Chapter 7
"Unanswered Questions"
Beck's POV
"Oh Beck I'm sorry. I'm sure André didn't mean to ruin your kiss with Tori. You know he was just excited to see you," Cat was trying to comfort me about the events from Friday. It was now Monday and I haven't spoken to Tori since then. Cat was always great at comforting people.
"I know André didn't do it intentionally, but I haven't spoken to Tori since Friday. I just really hope that things don't get awkward between us. I mean it was a heat of the moment type of thing." Ok that was a major lie. The way I feel about Tori led me to try and kiss her, but the way we were dancing was my chance to do it.
Cat just looked at me with a smirk on her face, "I don't think it was a heat of the moment thing since you always talk at her and stare at her. As for your relationship with her getting awkward, I don't think Tori will let it get awkward. From what I've seen, she seems like she really enjoys your friendship. The best thing to do is to act like nothing happened. Don't even discuss it with her since that will make it even more awkward. It will make her feel rejected. Even if she doesn't like you back, it still hurts a girl to be shot down."
Wow I can't believe Cat just said all of that. This is the most helpful thing I've heard from… anyone. "You know Cat that is the most helpful thing I have ever heard come out of your mouth."
"What's that supposed to mean?!" and now we're back to the normal Cat.
I shook my head and patted her head, "Nothing Cat. You just really helped me out."
Cat smiled at me, "Glad I could help," she said before skipping away. Oh gosh, this girl and her mood swings.
Now to go and find Tori and… act like nothing happened. Well that's going to be awkward. How am I supposed to act like we didn't almost kiss? This is going to be tougher than I thought. She just enchants me and to act like I didn't almost kiss this amazing girl that has been all I've been thinking about recently, would basically be the death of me. But I guess this is better than letting things get awkward between us and we eventually stop talking. I don't know what I would do after knowing and speaking with this girl almost every day and it just went away.
"Are you going to continue to stand in this hallway and stare off into space?" André asked from behind me, "What's going on with you man?"
I sighed and ran my hand down my face, "I'm thinking about how I'm going to deal with the whole Tori thing. Cat told me to act like nothing happened to save what I have with her."
"Wait, so you're going to just act like nothing happened between you two?" I nodded my head as André shook his, "Look coming from Tori's closest guy friend she seems really into you. I would use this as the perfect opportunity to tell her how I feel about her."
Great now I have two people telling me to do complete opposite things. "Dré, I'm not entirely sure if I'm ready to tell her all about my life yet. I mean I want to believe me I do, but I just want to tell her when I'm sure I want to be with her. I'm still a bit iffy on that. When I want to be with her, I want her to want to be with the real me, the person that has been through so much. I don't want her to want to be with me just because of who she thinks I am."
André looks at me blankly as if he's thinking, "You know what man I respect that. That's very wise of you. You don't want to hurt her because you aren't who she thought you were. Sorry for pressuring you. Just don't let her slip through your fingers." With that said André walks away before he turns around, "She's in the cooking room just so you know." He winks and turns around the corner. This is why he's my best friend. I smiled and walked to the class rooms with an extra spring in my step.
I made my way to the hallway and looked frantically for the amazing girl who has taken over my thoughts. I looked through the small windows in the doors to see her where I found her back turned as she was filling a measuring cup with flour and her long beautiful brown hair flowing behind her. I very quietly stepped into the room and closed the door behind me silently. I walked up behind her and whispered in her ear, "Boo."
She snapped around and released a small shriek. I erupted into laughter while she glared at me. She swatted my arm, "I thought I told you to stop scaring me like that!"
"Just because you said it, doesn't mean I have to listen." Tori rolled her eyes at me, "So whatcha baking?" I asked putting my bag down next to hers and standing beside her.
"I'm baking cupcakes for my Vocals class bake sale."
"Why didn't you bake them at home?"
"Trina was busy baking for her dance club since whatever she does affects me and how society works." I couldn't help but laugh at her sister's self-centeredness. Tori swatted me again, "You wouldn't be laughing if you had to live with her."
"You're probably right, but I don't so I will continue to laugh."
"Urgh! I can't bake!," Tori then put her hands on the counter and put her hands down. She turned to face me, "Can you help me?"
I nodded and took the instructions from her hands. This was a simple recipe so we should be done relatively soon. "Oh come on Tori this is easy stuff."
"Well I'm sorry that I'm a bad baker."
"You should be," Tori glared at me which I smirked at, "Kidding. Come on let's make some cupcakes."
I helped her with the recipe and she was beaming at me, "Yay!" She jumped up and wrapped her arms around my neck, "You're the best!" She let me go and started to look for the whisk. While she did that, I decided it was time to have some fun. I took some of the flour from the bowl in my hand and waited for her to turn around. "Hey Beck do you know where the *gasp*" I flicked the flour at her causing her to close her eyes and put her hands up by her head. She looked at me with her mouth agape as her face was covered with flour. She pointed at the bowl, "That was perfectly measured!" she screamed.
She pulled flour out of the bag and threw it at me getting it in my hair. I gasped at her, "Ok it's on!" We both started throwing flour at each other not even being able to look at each other through the cloud of flour. I could hear Tori's squeals of delight and her laughter that makes me fall in love every time. Tori grabbed a hold of the bag of flour and just kept flinging at me. I reached over to her and grabbed the bag and started to dump the contents onto her head, "There you go!"
"Ahhhhhhh! Beck I hate you!" Tori started to hit my chest. I knew she was joking so I grabbed a hold of her wrists, pulling her close to me as she smiled and started laughing.
"What did you say?"
"I said I hate you!" She said still smiling.
"Oh really? You might want to take that back."
"Why? What are you going to do about it?" Tori challenged.
"I can completely change your life in a heartbeat."
"Then do it!" Tori said and we laughed after. We continued to step backwards as our laughter died down. When our laughter stopped Tori looked up at me and stared into my eyes. She swallowed hard before she spoke and I still had a hold of her wrists, "When you said you could change my life in a heartbeat, how would you change it?" she whispered.
I looked down at her completely shocked. How on Earth was I supposed to answer that without giving away I like her? I shut my eyes tight as I thought about how I could back myself out of this. Without even realizing it I had intertwined my hands with Tori's, "Beck?" Tori questioned. Should I tell her? Should I tell her my life story? Would she still want to be with me after I told her about my past? That was a question that I couldn't answer on my own. I have to tell her eventually why not now? Right when I opened my mouth, someone barged in.
"What is going on in here?!" the cooking teacher exclaimed.
Tori looked at her and separated our hands and put her hands on the counter again, "Nothing. Nothing at all."
Those words crushed me and I could hear the hurt in her voice. The cooking teacher continued to reprimand us, but I couldn't hear anything. Tori's words kept on replaying in my head with the same hurt in her voice. Those were some of the most upsetting words I have ever heard in my life and I have heard a lot of nasty things in my life. Just hearing the hurt in her voice makes it even worse. There was one thing on my mind for the rest of the day. Why was she so hurt when she said those words?
A/N Ok please don't hate me for making a fluff Bori Chapter when they aren't together yet. That will change very soon though! Also we are going to dive into the mess of Beck's life either next chapter or the one after (I mean it this time!) Believe me his life is very messed up! I wish they went more into his life on the show.
-BeckandToriBeriforeverxoxo
