Chapter 7 - Stargazing Kiss
BYR:
Sorry for the long update, I've been…busy lately… *puts down PS3 controller* lol ok I lied, I've been lazy! Sorry~ I need time to think with these stories! But here it finally is! Hope ya like it!~ I'll be off on vacation for a week so yeah…don't expect any updates soon… See ya then!
"Stupid protozoan with his stupid strength and his stupid fever in this stupid jungle on this stupid island in the middle of stupid nowhere!"
Well it was obvious how Izaya was viewing everything that was happening to him. Muttering to himself as he walked in circles around a tree, he had his arms crossed in front of him and a scowl on his face. Earlier this morning the blonde had made a fool out of him from last nights "curing" of his fever. Now all better and fully recovered, he questioned if the monster was even sick to begin with.
"Tch! I can't believe it let myself get carried away like that! Dammit! He'll never let me live this down..."
Shizuo emerged from trees, walking up behind the brunet who was arguing with himself. He smirked to himself as he watched the frustrated male yell at inanimate objects around him before he finally said something.
"Umm, flea?"
"Stupid!"
Izaya screamed at the sky as he suddenly noticed the presence of the blonde. Turning around, he had an embarrassed, confused look on him as he tried to conjure up a smile at the larger male.
"Ohh Shizu-chan! I didn't see you there..."
"What's up with you? Why the hell are you yelling?"
"Ohh just letting off some steam! Nothing to worry about. Ehehehe..."
"Ahaa..."
Looking suspiciously at the informant, he shrugged it off and walked closer to Izaya. Taking his hand, the blonde started walking with him in tow. Izaya tried to pull himself away, but with that brute strength of Shizuo's, it was an impossible task.
"Hey! Where are you taking me?"
"Can't you just shut up for once? Is that so hard to do?"
"I think I have the right to ask where you're dragging me in this situation Shizu-chan!"
"Ughh... You're such a pain in the ass..."
"Che...like you would know..."
Frowning, he agreed to let the monster lead the way as they walked along side by side in the dense forest. Izaya could fell his feet start forming blisters as they continued their long walk. He tripped and staggered multiple times, only having the blonde catch him like a princess and ask if he was alright.
"No! I'm not alright! My feet hurt and I can't stand this heat! I hate summer and I hate this place and I hate y-"
He caught his tongue before he could finish his sentence. For some reason, he couldn't say that he hate Shizuo; it was like his throat clogged up and wouldn't allow him to say those cursed words. The debt collector just looked at him, his brows arched in confusion as he tried to figure out what the brunet was going to say.
"You hate what?"
"Y...you...yanking my arm..."
(Ohh please buy that! Please!) He placed on his best innocent smile as he tried to escape the blonde's suspicions. Lucky for him that he was able to think up of a reasonable excuse.
"Well why didn't you just say so?"
Shizuo crouched down next to the brunet and turned his back to him. Utterly confused of what the monster was doing, Izaya just sat there in a dazed as he stared at the white shirt.
"Ummm..."
"Climb up."
"Huh?"
"Climb up! I'll carry you."
"Carry...me?"
"Yeah, hurry up."
"N-n-no! I'm- I'm too heavy for you! You can't carry me! I'm fine! I'll just walk instead!"
"Dammit flea if I could pick up vending machines and throw them at you, I can surely carry you! Now get on!"
"B-but!"
"Izayaaaa..."
"Ok ok! I'm climbing on!"
The informant's face was beet red as he pulled himself onto the blonde's back and wrapped his arms around in front of him. Hooking his arms under the flea's knees, Shizuo hoisted himself up and was a bit taken back by how easily he got up with no trouble whatsoever.
"Are you serious? You were afraid that I couldn't carry you? A kid could carry you! You're so light! Don't you eat?"
"I do!...sometimes... Just not as much as most people..."
"Ugghhhh... You're hopeless..."
With the very light weight male on his back, Shizuo began moving again through the thick jungle. The high trees above provided them with shade, so Izaya wasn't complaining much about the extreme heat. Actually, the spots of sun rays passing through the holes of the leaves made the brunet start to feel sleepy. His mind began drifting and his eyes dropped closed as the smooth ride on the monster's back rocked a rhythm for him. The moments of silence stunned the blonde as he arched his neck back only to meet a sleeping flea.
"Oi... Izaya..."
But the informant didn't answer. Sighing, he figured that the fatigue must've caught up to Izaya and allowed him to take his middle-of-the-day nap. They still had a ways to go anyway so might as well enjoy the rare silience.
"Mmm..."
The brunet woke up sometime later as Shizuo was setting him down against a tree trunk. Rubbing his eyes, he looked around and saw that they were still stuck inside the heart of the jungle.
"Really Shizuo, where are you taking me...?"
"What did you just say..?"
"I asked where-"
"No no before that! You said my name!"
"Ehh? You must be imaging things."
"No I heard you! You said Shizuo instead of that annoying nickname!"
"Whatever you say."
(Did I really? I never called him by him first name, and last night doesn't count! Ugh...last night…the thought of it brings a migraine to my head...) Izaya leaned forward to rest his elbows on his knees as he rubbed his temples to soothe his throbbing head. He really didn't want to think about last night; the lusting moans, the musty breathes they shared, the slick sound of skin on skin, the sheer, unbearable, wonderful bliss he experienced...it was all so...all so-
"Izaya!"
"Huh? Wh-what is it?"
"Your face is red. Are you feeling sick?"
"Ha! Trying to get another round out of me Shizu-chan~?"
"Wh-No! I'm just worried!"
The blonde's face turned a light pink as he looked away from the laughing male and folded his arms to look tough. But the brunet couldn't help but blush himself as he saw such a cute expression crossing the monster's face. Standing up and dusting his pants, he walked passed Shizuo and spun around, patting him on top of his blonde head.
"Well Shizu-chan, keep me entertained a bit longer, Kay~?"
And with that, he continued on his way.
"Entertained? Has he really lost all interest in me... Am I begin forgotten by the flea... Why does that hurt? Why am I in pain...?"
Shizuo grabbed a fistful of his shirt close to his heart, wanting to suppress the agonizing pain inside. (This flea...why can't I seem to hate him anymore...)
"Hey Shizu-chan! Hurry up will ya! I don't know where we're going!"
"Ahhh, yeah!"
Catching up with Izaya, the blonde flashed him a smile as he took his hand and lead the way. The smile surprised the informant as his world seemed to travel in slow motion. (That smile! Why does it make my heart beat so fast? What is it? Why am I feeling this weird feeling? I hate this protozoan don't I? If so, then why am I questioning myself? Why does this hurt when I'm not near him? Why is it that all I can think about is him?) Question after question flooded in the brunet's head as he kept his pace up with the blonde.
It was midafternoon when they took another break. Shizuo had found some fruits for them to eat and a waterfall nearby. As they waded their hot tired feet in the chilling waters, they ate in silence. Izaya was busy concentrating on the scenery, but that was harder than he thought, especially with a hot blonde guy sitting next to him with his shirt off.
"Must you take your shirt off?"
"It's hot! I can't help it. What about you? Aren't you burning up in that black shirt?"
"No not really. My body is naturally cold since I don't eat enough to build insolation inside me."
"You make it sound like it's a good thing..."
"Well I'm always comfortable since I were my fur jacket around with me~"
"I always wondered why the hell you wore that in the dead middle of summer. Thought you were just insane..."
"Unlike you, I have good reasons in doing what I do."
"Tch!"
"So where are you dragging me, seriously? You've peeked my interest."
"Hmp, so now you're interested?"
"Hmm? What's that suppose to mean?"
"Nothing. It's a surprise. You haven't kept track of how long we've been here have you?"
"I haven't really thought about it..."
Shizuo face palmed himself as he chuckled and got up.
"Typical. Only the really important things concern you."
"But of course! Why the hell would I want to keep track of how long I was away from civilization and stuck with you!"
That last part hurt. Shizuo flinched when those words pierced him. But he didn't notice the expression on Izaya's face; cause it was also in pain. (Stupid! Why do I keep saying things like that? I keep hurting myself when I say these types of things about him! I never felt this way before! I've always said harsh things towards this protozoan! So why now? Dammit! I hate this!)
"We should keep moving if we want to make it in time."
"Ok..."
Time passed by agonizingly slow as the tense air between them floated around their heads. Only when Shizuo began proceeding upwards on an incline did Izaya speak.
"Umm... Shizu-chan..."
"Yeah?"
"This might seem inappropriate at the moment...but i can't help but wonder..."
"What?"
"Are you planning to kill me?"
The blonde was taken aback by the question that he almost lost footing on the steep cliff. He could tell that Izaya was really worried about where he was leading him and began to feel bad. Trying to reassure the brunet, he held out his hand and smiled.
"You don't have to worry. It's a surprise."
"But-"
"It's ok."
Sighing, he took the hand that was held out to him and was pulled up on the incline.
The sun was starting to set as they made it to the top of a cliff. The view nearly took Izaya's breath away as he held onto Shizuo's shirt for support. The lookout point gazed over the ocean, as the flaming sun painted beautiful warm colors in the sky, making them dance like fire. The brunet's mouth gaped open in awe as he took in as much of the natural beauty.
"So was all the walking and complaining worth it?"
It was a rhetorical question, but none the less, Izaya nodded slowly a yes as he still had eyes stuck to the sky. He stepped forward closer to the ledge and sat down, drowning himself in the sunset. But the beauty soon faded away as the minutes passed and he frowned.
"It's over..."
"No. Not yet."
"Huh? What do you mean?"
"Just wait."
And so, they waited. Shizuo sat down next to the informant, leaning back on his open palms behind him and gazed at the black sky. Pulling his knees up close to his chest, Izaya averted his eyes back and forth from the sky to the blonde next to him. His hands were itching to hold the others male's warm fingers, wanting to intertwine them in his as he inched towards him. Just as he was about to touch them, the monster sat up straight and pointed at the sky.
"Hey look! It's starting!"
Turning his attention back to the pitch black sky, he saw millions and billions of glowing white dots scattered all over. Then he saw it; a shooting star fell from the sky, then another, and another! They just dropped in lighting speed as he tried to count how many fell.
"It's July 28. There was suppose to be an important meteor shower tonight called the Delta Aquarids. Since there's no moon tonight, it makes it easier to see."
"It's so pretty…"
"Yeah."
They gazed at the sky for some time, watching the stars fall down from their original place in the heavens and disappear in the atmosphere. Though the sight of all this was phenomenal, Izaya couldn't help but feel sorry for those fallen stars.
"It's sad..."
"Huh?"
Shizuo looked back at Izaya, seeing sad eyes gleaming in the starlight. It looked as if he was about to cry for some reason. Reaching out, the blonde touched the informant's cheek and turned it towards him.
"Why? How is it sad?"
"They're just falling, no one waiting at the bottom to catch them. Like you were there to catch me... I might as well be a falling star..."
"You think to philosophical; just enjoy something in life for once."
"Ha... I just can't seem to do that... I don't enjoy the little things in life. It all seem to frivolous and troublesome. I don't want that... I don't know how to…"
Turning away from Shizuo, the brunet hid his face in his crossed arms. (Enjoy life...what does that feel like, to enjoy something? I enjoy messing with humans, I enjoy my job, I enjoy...no...I don't enjoy any of that...I do it cause I have to. To survive, to live, to cause trouble. I cause trouble for everyone, I don't allow others to enjoy their lives... Because I can't enjoy mine... I don't know how to enjoy life...)
"Well, if you don't know how to enjoy the little things, let me show you."
The debt collector peeked under Izaya's folded arms and smiled at him. Curious, the brunet sat still as the blonde lifted his arms and came closer to his face. Realizing what he was about to do, Izaya got scared as he looked back into those confident chocolate eyes.
"Shizu...w-wait..."
"It's ok you know...to enjoy the little things in life..."
They stared into one another's irises, traces of tears beginning to form around the brim of the crimson ones as Shizuo drew closer to his lips. (I can feel his breath on my lips... Is he really... I should stop him...I should...stop...him...) Izaya's mind fogged up and he felt like fainting as the larger male was just lightly touching the skin of his mouth and was just about to complete the ki-
"No!"
He pushed him away; Izaya shoved the blonde away from him. He fumbled backwards, as his body alerted him to get as far away from this man as possible. Fear radiated out his eyes as his heart felt the stabbing pain of the distraught expression Shizuo had on his face. He felt like screaming at the blonde, to tell him not to look at him with such a face. He hated that look, the injury it brought to his heart. (Stop it! Don't! Just stop! Stop it please! I hate that look! I hate this! Don't look at me like that! Why must everyone look at me with such a horrible face?)
He backed up further from the large male, not taking his eyes off him for a minute. But the surface behind him suddenly disappeared as his body tilted backwards and his view of the blonde suddenly turned to the brilliant sky.
"IZAYA!"
Free falling off the cliff, he could've sworn that he saw his life flash before his eyes as he descended from the ledge. He wasn't even sure if he was screaming or not; his mind seem to wonder into limbo as he felt a painful tug at the joints of his arm and looked up. Shizuo had lunged forward and grabbed his wrist just in the nick of time, both of them suspending on the cliff side.
"Izaya! Hold on!"
"Shi-Shizuo! Don't let me fall! Please!"
"I won't! Just-stop moving!"
"Dontletgodontletgodontletgo!"
He chanted that one line over and over as the monster slowly hosted him off the edge of the cliff and brought him back on the flat platform. Heavy pants huffed their way passed his lips as he clawed his fingers into the white shirt, afraid to let go.
"Izaya...?"
"I'm...I'm ok... Let's go back... I wanna go back..."
"Alright..."
Lifting the light weight male into his arms, he carried him down the steep ledge bridal style and walked back to the cave. They got back fast than when they left and Izaya mentally thanked the heavens for that. Being set down by the strong male, Izaya held his arms as he made his way to the back of the cave.
"I'm going to bed..."
"Fine."
"Wh...what about you?"
"Hmm? Ohh I'm not all that tired."
"Ohh... Ok..."
Believing he'd upsetted the monster, he whispered a soft "sorry" before he left the blonde alone. But he was pulled back and slammed right into the hard chest as he looked up. Shizuo forcefully grabbed his head and pulled Izaya close up to his lips as he descended upon them, much to Izaya's surprise. (He's gonna do it! He's going to kiss me! Shizu-chan is going to kiss ME! But-I- I don't want this! Do I? I...I...want...his...kiss... His intoxicating kiss...) Shaking from fear or excitement, he shut his eyes closed as he waited for the inevitable to happen.
Shizuo had his mouth open, ready to take those velvet lips into his. But he paused just centimeters away from them. He hesitated as hovered over the brunet that had his eyes closed. (What am I doing? Why do I want him so badly? This isn't right... That first kiss on the plane...it wasn't enough! Now I can't stop thinking about him! I can't stop wanting to kiss him again and again and again! Shit! This ain't right! He pushed me away before, so why am I forcing myself on him? This isn't how I want this to work!) Coming to his senses, he released his hold on the informant's tangled hair and embraced him instead.
"I'm sorry... You should get your sleep..."
Letting Izaya go, Shizuo left the cave to clear his head from the mess he was in. Alone in the cavern shelter, the brunet let out a breath he didn't even notice he was holding. Clutching a handful of his shirt near his pounding heart, he felt a tear roll down his face as he quickly wiped it away and went to retrieve his jacket. Draping it over his body, he used one of his arms as a pillow and soon drifted off into a tiresome slumber, trying not to dream about the blonde in any way.
Outside near the waterfall, Shizuo was busy skipping rocks across the surface. He was able to breathe easier now that he was away from the source of his confusion.
"Izaya... What's going on with us? All I think about is you now... Is it because I hate you? Or maybe it's because you're the only person here with me and I can't help it... I don't know! I'm so confused!"
Grabbing his hair in fists full, he mumbled curses under his breath as he fell backwards onto the grass, looking up at the illuminating sky. Frowning at the beautiful screen played out in front of him, he couldn't help but think back to his little "date" with Izaya that turned into a complete failure. But why was it that he so desperately wanted to show the flea a good time, to just relax and have fun. Was it because he cared about the brunet? OR was it something totally different and clearly obvious?
"Izaya… Am i… is that even possible? I've hated you for so long, so it can't be…. It just can't… I can't love someone… It's not possible, not for someone like me to love you…"
A/N:
Poor Shizu-chan! Having boy troubles lol well hopefully they can kiss and make up soon! Ohh and that little part about the meteor shower, there is actually suppose to be one during the time of midnight to dawn from July 28-29! I'm obsessed with stars so yeah im excited! hopefully ill be able to see some shooting stars! XD Laters~
