A/N: It's Jacob time. But don't worry. This will most likely end Bella/Edward I'm just seeing where my creative juices take me. Anyway. Please review. It makes my day.
Chapter 7: Christmas or Thanksgiving?
I'd never thought that sitting across from Carlisle in his office would ever be this incredibly awkward. He was sweet about it though, knowing that I didn't really want to be here. He sat at his desk, writing notes down on a piece of paper, while looking in a book. I bit my lip.
"Edward's Crazy."
Carlisle looked up at me then, grinning. "I know. I've known him long enough to know that he's only crazy about the things he loves though."
I blushed, annoyed and then shook my head. "I'm fine, honest."
Carlisle raised a brow at me and then tilted his head slightly, "Bella, I'm willing to bet that you're a lot stronger then people give you credit for, or even that you give yourself credit for. I know what Edward means to you and I can't imagine what that felt like when he left…"
I looked up at him. "That's just it though isn't it? No one really understands. And it wasn't just Edward leaving. He clearly has no idea how I feel about this family or he would've never left. I love all of you even Rosalie and she hates me. By leaving…he took everyone important out of my life." I looked down at the floor at this point not able to make eye contact with him.
"Bella," Carlisle's smooth voice intervened. "What I meant was I'm extremely impressed you're still alive. You see how Edward reacted when he thought you were gone."
My head snapped up to look at him and I gave him a small smile, "Yeah, well, Edward's crazy."
Carlisle
smiled at me. "Can I ask you something? Strictly not as your
shrink."
I smiled and nodded a little.
"Why? Why the cutting?"
I frowned, that was a really difficult question to answer. I bit down on my lip for a few moments, thinking.
"I guess…it's just nice to hurt sometimes. Nothing really ever…makes it better but...I don't know. I can't really explain it. It helps me forget."
Carlisle nodded, looking intrigued, "And nothing else…helps you forget?"
I
looked up at him, shrugging. "Jacob Black." I let out a
semi-bitter laugh. "I'm not really allowed to see him, much.
Edward doesn't like it and…Jacob can't stand him so…I'm
just…stuck between a rock and a hard place you know?" I bit down
harder on my lip. "He's my best friend though. It's hard
without him."
Carlisle shook his head at me. "I am not the
person you need to be talking to."
I bit my lip shrugging, "I know that and you know that, Edward Cullen doesn't know that." I let out a sigh running a hand through my hair.
Carlisle smiled at me and then got up and made his way over to the door, opening it to reveal Edward. I rolled my eyes, annoyed that he couldn't even wait till it was over to know what happened.
"No." was the first thing out of his mouth as he looked at Carlisle. Carlisle knew how to handle him though, I was always really impressed with him for that fact.
"Edward. This is bigger than you. It's bigger than me. She needs someone that isn't you. She needs a friend."
Edward growled, grinding his teeth. "Then she can talk to Alice."
I stood up then, making my way over to the pair of them. "Edward, I'm in the room and I'm also not 5 years old I can make decisions for myself and I agree with Carlisle…I want to see Jacob. He's important. And I miss him. And if you love me, and you don't want me to hurt myself then I suggest you let me go to La Push." He looked at me his face reading nothing but anger, then he let out an annoyed noise, shaking his head.
"Fine. Call Jacob. But I'm driving you to the treaty line and you will call me when you're ready to come home and I will pick you up."
I frowned at him crossing my arms.
"Jacob can drive me home. He'll get me home in one piece I promise."
He watched me for a long moment and then his face was serious…serious and sad. He took my hands in his. "Let me pick you up. Please. For my sanity…let me pick you up."
I nodded, as he handed me the cell the phone and I took it from him.
"Fine." I held the small black phone for a few moments. "And thank you. I'll be better. I promise." He touched my voice pulling me in so that he could kiss my forehead.
"Bella Swan…there isn't a thing I wouldn't do for you in this entire world." I smiled a little, pressing my forehead against his.
"I know that. That's why I love you so much." He pulled away slightly, leaning back in so that he could lightly brush his lips against mine. I was the one to pull away from him though, which was very new, but I was eager to call Jacob.
I flipped open the phone quickly dialing Jacob's number that I'd memorized by heart last year. The numbers felt so familiar as I dialed them.
One ring, Two rings, Three rings…was he going to answer? Four rings…
"Hello?"
His deep voice filled the phone and I couldn't help but smile. "Jacob!" I exclaimed excitedly, grinning up at Edward who just looked solemn
"Bella?" He said, and I could hear the excite me in his voice as well.
I grinned even wider. "Yeah, Jake, it's me. Can I come over? Like now?"
Jacob was quick to respond, "I thought the bloodsucker was against it?"
I sighed, ignoring his slight at my boyfriend. "He is. But he said it was okay if I come today."
I could practically feel Jacob rolling his eyes at me. "Oh, he said it was okay today did he?"
I rolled my eyes and Edward raised a brow at me, I shook my head, letting him know that I was still going and then spoke clearly into the phone.
"Jacob, don't start. Can I come over or not?"
He was silent for a long moment and then I heard his voice again. "Yeah, sure. Do you need me to come get you?" He asked
"Um…sort of. Can you pick me up at the treaty line?"
Jacob laughed harshly into the phone. "Are you the unfortunate child of a divorced couple? Do I get Christmas or Thanksgiving?"
"Jake…stop it or I'm not coming." I said, my voice dripping with irritation.
He let out a sigh and then said. "Yeah, Okay, I'm leaving right now. I'll see you in a little bit."
"Bye Jake." I said, quickly pressing end. I looked up at Edward with a small smile. "You ready?"
He let out an annoyed sigh and rolled his eyes. "Ready as I'll ever be to drop you off with a bunch of puppies I suppose." He sighed again, reaching for his car keys.
