A/N: This chapter is dedicated to my newest fanfic friend inatowncalledforks. She found me and we've been chatting it up since. She has some great stuff so I recommend you checking it out.
Disclaimer: SMey owns it I just play with it. Hehe.
BPOV
I cannot believe I am doing this. It's Wednesday and Edward got held up at work with some miraculous surgery that he is supposed to be performing soon. And of course I took the stupid OPK and it said I was ovulating. I had mentioned it to Edward earlier in the day and when he found out that he had to stay to do this surgery he called me practically begging me to come down to the hospital so we could 'not miss this opportunity' as he said. I was appalled that he would suggest something so dirty but quickly relented to the overly horny part of my brain.
So here I was in a trench coat and heels (yes that's all) walking up to the surgical wing trying to find my amazing surgeon husband so we can have a quickie in the on call room or something. I felt like I when I was 18 had gone through, what I liked to call, a phase of enjoying public sex. Luckily that Bella was long since gone because that Bella would have tried to do it on a gurney in a hallway under a sheet.
I turned the corner and saw Edward leaning against the nurse's station with an anxious look on his face as he looked down at some paper work. He seemed to almost be ignoring the nurse that was obviously talking to him. As I approached I could start to hear what she was saying.
"Dr. Cullen you did so amazing on that transplant last week. It was such a pleasure to work with you. I hope I get the opportunity again soon."
What a slut. I knew what she really wanted to say. 'Dr. Cullen you are so sexy. I want you to hump my brains out, over and over and over again'. Hell no bitch he's mine.
I walked right up to them still unnoticed.
"Who do you have to marry to find a good heart surgeon around here?"
Edward's head shot up and a smirk graced his face. "Well I happen to know a really good one but he's already married."
"Oh. Who ever caught him must be a very lucky lady."
The forgotten nurse chose this moment to make her presence known. "Yeah we tell him that all the tine."
Edward rolled his eyes a little and turned to the annoying blonde. "Nurse Heart this is my wife Bella, Bella this is nurse Heart."
Now I know it's customary to shake with the right hand, and I am a right handed person, but I just couldn't help myself. I reached out with my left flashing the slut nurse my rock before giving her a firm shake.
"It's a pleasure to meet you Mrs. Cullen. We've all heard so much about you." I'm sure. "Now if you'll excuse me I have to get Mr. Anderson ready for your surgery."
With that she left and I turned back to Edward. "Are they all like that?"
"Except the old ones… come to think of it most of them are like that too."
I rolled my eyes. I definitely needed to make more appearances at the hospital, especially with Emma. Maybe if a few of these broads see a devoted father and husband they will get the hint.
"Let my just finish this form and we can… ya know." Edward said before he returned his eyes to his paper work.
Oh hell no! He wasn't going to force me to come down here and then make me wait for paper work. So with a quick peek around to make sure that the hallway was empty I stepped even closer to Edward who still didn't lift his eyes from his work.
"You didn't even notice my outfit." I said with a pout.
Edward looked up at me with his eyebrow creased in confusion. "Bella you've had that coat for two years and it's so big I can't see what's under it."
"Want to?" I threw on my sexy smirk.
He still looked confused. "Um… ok?"
My smirk stretched even more across my face. Without braking eye contact I untied the waist band and unbuttoned the coat pulling the coat apart to reveal my lack of clothing. His eyes bugged out and his head shot from side to side looking down the hall to make sure no one was seeing his naked wife. I closed my coat and looked up at Edward innocently.
"Do you like it?"
This time it was his turn to smirk. "It's my favorite."
As I retied my trench Edward grabbed my gently on my upper arm and started steering me down the hall. I had no idea where he was taking me as we weaved through the hospital. Finally we stopped and Edward opened a door in a seemingly abandoned hallway and dragged me in. Before I knew it I was being pressed against the door and my trench coat was being forcefully removed.
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As I walked away from the hospital completely satisfied I could help but be happy. I knew this was it. It had worked; I could feel it in my bones. As I walked I knew that my body was preparing to make a baby. I was completely confident that we had done it this time. In a few short months Edward and I would be welcoming a little mixture of the two of us into the world making our family complete.
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A few weeks later
"Project find out if were welcoming another little baby Cullen into the world shall commence in t minus ten minutes." Alice said with an authoritative tone.
"Alice this isn't some mission impossible. I already told you I have a good feeling about this. I just know I'm pregnant."
"Well let's make sure."
Emma and Abby were out with Rose so we had the whole place to our selves. A slightly rounding Alice followed me into the bedroom and collapsed onto the bed. I went into the bathroom with three tests and grabbed a paper cup to pee in.
Nothing could ruin my mood right now. I was so sure that I was pregnant that I almost just told Edward that I was with out taking the test.
After I filled the cup and set it aside the worst possible thing happened. I finished up in the bathroom and walked out into the bedroom.
"That was fast." Alice noted.
"I don't need to take the test." She looked at me confused. "I just started my period."
She gave me a sympathetic look and patted the bed next to her. I went over and sat down defeated.
"Alice what's wrong with me?"
"Nothing sweetheart sometimes these things take time."
"It didn't for you. You decided you wanted to get pregnant again and like two days later you were."
"Honey you can't judge yourself by other people."
"Edward is going to be heart broken again. We've been trying for five months and nothing. I can't help but feel like this is all my fault."
"Don't even think it Isabella Marie Cullen! There could be any number of reasons you're not pregnant YET…"
I interrupted her. "That's just it. I have this fear that all the drugs I 'experiment' with have some how damaged my body and Emma was just a fluke of sorts and that I can never have children." I turned and threw myself on the bed face down. "My reckless behavior has ruined Edward's chance at having a biological child of his own." I couldn't even try to stop the tears now.
"I'm sure that isn't it. You said that when you tried for Emma you got pregnant on the first shot. That has to mean something. I'm sure there is some outside factor that can be easily dealt with." She wasn't making me feel better. She soothingly rubbed my back and let out a sigh. "Have you two thought about possible seeing someone about this? Maybe a doctor will help."
I just nodded my head as the tears spilled from my eyes. This was killing me; five straight months of disappointing my husband and family. Every month the same thing, we go at it every chance we get, I get my hopes up and then I'm let down. It seems to be all I ever think about. I feel like its all Edward and I ever talk about. Deep down it breaks my heart every time he looks at me because that little voice in my head tells me that when he looks at me he sees my failure. I have opened up to him a little at how I feel about that fact that I am yet to be pregnant but he just assures me that it's fine and we will keep trying until I am. I swear I can hear the disappointment in his voice when he says it though. I know exactly how this is going to go when he gets home. 'Sorry honey I'm still not pregnant.' And then he's going to sigh like he always does and then reassure me that it's fine. If he says its fine or it's going to be fine one more time I'm going to sock him in the jaw. It isn't fine. I'm a horrible wife and a horrible person for capturing him in a marriage that can't produce the child he so desperately wants.
