Chapter 7 Disgust

I woke slowly, with my mouth feeling fuzzy. I turned over expecting to be in my own bed, but when I toppled onto a dusty old floor I knew I was not.

"What are you doing?" I looked up and saw Harry, shirtless, under the covers trying not to laugh at me. I glowered at him and he actually did laugh.

"You're not as frightening naked." He said and propped himself up on his elbows. I refused to be embarrassed by that. I stood and climbed back into bed with him, and saw he was just as undressed as me.

"Why are we doing this Harry?" I asked and looked up at him, feeling guilty. How was I any better than Ron?

"I don't know. I don't want to stop though." Harry said and I sat up in disbelief. Maybe I was the only one who thought this would be the last time.

"This won't happen again, Harry. I'm not going to betray Ron that way, weather he deserves it or not." I said and climbed back out from under the covers. How could he even ask me to do this? I picked up my clothes and began dressing. I heard Harry stand and come up behind me, but I refused to turn around.

He violently grabbed me and spun me to face him.

"Do you see what you do to me? How I am so angry and upset? This is the most I've felt alive since Ginny left me. I haven't been with anyone, and I haven't even wanted to. I've felt so alone, Hermione. Then I see you at that party, looking so beautiful and then I found out it was you that I slept with that night. I've dreamed of you every night! And now after a few quick fucks you just want me to forget it all? How can you ask me that?" Harry demanded, and I felt stunned. Harry had never been so open with me before, and maybe anyone.

"You don't have to forget, I just can't cheat on Ron. It's not the kind of girl I am. You know that Harry. I am sorry and I wish there was another way, but there isn't. Let me go and find someone who can really make you happy." I whispered and his grip tightened so much I was sure there were bruises.

"I don't want anyone else." Harry said, and I felt a strange heavy sensation in my chest making it harder to take a deep breath.

"You will find someone else. I can't do this Harry, it was so stupid to even let you…" I trailed off, wishing that I could have stopped this before I had happened.

"Stupid?" he echoed in a hurt voice.

"No, I didn't mean that Harry-" he cut me off when he shook me roughly.

"No, you did mean it. I thought you loved me. You said you did, did you mean that too?" he snapped harshly.

"Of course, you know that I love you very much Harry." I said softly, trying to remain calm. He was making this so hard. I didn't really want to say goodbye to his touch, kiss, or love, but I had too.

"I have to do this Harry, I can't be selfish." I said when he didn't answer. I looked at him and saw he had a calculating expression.

"Alright, Mione, I don't expect you to cheat on Ron. How can I ask that?" he said with an oddly serene expression. I nodded and smiled.

He pulled on his pants but came up to me before he finished dressing. He kissed me lightly and I smiled, feeling sad buy expectant.

Harry obviously understood how this had to work out. I couldn't cheat on Ron. I shouldn't have assumed though, Harry sudden became more aggressive kissing me urgently. Then he moved to whisper in my ear.

"Did you really think I would give in that easy?" he asked bemusedly. I felt a little upset that he tricked me, but he had a point.

"I will never give up Hermione. Ever." He said and I felt a shiver go through me. He apparated without me and I was alone in the abandoned motel room.

I took a deep breath ignoring the fear his words had inspired. Harry couldn't have been serious. Was he going to…seduce me? That was ridiculous. Harry couldn't do that, he was…Harry. But hadn't he always done what he wanted anyway?

I apparated back to the burrow and saw that no one was even awake yet. I walked upstairs to Ron's room and saw that Ginny and he were tangled in their sheets. It didn't hurt or sting. I was a little grossed out, but I knew Ron had this obsession with her, but how could he not expect anyone to notice? I shut the door behind me and saw that it would be nine in twenty minutes.

I kicked Ron and he groaned.

"Wake up its twenty till 9 and I'm sure Molly will be around soon." I said and he opened his eyes to me.

"Hermione? What the fuck, where were you?" he asked and Ginny stirred.

"Asleep, You were obviously busy. I would hurry if i was you. I'm going to shower." I said and I saw Ginny cover her naked body so I wouldn't see the purplish bruises.

"You going to cover the ones on your neck too, Gin?" I asked and left the room, trying to get rid of the image of her black and blue neck. His hands. Oh god, how does she stand it?

I stopped when I saw Harry standing in the hall looking at me curiously.

Oh no, he couldn't go in there and see that! I blocked the door when he came up to me.

"So, who is it?" he asked.

"Who is what?" I asked.

"Who did he sleep with while you were fucking me?" Harry clarified, and my hand flew out before I could comprehend what I was doing. When my hand connected with his face, I felt satisfied and furious at the same time.

"Do you feel better now? You're still a slut for cheating on your husband." I slapped him again. His face was red, but he kept insulting me. He was purposely making me angry!

"Why don't we go tell him how much you screamed for me last night, huh, Hermione?"

This time I was so angry that I punched him instead of slapping him. I heard his nose break and his silent curse but I stomped away to go shower. He got in front of me, blocking my pathway.

"Nice punch Mione." He had already healed it, but I saw that it was sore. He got closer, too close for my comfort, and looked at me intensely.

"I know I can fuck way better than him." He said, and I refrained from punching him, because Ginny had just come out of our room. Harry's eyes widened and then filled with disgust. I made a discreet wand movement, and whispered, "Imperio." I couldn't have him letting Ginny know our secret. Harry glared at me but remained under my control.

"Oh hi Harry, see you guys at breakfast." She walked away, but I noticed her slight limp and stiff walk.

"Harry keep that vulgar mouth of your shut." I hissed and dropped the curse.

"He's fucking his sister?" Harry said with wide eyes. I nodded slightly.

"She's afraid though, she takes it willingly because it's better than the alternative." I said and he shook his head.

"I said to stop being crude also Harry." He grinned.

"You didn't mind so much last night." I just gaped at him, wondering how much I liked his knew crude personality.

"Did you mean what you said?" I asked softly. He lost his grin and stepped so close that we were barely touching.

"Yes, I won't give up. I don't know how." His eyes held that promise, but instead of being angry I felt sad. I wouldn't ever agree to cheat on Ron no matter what he did.

"It's a lost cause Harry, I'm not worth it." I said.

"Yes, you are." He said and turned away from me. I couldn't understand that. How could he want to fight so much for me when I was already taken?


A/N: I didn't do Harry's pov this time, because i felt Hermione had a lot to say. Next chapter he will be in thought. Sorry if i used the wrong spell, i didn't have time to double check. Don't forget to review I'm hoping to have twenty before i get to chapter ten!