This has been the worst day ever. The landlord is kicking us out next month, and we have nowhere to go. I'm so scared what's going to happen. Now, I know that no matter how hard I try, I can't change anything. I did what I could to try to make some money, but it wasn't enough. I haven't been able to stop thinking about this whole thing. On top of that, I'm failing math, and the bullying has gotten worse. I'm getting hurt a lot in P. E. I know the others are doing it on purpose, but they can get away with it because people get hurt playing sports. I'm getting bruises all over from getting hit with dodgeballs, but I never say anything to anyone about it. Everyone makes fun of me for the injuries. I'm starting to think I deserve getting hurt, so the bruises feel like punishments for whatever bad things I've done, even though I'm not exactly sure what they are.

Mom keeps yelling at me, saying it's my fault that we're getting kicked out of the apartment. She says that if it wasn't for me, Dad would have stuck around. I didn't try hard enough to help out around the house or get good grades. I was never a model kid, I guess. It looks like I'm not going to be a model adult, either, if I even live that long.

I finally returned almost all the books I checked out about demons. I got a 'B' on my paper. I would have gotten an 'A' if I had written about something that wasn't so dark. Not really.

I say I returned almost all of the books; I haven't returned the oldest one, the one with the ritual. I'm not freaked out anymore; what happened last night was just a nightmare. Besides, that book is the only one out of all of them that I haven't finished.

Reading and writing are the only things that are keeping me from going over the edge, but they're not helping much anymore. I can't focus on anything except the fear of being homeless and failing school. They say when you've hit rock-bottom, the only way you can go is up, but what if you can't go anywhere at all? Then, you're stuck in the abyss with no life and no hope.

I only have one hope now. My nightmare was about summoning a demon. I was terrified, but I'm awake and not afraid. No demon can be as terrifying as life is.

I can't believe I'm so desperate for a way out of this hell that I'm going to basically wish upon a star. That's basically what drawing that circle and saying those words are. Wishes are pointless, but people wish, anyway. I wish this would all end.