Telepath Wolf
Healer
Keep in mind that I do not own Babylon 5 or its characters, so if you recognize any of them, THEY'RE NOT MINE. (Which means that I am not making money out of writing this, I'm only doing it for the pleasure of sharing a piece of my mind with you all)
Please remember that this story portrays a little different approach to Susan's and Talia's relationship, which means YES, as most of my stories, this is a FEMLASH, if this bothers you, you shouldn't be here, so leave now if you're not comfortable with this fact.
Also remember that Susan is a werewolf, kinda like the ones portrayed in the Underworld movies. You know, strong, virtually immortal, and able to control when they shift. She and her brother, and a few others that will come, were born werewolves, not turned. However there are and will be bitten ones here too.
And don't forget I altered the timeline to suite my needs for things to flow between them.
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Telepath Wolf
Chapter 07
Healer
After I unsuccessfully tried to cheer up the Lt Commander that night as had asked me Maher, she became more absorbed in her duties. It was as if she was actively trying to avoid anything and anyone not related to the operations of the station, not just me.
She had already missed lunch several times and I had made it my duty to make sure she ate something on a daily basis. So I went one morning to the mess hall and bumped into Commander Sinclair, when I asked him if he had seen Lt. Commander there that morning and he denied seen her I got more worried than before. The day before she had only had a toast and coffee late in the morning with Maher, or that's what he said, at lunch she ate half the salad I had brought her to the CnC, she had not had anything for dinner and she had not made an appearance for breakfast either here or with Maher.
"Can I help you with anything?" he asked me when he noticed my apprehension
"It's just that the Lt. Commander has missed lunch a few times this week and it worries me" I told him truthfully
"I'll see to that" he said softly "I'll try to make sure she is fine"
"Thank you Commander"
I kept track, thanks to the computer system and Mr Garibaldi, of her whereabouts, she had mostly kept herself to the observation dome, so when it was way past lunch time and she had not even made an effort to leave the dome I strode there ready to make sure she ate something today.
"Not now Ms Winters" she said before I even reached her, then she stood and turned around
Her appearance at that moment was saddening, she looked tired and worried and it pained me to know that she did not trust me enough to tell me, or anyone else for that matter, what was troubling her so.
"You've missed lunch again and since no one saw you at the mess hall this morning, I think it's safe to assume that you did not have breakfast. That won't do Lt. Commander…" I told her concerned "Wait…" I stopped my ranting when I noticed that she had called upon me before I reached her and before turning to acknowledge who it was that had come into the CnC "how did you know it was me before you turned around?"
"Who else Ms Winters, would burst into the CnC and walk to my station if there was no emergency?" she asked mockingly, I knew she had just avoided answering truthfully, but I let it slide for the moment. This was something I'd have to look into, just as that alpha business with Maher.
"It is an emergency" I told her crossing my arms
"I hardly doubt it"
"You have not eaten in all day, and look at the bags under your eyes, you're exerting yourself" Couldn't she see I was worried about her?.
"I don't think that qualifies as an emergency"
I sighted and took a step closer to her, almost reaching to cup her face. "Your duty shift is almost over, let me take you out for dinner"
"I already have plans"
"Come on Lt. Commander! I just want to make sure you eat"
"I fail to see how my feeding arrangements are of any concern to you" she said turning to leave.
"What kind of friend would I be if I didn't make sure you were all right?" I asked walking by her side as we left the Dome.
"I was unaware that we were friends" She said so harshly and coldly that it hurt.
Then Dr. Franklin turned around the corner. I guess that the Commander relied our conversation that morning to Dr. Franklin because after a small argument he made sure that Lt. Commander ate, and he even assigned me the task to take her out, which I did with pleasure.
Lt. Commander Ivanova slowly relaxed as dinner progressed, it came a moment when even with all my blocks in place, I could feel her at ease and happy.
"Lt. Commander" I acknowledged softly when we reached her quarters after dinner, since I had escorted her there.
"Thank you Ms Winters" she said with a small smile.
"Sleep well" I smiled and turned to leave
"Ms Winters?" she called "Would you like to join me tomorrow for the Centauri's demonstration?"
I should have told her no, I knew that even with my blocks up at maximum level, I would get overwhelmed by everyone's feelings and thoughts, especially when they were all intoxicated, after all, it was a Centauri celebration, so alcohol would not lack. But the smile in her face and the hesitancy on her voice made the decision for me "I'd love to"
"I'll pick you at your quarters at 1900"
"It's a date" I told her.
She arrived early the next day, stating that there had not been any booms, so we departed to Londo's celebration. As I had originally expected, there were so many people there, all giving free reign to their emotions, and even when most of them weren't harmful, there were a few arousing thoughts, and that made me uneasy seeing as I had to deal with my own thoughts and feelings for Lt. Commander Susan Ivanova, who was by my side seemingly unaffected by the amount of drinks she'd had.
Everything was going as well as it could be expected, easy banter going around between the attendants to Centauri's demonstration of his culture, but as Londo launched into an explanation of their household gods, I had to tune him off and try to strengthen my blocks because as night progressed, everyone's feelings became more passionate and erotic.
"Are you all right?" asked me Susan looking at me. I didn't notice then that my mind had skipped the titles and referred to her as Susan, instead of Lt. Commander, as I always did.
The only thing that mattered at that moment was that I realized that her feelings for me were of warmth, and concern and care. "Too many and such strong emotions" I told her overwhelmed, massaging my temple
"Would you like us to retire for the night?" my response got cut in my throat by Londo passing out sprawled on the table.
"Ah! He has become one with his inner self!" Declared Vir
"He's passed out" said flatly Mr Garibaldi
"That too" acknowledged Vir
"Come on" said Susan standing up and offering her hand to help me up too "Let's take you away of such strong emotions" I smiled and hand in hand we walked toward my quarters.
"Are you feeling better?" she asked concerned when we reached our destination.
"I am now"
"Thank you for your company this evening Ms Winters" she said dropping my hand. I could feel she was hesitant about something, however the feeling of warmth and care had only intensified.
"It was my pleasure Lt. Commander"
"Well then, good night" She said turning to leave, I made a last minute decision and stopped her from leaving by grabbing her wrist. "Is there—" she started to ask me, but I cut her question with a kiss, a soft peck really, but it was quite overwhelming too.
I kept it short out of respect of her privacy, me being a close-proximity telepath wouldn't be able to keep my blocks up for long if I didn't. As it was, I knew then that my feelings were reciprocated, but for some reason she was both wary and hesitant. I strengthened the blocks and did not probe into her mind to know, because even when it would have been relatively easy given our current circumstances, it would mean not only an invasion of her privacy, but most certainly losing the trust she had placed on me.
"Good night, Lt. Commander" I told her smirking before closing the door to my quarters.
I should have known not to act so rashly; I should have stopped myself; I should have let her ease into whatever our relationship was evolving to, on her own terms; because if I had, then maybe she wouldn't have been avoiding me more avidly and adamant than when I first came to Babylon 5.
She stopped visiting Maher at the Casino; and even when I was glad she had not stopped eating, she kept ordering take in or huddling with other officers, whenever I even glimpsed her and tried to approach her, she would leave as fast as she could.
"You just missed Susan, Ms Winters" told me the Commander one day at lunch.
"It seems that's all I've been doing for the last past days" I told him sadly taking a seat at his side. "I think I made a huge mistake" I said regrettably
"Why? What did you do?" he asked amused
"I kissed her, and now she's avoiding me"
"When did that happen?" he asked interested
"After Londo's feast" I informed him "She had walked me to my quarters and I couldn't help it…" I sighed "It seemed right at the moment. I wanted her to know my feelings for her and I thought she felt the same"
"Well, maybe she's just not had the time to actually speak with you," He said softly "after all, we've been quite busy this last few days. I've seen you on the Dome and you know how it has been"
"I understand that you all have duties" I said annoyed "I have too. I've had many meetings to attend to, too. But I still try to find her whenever I have free time. I know she does have at least a few hours a day duty free" I sighed "It hurts not really knowing where I stand"
"Things seem to have quieted down for a bit, maybe you could try again tomorrow morning" he said before leaving.
I took to heart the Commander's suggestion to try to talk to Susan again in the morning, so as I was headed to the Observation Dome, I found myself face to face with her, she appeared to be in a hurry, and I assumed it was to get away from me.
"Lt. Commander, I was on my way to find you" I said smiling at her, but she just kept on walking. "Susan!" I called out
"Ms Winters" she said turning to look at me "This is not a good moment"
"When then? You've been ignoring me and avoiding me for the last 5 days" I told her, unable to hide how hurt I was by that "Even more so than when I first came on board"
"I've been busy, as I am now" she said "I have to go" she turned to leave
"Listen, I didn't mean to upset you" I confessed walking at her side "I thought we were getting somewhere"
"We'll have to postpone this chat" she said about to get into the locker rooms to the docking bays
"How much longer?" I asked grabbing her by the wrist, causing her to flinch which in turn made me drop her hand "I see" I told her looking down about to cry.
"No, you don't." She said in a low whisper "However, I have to get out now. A ship has requested assistance and the Commander has asked me to escort her back here" with that she left.
I heard, from Mr Garibaldi, that she had engaged in combat and that the starfury she had used was going to be in the repair shop for a week.
"But is she all right?" I asked him
"Yeah, she seems fine. Doc said not a scratch on her body" he said dismissively
What happened over the next weeks was something that both scared me and intrigued me.
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