
I felt my eyes widen. How did he know my name? Who was this guy?
"Call me DiZ. I know a lot about you, keyblade master. Tell me, do you ever wonder why you have that weapon?"
I scowled at him. "What does it matter to you?"
He laughed, which really pissed me off. "You know, you have to have a certain kind of heart to wield a keyblade. You have to have the heart of a loving person and a true friend. But you don't have a heart at all, do you Roxas?"
"Shut up. You don't know me." I could hear the pure disgust in my own voice. "No. I don't have a heart."
He smirked. "Then don't you wonder how you have the weapon that chooses its master by their heart and soul? Because I can tell you. Or rather, show you."
My eyes widened again. "Who are you?"
"That and many other questions will be answered if you come with me."
"Why the hell should I go with you? There has to be some sort of catch."
"You will forget everyone you've met here."
The first image that popped into my head was Axel. How could I forget him? Why would I want to? I didn't want to forget Demyx either. Or even Luxord and Xigbar. "My memories are precious to me."
He nodded. "I don't want to have to take you by force. You are so much like your other." He sighed. "I guess I will have to leave it to her." And he disappeared, leaving me confused. Who is "her?"
I stood up straight, letting my keyblades go as I thought back on what had just happened. I was stunned, and now more curious than ever as to why I had the keyblade. Was it really a weapon that chose my nonexistent heart? Why would I have to lose my memories in order for all of those questions to be answered?
"Roxy?"
I looked up at Axel, surprised that he was there at the time I that needed him the most. He was perfect like that.
"Superior says the intruder left. We can go back to bed now." He focused on me for a second before walking over to me and grabbing my chin so that I was looking up at him. "What's wrong, Rox?"
It wasn't until he said that, that I realized I was crying. His gloved hand reached up and wiped away my tears and I fell forward, hugging him tightly. "I'll never forget you. I promise...never." I was crying into his chest, and he brought his arms around me. My whole body instantly became warmer and I became perfectly calm.
He laid his chin on top of my head and stood holding me. As I stopped crying, I listened to him breathe, and I was suddenly met with a surprisingly peaceful beating in his chest. The more I listened the more I felt the same coming from myself at the same pace and rhythm.
"Axel," I whispered, holding him tightly. "Never let me go..."
His arms around me tightened and he bent his head down to my ear. "Never." He kissed my cheek and whispered again. "I promise."
Never before had I felt it so...perfect. I pushed him back and looked up at him, his green eyes burning into me. They were so full of concern and passion. They melted me inside. I placed my hands on the sides of his face. Without further hesitation, I pushed myself up on my toes to kiss him lightly. I felt as his hands fell down to my lower back and pushed me up toward him. I took that as a sign to deepen the kiss as I pushed him back against an alley wall.
I found his mouth nibbling its way down my neck as my hands wrapped themselves in his hair. I moaned against him as he began kissing me roughly from my open collar bone back up to my lips. I kissed him hard, my hands running down his sides and down his hips. I wanted...no...needed more. I needed...everything. And I wanted him to know that.
Grinding my hips against his, I listened as he let out a low moan. I pushed myself up to his ear and bit his earlobe lightly before whispering huskily, "I need you..."
He groaned against me but pushed me back. "Roxas...we can't."
"Why not?" I kissed him again, lightly.
"We just can't." He sighed and stopped me from kissing him again. "We are nobodies...we can't just go around acting like we are more than that."
I glared at him. "We aren't acting. I know you feel for me...and you feel for me here." I gained some confidence as I brushed my hand across his groin.
He groaned and looked down at me. "Roxas...we'll get caught."
"No, we won't." I kissed and nibbled on his neck. "We'll go in my room...next to mine is empty and across from mine is empty. It'll be just us. No one could hear us..."
He groaned again as I pushed against him and bit down on his collarbone. "Mm...okay...but we have to sneak inside the castle."
Without thinking, I opened a portal directly into my room and pushed him through it and onto my bed. "Sneaky enough?"
He pulled me down into a kiss. "Perfect."
I smiled down at him and kissed him again. I was straddling him again, my hands on his chest. I raised up to look at him, a smile playing across my lips. "I think we're switched."
He grinned and pushed me down against the bed and rose above me. He pulled the zipper on my cloak down, letting it fall open so that the cold night air brushed against me. I shuddered beneath him and he grinned down at me with vibrant eyes. He was so beautiful.
He ravished my neck and collarbone with rough kisses, nipping his way down to my chest and licking across my left nipple roughly before sucking on it. I moaned and writhed against him, the new sensation sending chills down my spine. Nibbling it lightly, he pulled away. I could feel myself sweating as he lapped against my other nipple.
I pulled my arms out of my sleeves and wrapped them around him. I snaked my hand to his chest as he kissed my lips again, pulling the zipper of his own black jacket down. He shrugged the clothing off and kissed his way down my chest and my stomach. I shuddered as he worked the zipper on my black pants down. The vibrations caused me to let out a low growl.
He looked up at me with his vibrant green eyes and smirked. "Are you seriously wearing briefs?" He laughed huskily. "I haven't worn those since...ever."
I laughed down at him and blushed. I suddenly felt so childish. All of those thoughts suddenly left, however as he pulled my pants down to my ankles and crawled back on top of me. Cold air rushed onto my legs and hips and I shuddered again. He ran his hands down my body and down to my hips, kissing the line between my leg and torso he whispered again. "You feel needy..." He rubbed a hand up the inside of my thighs up to the line of my erection.
"I am..." I was panting by now as his kisses went lower and lower. His hands were gently stroking my thigh. He hooked a finger under the elastic of my underwear and pulled them down. My breath hitched as my hard erection was revealed to him. I was both embarrassed, and aroused causing my face to be hot and my breathing ragged.
He leaned down and licked across the head of my arousal lightly, causing my back to arch and a long sigh to emit from my throat. "You're absolutely delicious, Rox." He suckled lightly on the tip again before pulling himself back up to my face. I was panting hard against him.
Stepping off the bed, he removed his pants, showing me that he had decided to wear no undergarments that day. I looked at him with a suggestive leer. "Commando, Axel?"
He smirked. "Only for you." And he crawled back on my hips. As our erections brushed against each other, we both moaned. He rocked forward and kissed me as we moaned again. Finally he pulled away and lifted my legs up to his shoulders. I looked up at him in slight fear, but overcome by lust. "I don't really know how to do this..." he admitted, gazing down at me in concern.
I smiled at him. "I don't care...just...please..." I was basically moaning out my words. He took the hint and slid a finger into me. I grabbed the sheets in my hands and bit back a groan. He waited until my hands unclenched before moving the finger in and out of me slowly. Soon the pain died down and I began to enjoy the feeling. Just as the feeling of pleasure began to wash over me however, a second finger was slid in. I hissed in pain and bit my lip.
As a tear fell down the side of my face, Axel wiped it away, softly whispering. "I'm sorry...I'm not trying to hurt you." As I nodded, he began to move the two fingers inside me. After a third time of the same action, he pulled all three fingers out. "Are you sure about this?"
I scowled at him. "Don't you dare back out now." He laughed huskily and pulled my hips up so the tip of his erection was brushing against my opening. "Just...go..."
He nodded and pushed into me, quickly, but at the same time with a bit of softness. I groaned loudly as my back arched and my hands clenched the sheets once more. To be honest I wasn't expecting it to hurt that much. He started apologizing to me but I ignored it, concentrating only on relaxing my body. My body soon became less tense and I moved to urge the redhead to keep going. Trying to hide the fact that I was still in pain, I manipulated my moans of pain, into those of pleasure. As he continued, however, I began bucking to meet him.
His breathing was becoming ragged, along with mine as we moaned over and over, my back arching and pushing my body against him. His hips met with mine, his hand wrapped around me and in the midst of it all, I didn't care about what had happened earlier. He was all that mattered, and he was with me. We were all that mattered.
Soon his breathing was coming in short moans and I sensed that he was about to climax. I felt myself approaching my peak as well as he plunged into me again. I fought the urge to close my eyes, however, so that I could see his face. His cheeks were flushed, his forehead sweaty, and his hair was clinging to his skin. I was enthralled by the passion held in his eyes as they opened to gaze down at me.
With another plunge he came, sending me over the edge as well. I moaned his name, arching my back as I heard my own echoing off of the walls in the room as he collapsed on top of me. As he rolled over next to me, I turned on my side to face him, kissing him gently on the lips over and over.
"Roxas." He whispered. I looked back at him as he pulled me against him, his arm wrapped around my back and he kissed my forehead. "Go to sleep." He pulled his cloak from next to him over us.
I nodded against his bare chest. I listened to his chest thump softly in my ear, and his breath steady. I was soon lulled to sleep by the sound that only I would ever hear. I love him...I love Axel...and I am his heart...
Note: This was the first time I wrote any really graphic yaoi. This is my first yaoi fic or anything. So I'm kind of proud of it. What did you think? Hot and sexy? I thought so...mmm Axel...
