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Venting-Chapter seven

A/N-Sorry I haven't updated I was over at a friends house, but anyways we are back to Bella's Point of View

I woke up only to remember that I had a really odd dream, I dreamt of marrying Edward and then Alice was the one who was performing the ceremonies. Then I remember what me and Edward told each other last night while I was drunk, wait I was drunk well that would explain the headache. He said that he loved me and I told him that I loved him too. I turned to my right and I saw his beautiful face laying right besides me, oh no did we do anything.

I looked under the covers and saw that both of us had all of our clothes on, I was only semi relieved because part of me wanted to do something. Edward was fast asleep so now was my only time to think of a plan, because there was no way for us to be together. I get on thinking but there was no way of hiding my true feelings for unless I didn't see his amazing face while I was talking to him. I will tell him that I was drunk and that I could never be with him and that I never meant anything and he didn't mean anything to him and such.

"Good morning," oh great he woke up!

ere I go "good morning Edward," I said trying to sound like I was in pain and luckily this head ache was helping me in that.

"What's wrong my love," he asked.

"I am not your love," I responded.

"But last night you said that you love me and I said back." this conversation was getting bad.

"I was drunk Edward I never meant anything I said," this might be hurting me more then him.

"No Bella don't do we can find a way for us to be together I know that we were meant for each other, I know that your worried but I am to but me can make this work," we were crying now.

"I'm sorry but I really don't love or even like you," with that he left. I continue to cry but this time I let all the sounds and all my feelings pour out with my tears. I got up to go find my razors but they weren't in the place I last put them so continue to look only to find them hidden in with my books. I cut my wrist and my legs dying for my emotional pain to go away but it never did so I just continue to cut until blackness consume me.

A/N- no Bella is not dead and I still need more people to review and to go vote on my poll!