It has been about a month since I found out I was pregnant. When I told my parents, they were pretty excited, but when Spencer told his, his mom almost had a heart attack. Spencer had to go to LA for a meeting and he decided to go house hunting with his dad while he is out there. Since he is in LA, Heather and I decided to be in Denver with my family.
"Mommy, can you take me to the park?" Heather asked, walking into my room.
"Heather, mommy doesn't feel good today. Can you go ask your grandmother?" I said as I laid in bed.
"K." Heather left the room and a few minutes later, my mom entered my room.
"Hey, sweetie. Heather told me you're not feeling good." Mom said.
"I really don't feel good."
"What's wrong? Do you have a fever or something?"
"No, I have like bad cramps in my stomach and I'm worried about the baby." I said started to cry.
"Oh Teddy, are you bleeding?"
"Last time I looked I wasn't but the cramps are getting worse."
"Alright, well why don't you just rest and I'll check on you in a little bit to see how you are doing. That is the best thing for now."
"Thanks Mom. Can you make sure Heather doesn't bug me?"
"Of course sweetie, I'll make sure nobody bugs you. Do you want me to call Spencer?"
"No, don't make him worry."
"Alright, I'll be back in a little bit." She said as she left my room.
When I woke back up a few hours later I noticed my sheets had blood on them, so I yelled for my mom to come down here.
"Mom, can you come here now?! I yelled.
"What's wrong, Teddy?" She rushed in, seeing me starting to cry.
"Mom, I woke up and saw blood on my sheets." I cried.
"Oh, Teddy, I'm so sorry." Mom gave me a hug. "I think I should take you to the hospital."
I nodded and slowly got up.
"Hey Gabe, can you watch Heather and Toby for me. I have to take Teddy somewhere." Mom yelled to as we walked towards the front door.
"Yeah, I'll be down in a minute." Gabe yelled back.
"Thanks Gabe. We will probably be gone for the rest of the day."
When we got into the car, mom drove me straight to the hospital. When we got to the hospital, the doctor gave me an ultra sound to see how the baby was doing.
"I'm sorry, but you have suffered a miscarriage." The doctor said to me.
I was silent for a moment. Did the doctor just say I suffered a miscarriage? My heart is now broken.
"I'll let you guys be alone." The doctor said as she left.
"Mom, I didn't do anything wrong." I cried.
"Oh, I know you didn't do anything wrong. These things just happen and we don't know why." Mom said, hugging me.
"When can we go back home? I really just want to be alone in my room." I said still crying into her arms.
"The doctor said you may leave later today. They just want to make sure you are doing fine since you did suffer from..." Mom cut herself off realizing she probably shouldn't say miscarriage.
After being at the hospital for a couple of hours, I was finally able to go home. Mom drove me back to the house and I went straight to my room and isolated myself from everyone. I was just not in the mood to see anyone or talk to anyone.
"Teddy, sweetie, are you okay?" Mom asked, walking down to see how I was doing.
"Mom go away. I want to be alone." I said crying
"Sweetie, it's not good to hide yourself from everyone."
"Can you just go away I'm not in the mood to be around everyone."
"Alright, but just don't expect you will be alone tomorrow."
"Fine, whatever just go away."
"Grandma, can I see Mommy."
"You're Mother isn't feeling good and don't want to get you sick, okay?" She nodded. "How about we go up and watch a Movie with the rest of family sound good?"
"Yeah!"
The next day, I was acting like when Spencer cheated on me. I stayed in my room all day not wanting to see anyone. The only difference is, I'm crying over the baby I lost. I realize I will have to face everyone eventually because Spencer is coming back tomorrow, but I just want to be depressed alone.
"How you doing Teddy? I brought you down something to eat." Mom said as she walked into my room.
"Mom, I just lost my baby, how do you think I'm doing?" I said crying again.
"Oh, Teddy." Mom placed the food on the desk to come hug me. "Everything is going to be fine. Don't give yourself a hard time, it wasn't your fault."
"Mom how do you know everything will be fine. I'm not fine as you can see."
"Sweetie, it will get better I promise. You have a family who loves you and will help you get through it, but we can't help you if you isolate yourself from everyone."
"Thanks Mom." I said hugging her. "But can you please leave I still just want to be depressed alone."
When my mom left, I looked at my phone and I had a few missed calls and texts from Spencer. I just can't imagine how Spencer will be when I tell him about the baby. Will he be as depressed as I am? Will he put a brave face on and help me get through it? It made me cry more thinking about that so I just went back to sleep since sleep is a way to hide from my feelings.
"Teddy, Hun, Wake up." Spencer said sitting on my bed next to me. I slowly woke up seeing the smiling face of my husband. "Hey Teddy. How you doing? Your mom told me what happened. I'm so sorry I wasn't here to help you."
"I didn't do anything wrong." I said started to cry again in his arms.
"Teddy I know you didn't do anything. We will get through this together. I promise."
"Are you mad at me?" I asked.
"Of course not! Why would I be mad at you?" Spencer asked confused.
"Are you mad I didn't tell you I had a miscarriage when it happened, I just didn't want you to worry about me."
"I don't care you didn't tell me when it happened. I mean it would have been nice knowing what happened, but the only thing I care about is that you are alright." Spencer gave me a kiss. "I promise I will help you get through this."
"Spencer, you are such a great husband. I don't know what I did to deserve you. I love you." I said trying to put a smile on my face.
"I love you too." Spencer gave me another kiss. "Always."
