"How Can I sleep if I don't have dreams? I just have nightmares, How can it be? I still believe something is out there."
-The neighborhood
Tori
"Jade.."
She pushed me back into the couch and straddled me with her bottom lip held between her teeth. She's got me breathless, my stomach tied in knots, and she leans into my ear without missing the opportunity to grind down on me.
"Shhh... Just relax."
She grasps the sides of my face and connects our lips. I can't help, but toss my head back with a moan as she grinds into my hard on and moves down to my neck, biting. I move my hands under her shirt, dragging my fingers across her back and kissing her exposed chest from her v-neck shirt.
It's all kind of a blur, a lustful, heated, needy blur that's suddenly come to a halting stop. I blink a few times to process Jade just pushed me back from her. I look up at her.
"J-Jade wha-"
"It's your fault.."
Ummm...
"What're yo-"
She frowns looking at me like she finally just realized something.
"It's your fault. You're the reason. You killed them."
That familiar feeling of being oxygen deprived returned. I couldn't move.
"N-no. No, I didn't do-"
"Yeah, it's your fault. You killed them!"
She just kept repeating it and and I just wanted her to stop.
"No!"
My throat was tight, my eyes watered, but I was finally sitting up in bed in a cold sweat as usual. I laid back down, exhausted, but catching my breath and thinking of what I was going to do to kill time as everyone else slept. The sun isn't even up, but an orange light is creeping up on the horizon.
Sigh.
I walk downstairs to find Justin sitting on the couch watching tv. I didn't even know he stayed over... The volume is close to mute, but it's so quiet in this big house I think a pin dropping would be earth shattering.
Justin takes notice as I sit next to him. I curl into his side and lay my head on his chest as he extends his arm to wrap it around my back.
"Nightmare?"
His voice only a level above a whisper, it was soft. I just nod as he continues watch highlights on ESPN.
"Why're you up?"
"Sleep schedule is fucked up from this past week."
Work always messes with our sleep schedule. It's hell sometimes.
"I worry about you, baby sis."
"I'm okay."
Didn't realize my voice was hoarse, but I guess if you're screaming in your sleep all night it should be expected...
"It's not good."
"What?"
I take his arm from behind me and start running my fingers over his tattoos. I love tattoos. Every little thing he has, has a meaning and everyone important in his life has their own place marked on him, his family symbol, his parents, his little brother and sister, even selena, and even me. My fingers stop over the tiny 'T' inked by my symbol.. He's looking at me now.
"Holding it all in. You need to face it sometime or else it'll break you. Trust me, I know. You think you can keep busy with work and ignore it, but it doesn't work that way."
Did you know I have tattoos?
"Tori."
My eyes meets his in acknowledgment before disconnecting.
"Yeah, I know. Today is not that day, though."
He nods.
"No, today is Christmas Eve. You wanna hit the trail and then grab breakfast?"
He offers a smile in which I return.
"Sounds good."
I move to get up, but he grabs my arm.
"Hey. I'm here for you whenever you need to talk you know? Even if we're continents apart, just call and I'll jump on the jet, yeah?"
"Yeah."
He beams a smile before grabbing the back of my head and pulling me in for a hug. He kisses the top of my head and says..
"I love you sis."
..before letting go.
"I love you too bro."
Media reports
" Justin Bieber and Tori Vega were spotted this morning grabbing breakfast together at Jack & Jills restaurant. Justin (22 years old) and Tori (19 years old) have been known to be very close and have a sibling-type relationship."
"Tori Vega was spotted this morning, out with Justin Bieber for a morning hike and then breakfast. The quickly, rising pop star appeared extremely exhausted. Too much work or is Justin to blame? It's known that the two have a very close relationship and clear to see Justin has a huge influence on Tori, which may not be the healthiest..."
"Numerous celebrity nudes were recently leaked including, Jennifer Lawrence, Kate Upton, Ricky Underwood,... Whether the exposing pictures are real or fake have yet to be determined, although some celebrity have already spoken out about taking action against the perpetrator(s)."
"19 year old Tori Vega and 22 year old Justin Bieber were spotted Christmas Eve morning, walking Hollywood Hills Trail and then grabbing breakfast shortly after. They seemed to be having a serious discussion while walking, but once they got to the restaurant for breakfast they seemed to be more at ease and carefree. "
I pulled my hood over my head (I'm wearing a hoodie) as Justin puts a protective arm around me as we walked out of the restaurant. Cameras instantly started flashing, ten different questions thrown out ever second, and our bodyguards and Justin pushed through.
"Back up!"
"Could you just back up! Sir, please back up!"
"Justin, you gay! Just cause she's a girl doesn't change what's down below!"
"Tori, are you dating Jade? Tori, how long have you been with Jade?"
"How's Cat?"
"Are you making new music together?"
"Tori!"
"Justin!"
It goes on and on until we get to Justin's car and we speed off, nearly hitting a few papps in the process.
They fucking deserve it.
"Can't even get a break on Christmas Eve."
Justin shakes his head.
We finally get back to my house and walk in with bags of food from the restaurant.
"Yay! Food! Hi, babe!"
Cat runs over to us and hugs Justin as we set down the bags on the kitchen island. Jade soon joins us.
"Have a nice hike?"
Jade quirks an eyebrow at us and I catch on.
"Media's getting faster, huh."
She smirks as she grabs a white, Styrofoam, food container. We all decide to sit on the floor by the fireplace in the living room as we eat and discuss random non-sense. Cat was scrolling through her phone.
"Wow babe, you looked good on your hike today."
Cat wore a goofy smile as Jade peered over her phone. Justin began to flex his arm in a gloating manner till Jade killed it...
"Oh yeah, she does look good."
I started laughing as Justin grabbed Cat's phone.
"Ha ha you're both hilarious. No more gawking at Tori."
"Aw cheer up! I could give you some training tips if you want bro."
I cheesed a smile at at him as he glared.
"You're so sensitive babe."
"Yeah, man up Bieber."
Cat cuddled into Justin's side as Jade rolled her eyes and turned to me.
"So what's the plan stan?"
I smiled.
"Well I was thinking...you, me, tonight...in my bedroom."
I wiggled my eyebrows, but she just deadpanned me.
"I'm talking about movies, geez."
The corners of her mouth tugged upward.
"I meant today."
I tilted my head and she bit her lip.
"Um... Well I have a meeting first then we have to pick up some things from wardrobe, rehearsals, showtime, mass, sleep."
She narrows her eyes at me in a suspicious, yet smiling manner.
"We're picking up some things...from wardrobe?"
"You'll see."
Justin is first to finish his food.
"Tor, are you and Jade going church tonight or?"
Clearly he was too busy being tied to Cat to hear what I just told Jade.
"Yeah, midnight. We're just going to leave after I preform. You going?"
It's tradition. Aside from last year, I've always went to midnight mass on Christmas Eve with my family and Jade. Justin used to always go too, but things have gotten in the way. It's hard. When you're mobbed everywhere or when you go on a year long tour, it's basically impossible to go anywhere to do anything like go to church and it gets away from you. It's so easy to lose the foundation you were brought up on. I used to never understand how people could change so drastically, like when Justin fell to the point of being arrested, but now I know. Or at least, I'm starting to.
Justin looks over at Cat and she just shrugs.
"Sounds good."
"Well, Jade and I should probably start getting ready. Places to go, ya know."
"Cool, we'll see you at the show. Babe, we gotta go meet up with Scooter in a few."
Jade
I'm sitting in the passenger seat playing with Tori's free hand as she drives. I trust she won't kill us so... I run my nails lightly up her forearm and then back down stoping at a scar on the side of her hand, well I guess it's the side of her thumb.
"Hey! You can't talk to girls that way!"
"Aw wittle Tori protecting his witch girlfriend. What're you going to do about it pipsqueak?"
"I'll mess up that pretty face of yours!"
"No Jade! I'm supposed to protect you!"
Tori put a hand out, stopping me from advancing.
"Shut up Ryder!"
He had started laughing and mocking Tori. Tori pushed Ryder, but then he pushed back harder and Tori fell to the ground, scraping his hands against the street of the neighborhood. I was about to punch Ryder as he was laughing with brat friends, but Tori grabbed my ankle. He stood up and Ryder turned back to him. I don't think anyone expected it, but Tori nailed Ryder right in the nose with his fist and he fell to the ground clutching his bloody face.
Tori got his first real punishment that day, but his parents went easy seeing he was just protecting me. They grounded him for a week.
Back then Tori passed on as a boy and we all thought she was just a normal boy, but I guess that's easy when you're like six. I suddenly felt eyes on me and looked up to find a cheesing Tori.
"What?"
"Nothing... Just couldn't help notice how deep in thought you were with a smile brighter than the sun."
"You really know how to dramatize my expressions, don't you."
"What were you thinking about?"
"Mmmm...just thoughts."
"About me?"
I smirk.
"Maybe."
"Good thoughts?"
"Eh."
I shrug. She laughs in return as we pull up to Island Records.
The meeting was whatever. I basically just sat their scrolling through my phone and texting people as Tori was talking with some people about her work schedule, stuff about New Years and then music stuff, blah. At least Effy had soon join us, also sitting opposite of us.
Couldn't they just call her or something and why does she always seem to drag me to these things. Like I don't have a life...well at the moment...
Then I had an idea. Being the sinister person I am, Tori should know better. We were sitting at one of those long meeting tables with me and Tori across from the others. I stayed scrolling on my phone with one hand like I wasn't even in tune with them and I rested my free hand on Tori's thigh like the million times I had done in the past. She didn't seemed phased or even seem to notice at all, which makes sense. It's normal for us. Then I started dragging my nails agains her denim clad thigh upward and back down.
Still nothing. I continued the slow dragging motion only now moving more to her inner thigh. The corner of my mouth pulled up as I saw Tori glance at me out of the corner of her eye while continuing to discuss business with the suits across from us. Looking up for a second, Effy wore her famous, all-knowing look and look pleasantly amused. I continued scrolling through my phone as I began moving my hand upwards towards her crotch. Just as my hand was about to reach her apex her hand gripped mine, although it wasn't tight or forceful. It was a plead. Why would I stop when having Tori at my mercy was my favorite kind of pastime.
The suits remained oblivious to Tori's current torment as they rambled on. My actions had reduced Tori to a pile of 'uhuhs' and 'yeahs' and head nods or shakes.
I had to admit I was kind of hesitant to continue on. I've seen Tori numerous times in her underwear and a few times naked when growing up, but those where on accident and only a blur of skin, but I'd never really touched her there.
I could feel Effy burning holes into me, daring me, and my challenging side took over. Tori's hand weakened over mine and I dragged my nails over the slight bulge, which instantly hardened at friction I was causing.
Tori whimpered and I instantly withdrew my hand.
"So, I think everything's just about settled here."
The business men said their goodbyes as Effy lead them out, closing the door behind her with a smile playing on her lips.
"You're going to be the death of me, Jade."
Tori's eyes refused to meet mine as she took control of her heavy breathing.
"Don't drag me to boring meetings then."
Play the part.
Tori suddenly jumped out of her chair and started to walk out of the building and I followed in toe. We jumped into her car, taking off. I was kind of worried now.
"Don't you think there's a line to cross?"
Her eyes locked on the road ahead. I didn't know what to say.
"Clearly lines don't apply to Wests, so just know that you started this."
I frowned. She wasn't upset or mad, she's turning it into a game. She knows me so well, yet she seems off.
"Fine."
(Future)
Documentary Footage
The following takes place in Tori's living room with Robbie as the interviewer. The view is focused on Tori. Scooter, Cat, and glimpses of a few other people can be seen in the background.
"So is it hard dating?"
Tori smiles and looks away for a second. You can hear people talking in the background, but it goes quiet.
"Um.. No, well it just depends. Most people I've known for a long time, but I guess in general I meet someone new it's hard to tell... Now everyone is acting and trying to just say what they think I want to hear so I like them, but I've learned to spot that. Dating... I don't really 'date' anyone now..."
Some one whispers "She dates just one," in the background.
"Have you ever been in love?"
A smile spreads across Tori's face and she nods.
"Yeah."
"How many?"
"Just one."
"For how long?"
"Forever."
"Really?
"I just didn't know it."
Echoes of Cat giggling in the background can be heard.
"What's that like?"
She looks up searching for words.
"Like...i-it's just... The most intense experience you could have with emotions. You're around that person a-and just...nothing else matters. It's just them and then there's you...that's it. There's nothing else to think about, but them."
"Have you ever been heartbroken?"
It goes quiet and Tori looks down at her hands and then looks back at the camera and takes a breath.
"Of course."
"Same person?"
"Yeah."
"What's that like?"
"The same as being in love, but...it's the opposite... Your happiness turns to pain. It's not them and then just you anymore. It's you...and then there's them...with other people. And you have to stay here while t-they're over there and you can't do anything. You're told to smile and act and put on a show in front of the public, for the cameras. I don't care... They're all that matters and then it's gone, so...nothing matters."
"...So then you write a song?"
Tori gives a soft smile.
"So then you write a poem..."
A/N Sorry this one is so short and it took so long, I hope there isn't too many errors. I've been sick and blah, but I'm feeling better now. I wanted to make this longer, but I don't have the energy quite yet… So just accept this chapter of character substance building and teasing. I'll make up for it in the next chapter I promise. Hopefully this will hold you for now. Thanks guys for the awesome support and keep up those Reviews. They really help. I hope you like the foreshadowing in the documentary and media reports. Also, to the person that want Nick Jonas to hit on Jade, I've thought about it and I figured out a way to work him in future chapters, although it may not be EXACTLY how you want it, it still works. If anyone else wants to see certain celebrities in this story, I'm always up for ideas, so let me know! Thanks again, don't forget to review and CIAO!
