A/N: Here is the next chapter, thanks again for all the reviews, it helps me to keep writing more. Well I don't have much to say except the season premiere last night was epic, I know this season will be awesome, and know I'll shut up and let you read...
Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush or anything having to do with the show.
Chapter 7: Pride
Kendall couldn't believe what had just happened, he just got into a huge fight with Logan, a physical fight too, and Logan had manged to make Kendall's lip bleed. He wiped away the blood with the back of his hand as he ran out of the apartment. He didn't know what to do or where to go. Jo was working all day and he really didn't want to talk to anyone else. He was at the elevator when James came running up to him grabbing his shoulder.
"Kendall, what was that about?"
Kendall at this point was furious, he meant everything he said and the wrestling match he just had pushed him over the edge. He just needed to clear his head and figure out what was going on.
"I don't know, I just need to get some fresh air. Please just leave me alone."
The elevator arrived and James quickly got in, but Kendall quickly decided to take the stairs as the doors closed on James. Kendall ran down the stair two at a time and raced towards the Palm Woods Park finding an open secluded bench. He thought he was in clear but was once again joined by James.
"Dude, let's talk about this. You can't just start a huge fight with your best friend and pretend that everything is normal. You don't act like this at all, you would have been the first person to comfort Logan today."
"James! Please, I don't want to talk about this. I won't always be there for Logan and his constant need to complain and whine to me just annoys me and I couldn't take it anymore."
"Okay, I understand what your saying, but that's who Logan is. He worries about everyone. He is always trying to keep us in line and safe. He lost his mom Kendall, and I think that he deserves the right to be depressed one day out of the year and have others worry about him."
"It's not just today that he's like this. It's everyday, when something doesn't happen the way he would like it too, he makes us all know it. And what about me, my parents are divorced! I don't see my father anymore, don't you think that I should be allowed to be the same and have one day where everyone worries about me? But no I don't, I sucked it up and moved on, Logan has never once tried to talk to me or comfort me whenever I think about my parent's divorce!"
"That's because you put a wall up Kendall. You never show those moments when your weak. You keep all your emotions bottled up inside and never let people in. I know for a fact that Logan has tried to talk to you about your parent's divorce. Who did you go to when they had their huge fight? Logan. Who stayed up with you all night as you talked about every fight they had leading up to the divorce? Logan did, and the one day where Logan needs you to just be there you stick a knife in his back. You just broke a lifelong friendship with someone who didn't deserve it."
Kendall, the strong one, the protector, the leader of Big Time Rush listened to his friend's words and for the first time in a long time broke down in tears. James was right Logan was there, he always tried to be there even when Kendall shunned him away. And now Kendall just kicked Logan while he was down. Kendall couldn't believe what he did, in a way he wanted to say those things and even now he might not take them back, but the one thing he would changed is how he said them. Not then when Logan was most vulnerable and not in a way that could have caused a huge fight. But would Logan even forgive him and forget it ever happened?
"You and Logan are completely different and that's what make you so close, opposites attract. You are the leader, your not afraid to take a risk but you hide your emotions and Logan is the smart one, he thinks everything through and wears his heart on his sleeve."
He didn't want to hear it anymore, even though James was right, he couldn't think of anyway to fix it. Kendall is stubborn, going up to Logan and admitting that he was wrong would crush him, but at the same time he couldn't just sit back and watch as he destroys his own friendship with his best friend.
"Kendall, you need to think about this. Logan needs you and you need Logan. Throwing this relationship away because of your stubbornness won't get you anywhere. You need to swallow your pride and apologize."
James said those final words and walked back into the Palm Woods, leaving Kendall to his thoughts. He sat there with tears in his eyes wondering if there was anyway to make it up to Logan. Life without Logan would be horrible, they were supposed to be best friends forever and now its over.
Kendall sat in the park for hours, staring into the sky hoping something would come to him. He finally gave up, he couldn't think of anything, if Logan were there with him he would probably have thought of something within seconds, but Kendall doubted that would ever happen again.
"I don't care where you end up because apparently for the past eleven years we haven't even been friends!"
Logan's voice rang in his head. Was their friendship even real? Logan would never forgive him, he's the smart one, and if Kendall was in his position the smart thing would be to forget about Kendall and not let his heart get broken again. Kendall was supposed to protect Logan not turn around and knock him to the ground.
Kendall got off the bench and began his walk of shame back to the apartment. He reached the door to 2J and knew he needed to swallow his pride and apologize even if Logan wouldn't forgive him. He grasped the door knob and opened the door to find Carlos carrying his clothes and belongings into Logan and Kendall's room.
"Carlos, what are you doing?"
Carlos looked up at Kendall and couldn't help but fell hatred towards him, but couldn't allow himself to hate one of his best friends.
"Logan asked me to switch rooms, he doesn't think it would be a good idea if you two shared a room anymore considering what just happened."
It was then that Kendall was right, Logan wasn't going to forgive him and his pride just made it that much harder to even attempt to apologize. He couldn't even think about what life would be like without Logan. But now he might find that out, no matter how much he wanted it not to happen.
A/N: Another Chapter done. Well James managed to knock some sense into Kendall but it wasn't enough to fix it, if it even is possible to mend this wound. Well its not over yet so we shall see if there is a chance to have Big Time Rush together again or maybe have even more relationships get destroyed in the process. You will just have to wait and see. There will be at least 3 more chapters, but if I manage to think of more ideas then there will be more. I don't know when I'll be able to upload them so please be patient, its test time at school and I should probably be focusing on that. Hopefully I will have the next chapter up by Saturday at the latest, if we're lucky then maybe before then, but until then thanks for reading. :)
