Sorry for the long update, I'm swamped with school and reality in general lately but I will try to post at least once a week. Anyway I hope you like this chapter becasue it's one of my favs (the next one is my top so far). It would help if you acutally listen to the songs that I picked while or before you read the chapter...I don't know if you'll agree with my picks but I think they fit other then Bonnie's, I couldn't decide which one so I just picked one of my fav songs. Anyway I'm rambling so hope you like it and if you wouldn't mind on reviewing it or letting me know about what you thought about the song picks and which ones you would of picked.
I own nothing. Songs are property of City and Colour, Lady Anteabellum ( terrible at spelling I know) and Kelly Clarkson in that order.
Elena's POV
As soon as I spot Damon I immediately start to panic. It's not that I have a bad singing voice and are embarrassed for him to hear me sing but the song I chose is about him. "Guys, look who's here". Both Bonnie and Caroline look over and spot the guys and give me a look that just screams what do you want to do?
"So what Elena, think of it as a way to tell Damon how you feel without him knowing it's about him directly. And we all know Bonnie was going to sing about Jeremy so it's perfect". "I'm glad you find this so easy for you Caroline. I vote you go first then. What do you think Elena"? It was like Bonnie had read my mind at that moment and Caroline never gave up on a challenge so she just smiled and said fine I will.
Alaric's POV
"Hey aren't that Elena and the girls up on stage"? "Great observation Ric, what do we care let's have ourselves a nice laugh". Well Damon was back to his own self, who was he trying to kid? We all knew he was excited to see what Elena was going to sing and if it was going to be about him. But why bother arguing with him, better just to sit back and watch the show.
One of the servers got up on stage and welcomed Caroline to the stage. "Hi so for tonight I'm going to sing City and Colour's song, Little Hell, I know kind of depressing but hey it's one of my favs anywho hope you like it".
"What if I can't be all that you need me to be
We've got a good thing going, we have some promises to keep
But my addiction it can be such a detriment
Please believe in this my dear, I am more than penitent
What if everything's just the way that it will be
Could it be that I am meant to cause you all this grief
My war ships are lying off the coast of your delicate heart
And my aim is steady and true as it's been right from the start
There's a degree of difficulty in dealing with me
From my haunted past comes a daunting task of living through memories.
If we could just hang a mirror on the bedroom wall, stare into the past and forget it all
So when we leave it'll be a quick midnight escape
We'll disconnect ourselves from all of yesterday
I'll dig for water and fashion our very own wishing well
Then we'll throw our coins down hoping to rid of us of this little hell
There's a degree of difficulty in dealing with me
From my haunted past comes a daunting task of living through memories.
If we could just hang a mirror on the bedroom wall, stare into the past and forget it all
Will we get out of this little hell
Will we get out of this little hell
Will we get out of this little hell
Will we get out of this little hell"
As Caroline sang the song, everyone in the bar turned to listen to her sing and the girl could sing. Alaric knew that she was talking about Tyler and my heart went out to her.
Bonnie's POV
Poor Caroline, so much has happened to her. I wish there was a way to help her. Looking over to where Jeremy was sitting made me think what I wanted to sing. Maybe if I picked something that would get through to him and let him know how much he hurt me. Maybe then he would come over and let me know how sorry he really is.
When Caroline was done, everyone gave her a round of applause and she looked like she was ready to cry. My heart went out to her, poor thing. "Okay Bonnie, your turn get up there and knock them dead"!
When I reached the stage, I had finally decided what I was going to sing. "So I can't sing like the last one but I can give it a try for you guys. This song goes out to someone that let me down recently and even though I still love them, I don't think I can forgive them until they admit that they were wrong and prove me wrong. So the song that I will sing is Wanted You More by Lady Antebellum ".
I kept waiting on a reason
And a call that never came
No I never, saw it comin'
Somethin' in you
Must have changed
All the words unspoken
Promises broken
I cried for so long.
Wasted too much time
Should have seen the signs.
Now I know, just what went wrong
I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now I'm sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more
All the nights we spent just talkin'
Of the things we wanted out of life (out of life)
Makin' plans and dreams together
I wish I'd seen I was just too blind
My heart was open
Exposed and hoping
For you to lay it on the line
But in the end it seemed
There was no room for me
Still I tried, to change your mind.
I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now I'm sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more
Ohhh, I don't need you
I don't need you anymore
I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now I'm sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more
Jeremy's POV
As I listened to Bonnie sing from her heart, I knew that she was singing about me. It was in that moment that I understood what she meant when she said that she couldn't forgive me. What I did was terrible. Yes, I loved Anna and I probably will always hold her close to my heart but she was gone and she wasn't coming back. Elena was right about me loving a ghost but Bonnie wasn't a ghost, she was and is real she's someone I could move forward with. Before she could finish her song, I stood up and ran to her on stage and as she looked at me confused I grabbed her and just kissed her with everything I had. "I'm sorry Bonnie, I understand what I did was wrong and I want to start again with you. If you are willing to forgive me and put this past us, I want you to know that it will never happen again and I will spend as much time as you want making up for it and the lost time because of it.
Bonnie's POV
All I could do was stare at Jeremy. Look into his beautiful brown eyes and something inside me told me to let him in, to give him one more chance. "Okay Jeremy, I'll give you a chance to redeem yourself". That was all I could say until he stared to kiss me again and everyone in the bar was clapping and wooing at us. Who would have thought that a simple song would change so much.
Elena's POV
Watching my brother and Bonnie kiss on stage made me so happy. I'm glad that they can work out their problems like that. At least one of us might end up happy. What I didn't realize was it was my turn to get on stage. As I walked up the small steps to the stage, all I can think is that Damon is in the same room and I have completely forgotten what song I chose to sing knowing full well that it has something to do with him. Before I can chicken out though, I somehow make it to the microphone and look out to all the people at the bar and for the first time that night I realize how many people are there. The only person that matters in the sea of people in that moment is Damon.
"Before I start to sing my song tonight, I just want to say that this song is for someone that I hold close to my heart and this is the way I'm going to convey to him and anyone else that wants to know how I feel about them in this moment. This is Beautiful disaster by Kelly Clarkson".
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long
He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
Well that's the chapter folks, hope you liked it and please don't forget to review.
~ Jess
