A/N I have a tumblr account that you can ask dawn seeker questions. anonymous users are able to ask questions. please visit my profile page for the link. questions appreciated also there are pics of some of the characters posted on it

Desert shook her head and kissed his cheek.

"Thank you Desert. You have no idea how much it means to me." He walked her to her room "May I give you a good night hug Desert?"

She nodded.

Seeker gently hugged her. "Sweet dreams Desert." He said as he started walking out of the room. "I'll see you in the morning."

Desert nodded before she curled up into her bed.

Seeker quietly closed her door and went downstairs.

Finder was still asleep.

He gently picked her up and carried her to their room.

Finder cuddled him.

He smiled and laid her on the bed.

Finder nuzzled his chest.

"Good night my love."

Ruby cried.

He went over to her, "Shh. It's alright Ruby, dada's here." He said as he started singing her the lullaby.

"Sleep my foal,

Go to sleep my foal,

Dream sweet dreams of olden times.

Dream my foal,

Sweet dreams my foal,

Rest your weary mind.

Trot under moonlit trees,

Sail all the wondrous seas,

Give into all your dreams

And sleep.

Sleep my foal

Go to sleep my foal

Have no fear

I'm here by your side

Dream my foal

Sweet dreams my foal

The sun has said goodnight

Drift through the open sky

Wings spread and spirits high

Wave as the clouds go by

And Sleep."

Ruby cried still as a new tooth was seen.

Seeker cast a spell to take away the pain.

Ruby sniffled but raised her little hooves to her daddy. "Dada."

Seeker picked her up. "I love you Ruby." He said, gently cradling her in his arms.

Ruby hugged him nuzzling his neck.

He went downstairs and sat on the rocking chair, slowly rocking her.

Ruby soon fell asleep, but on the couch Lone wolf was asleep cuddling Gentle spirit.

Seeker carried Ruby back upstairs and tucked her in her cradle. He covered her up with her special blanket.

Ruby slept looking so cute.

Seeker kissed Ruby's forehead and crawled into bed with Finder.

The next day was busy.

Shadow came inside and this time he successfully reattached Finder's horn. "Well I'll be on my way now." He said as he started for the door.

"Shadow." Finder smiled.

He stopped. "What is it Finder?"

Finder hugged him. "Thanks."

"What is there to thank? I was merely doing what anypony would have done."

Finder kissed his cheek. "You're the uncle of Ruby, my friend." She stated trotting away.

"But I'm not related to Seeker." He replied confused.

"I know, but I want you to be Ruby's uncle."

"Why?"

Finder smirked. "You're like a brother to Seeker, so why not."

"Very well. But I don't stay in one place for very long because I like to travel, so I won't be here all the time." Shadow said as he walked away.

"It's alright friend."

"Take care of yourself Finder. You too, Seeker. I will be back in about three months." And with that he left.

Finder nodded before she looked at Seeker.

"What is it my love?"

Finder stretched. "Nothing hun, just loving your sweet smile."

"Aww thanks." He said as Desert came downstairs.

Finder smiled, but looked at Lone wolf who was panting heavily.

"LONE WOLF!" Seeker cried as he rushed to the mare.

Lone wolf was burning up as she panted.

Seeker quickly took off her armor.

Lone wolf had scars beyond anything underneath, but she continued to pant.

"Finder! Hurry and get the Swinela root juice from the potion chest upstairs!"

Finder did so bringing it to him. "These are old wounds I see..."

"I wonder where she got them from." He replied as he took the vial. "Lone Wolf, I need you to drink this right away!"

Lone wolf panted still unable to do so.
Finder sighed. "She's just ill Seeker..."

"We have to get her to drink it or the fever will get worse!"

Lone wolf puked into a bucket.
Finder cringed.

"Ok it's time for the other option." He turned to Desert. "Desert go up to you room please."

Desert nodded leaving.

Once she had left Seeker pulled out a needle and filled it with Swinela juice.

Finder sighed but saw Gentle spirit nuzzle Lone wolf.

Seeker went over to Lone Wolf. "Now Lone Wolf this will hurt a bit." He said as he inserted the needle into her leg.

Lone wolf winced slightly but Gentle spirit nuzzled her still

Seeker injected the swinela juice into her bloodstream.

Lone wolf panted still

After an hour the fever slowly died down as the swinela juice kicked in.

Lone wolf was just asleep as she breathed heavily.
Finder looked at Seeker "Why send Desert upstairs if you were just going to inject Lone wolf?"

"Because I didn't want to bring back dark memories."

Finder sighed "She was raped not injected..." She whispered lowly.

"I didn't want to take the chance."

Finder nodded

"Desert you can come back down now!"

Desert had fallen asleep as she snuggled the smaller couch upstairs

"Finder you go comfort Gentle spirit. I will stay and watch Lone Wolf."

Finder nodded nuzzling Gentle Spirit

Soon the sun went down, but Seeker stayed up monitoring Lone Wolf's condition.

Lone wolf started to wake up

"Easy there Lone Wolf."

Lone wolf blinked "Ugh..."

"So where did you get those scars?" Seeker asked pointing at them.

Lone wolf looked at her body "When you're constantly traveling you run into dangers."

"Oh I know what you mean." He removed his cape revealing three scars stretching from his shoulder all the way to his tail.

"Yikes." Lone wolf blinked

"A skirmish with a manticore." He replied putting his cape back on.

Lone wolf nodded but sighed looking at Nova

"So where did you get Nova, Lone Wolf?"

"She found me, I was traveling through the everfree forest and well I tamed her when I was a filly."

"Yeah I for the most part grew up alone."

"Same..."

"It's painful being thrown out of your village as a colt."

"It's painful watching your own mother die of an illness..."

"Yes we are alike in more ways than one Lone Wolf. We know pain and sadness and can recognize it in the blink of an eye. We have experienced things that nopony should have to go through." He sighed.

Lone wolf nodded but kissed his cheek "Too bad you're already taken Seeker..."

"Yep, Finder is my whole world."

Lone wolf nodded

"Well you need sleep Wolf. Is it alright if I call you that?"

She nodded

"Ok then Wolf, you need sleep after that fever." He turned the couch into a bed. "This is where you will sleep."

"I like the couch, Seeker..." She stated plainly

He changed it back. "Well good night Wolf. Have Nova wake me up if you are feeling even the slightest sick."

Wolf nodded but swayed a bit

"Ok change of plans." He said sitting in the rocking chair. "I am going to stay here and watch over you."

Wolf shook her head "I'm ok."

"No you're not, you just suffered a terrible fever."

Wolf sighed "It was just fatigue..."

"I am still staying."

Wolf sighed but her front hooves wobbled "Can I have my armor back now?"

He handed it to her.

Wolf carefully placed her hooves into them "I was born with bad hooves..."

"So this armor has a double purpose to hide your scars and to help you walk."

She nodded "Yeah, I'm nopony special..." She sighed curling up. Gentle spirit came over to her and curled up next to her smiling

"That is a lie and you know it Wolf. Where would Gentle Spirit be without you. huh. Living on the streets searching and begging for food! But you saved her from that. Now look me in the eye and tell me that you are nopony special."

Wolf looked at him but couldn't bring herself to say it because she felt Gentle spirit cuddle against her smiling.

"See, you know that you are special."

Wolf didn't look at him "Oh shut up..."

Seeker laughed. "Good to see you still have humor Wolf."

Wolf sighed but nuzzled Gentle Spirit

"Well goodnight Wolf and you too Gentle Spirit."

Wolf nodded curling up keeping Gentle Spirit warm

Seeker went upstairs to Finder's room.

he crawled into bed with her. "Finder?"

She was asleep laying on her side

"Finder." He shook her.

She continued to sleep

"Finder wake up." he said shaking her harder.

"What?" She moaned

"I want to talk to you about something."

Finder sighed "What?"

"What do you think about having another foal?"

Finder blinked "Another?"

"Not right away but maybe in a couple years."

Finder shrugged "I guess."

He sighed. "That lifted a burden off my mind."

"Yeah?"

"Yep, now let's go to sleep my love." He said snuggling next to her.

She smiled a bit and fell asleep

The next morning the sun was shining and the sky was clear.

Finder continued to sleep

Seeker got up and made breakfast. "I hope they like my pancakes."

Desert came down, but wobbled a bit

"Hey Desert, a little dizzy this morning?"

Desert panted a bit

Seeker trotted over to her. "Are you ok?" He asked concerned.

She coughed a bit

He led her to the couch "here Desert, you just lay down on the couch and relax ok?"

Desert coughed again

"Desert! Have you slept at all?!"

She nodded and wrote "I'm just sick ok?"

"Well just rest then. That is the best thing for you right now. Later I will get you something for the cough, ok?"

She nodded and laid her head down.

later that day he mixed up some cough medicine. "Here Desert drink this it will get rid of your cough."

Desert looked at him

"What's wrong Desert?" He cringed as a thought entered his mind. "Please don't tell me I stirred up memories again."

She shook her head "Just feeling weak..." She wrote

"Are you hungry?"

She shook her head

"Here have some swinela juice. I sweetened it with honey" he said offering the bottle to her. "It will help with the sickness."

Desert shook her head "I'll puke..." She wrote

"Is there anything I can do?"

She shook her head coughing

"I have a solution, but I can't afford to use it."

Desert shook her head

"What do I do Desert? I can't risk losing a family member but I can't risk losing your trust either. What am I to do?!" There were tears in his eyes.

Desert sighed "It's ok..." She wrote

He sobbed "Its not ok! The only solution I can think of will bring back memories which I swore never to do again!"

Desert closed her eyes

"NO DON'T DIE ON ME DESERT! DON'T DIE ON ME!"

Desert was breathing as she slept

Seeker sighed in relief 'Thank Celestia she is just asleep.' He thought.

Desert coughed a bit but continued to sleep

Seeker walked over to the rocking chair and sat down as he watched over her.

Desert panted

"Ok I can't sit here and do nothing! I have to help her!" He took out a needle and filled it with swinela juice.

Desert coughed

Seeker walked over "I'm so sorry Desert." He whispered as he inserted the needle.

Desert winced but continued to pant.

Seeker hesitated for a moment as he scanned her for any allergy to the swinela juice. Finding nothing, he proceeded to inject the medicine.

Desert gasped letting out a small yelp, but stayed in place

After the medicine had been administered to her, Seeker removed the needle and placed a bandage on the wound. "I'm sorry Desert." He sobbed as he ran out the door. "I DON'T DESERVE TO BE A FATHER!"

Finder stopped him "Seeker, stop being so dramatic, or I'll hoof slap ya."

"Finder everything I do is wrong! Do you think I try to be dramatic? I am a monster in a stallion's body! I KILLED MY MOTHER! AND NOT QUICK, NO I KILLED HER SLOWLY AND PAINFULLY AND I ENJOYED EVERY MOMENT OF IT!" He yelled. "I! AM! A! MONSTER!"

Finder slapped him and shook him "YOU ARE NOT! Now stop this nonsense!"

"IT'S NOT NONSENSE! DON'T YOU REMEMBER I TRIED TO KILL YOU! I AM A FAILURE! EVERYWHERE I TURN I AM DESTINED TO FAIL! I CAN'T BEAR IT!" He yelled running as fast as he could toward the Everfree forest. 'This is the only place a monster like me belongs!' he thought.

Finder grabbed his tail and stopped him

"WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO STOP ME FINDER! I AM JUST A FAILURE NOTHING ELSE!" He yanked his tail away. "The only place that a failure belongs is the Everfree forest and there I will go!" he said disappearing in a flash.

Finder teleported him back "Because I love you, so stop it Seeker!"

"WHY WOULD YOU LOVE A MONSTER THAT COULD KILL YOU?!"

Finder kissed him "Because you're not a monster Seeker, you're my handsome stallion."

He turned away "I will never forgive myself for what I've done! I am not somepony to be loved!" He walked toward the forest. "This is the place that I will live alone. You and our foal can be safe from me."

Finder stopped him "I need you Seeker."

"Why do you need me Finder?!"

Finder held him close "You're my husband, not a failure, your not a monster either. I need your love Seeker."

"I am just not good at being a father Finder." Tears were dripping down his face "I mean just look at what I've done to Desert. For most of my life I have been alone I never had a father to teach me about the world because he died."

Finder nuzzled him "Shh..." She stated holding him close "You've done a better job than any father could've."

"How did I ever get such a loving wife like you Finder?"

Finder shrugged and nuzzled him

"I just hope Desert will forgive me."

"She will, Desert loves you Seeker, I can tell."

"Finder thank you!"

Finder nodded but smiled "I do have a real name Seeker."

"Well then what is it?"

Finder thought "I... I can't remember.."

"hmmm maybe Zecora has a solution."

Finder shook her head "No."

"Why not Finder?"

Finder looked down "I tried."

"It's strange you can't remember your name Finder."

"I kept hitting my head as a filly..."

He hugged her tight "I don't care if you don't remember your "real" name. To me, you will always be Finder. My savior."

She blushed

"What are you blushing for?"

"Oh no reason."

"Come on Finder. There is ALWAYS a reason."

Finder chuckled

"Well, what are you blushing for?" he smiled "Come on now, you can tell me."

She giggled

"Do I have to tickle you?" He asked as he started tickling her.

Finder giggled

He suddenly stopped as his eyes went blank.

Finder looked at him "You ok?"

Seeker just stood there.

Finder nuzzled him

Again, he just stood there.

Finder poked him

Still no response.

Finder stepped on his hoof hard "WAKE UP!"

Nothing happened. It was very strange. Almost as if his soul had disappeared.

"This is not funny Seeker..." She stated with some tears

He didn't answer as he just stood there, blank eyes staring straight ahead.

Finder used her magic to bring his soul back

He shook his head "Now what were we doing again?"

Finder smiled in relief and hugged him

"Ok, what's the hug for Finder?"

Finder shook "You.. You scared me!"

He hugged her tight. "I'm sorry but I don't know what happened."

Finder hugged him back. He looked at her "I still don't understand. What happened?"

Finder shrugged "I have no clue."

"Well let's go inside. It's getting chilly out here"

Finder nodded following him

They trotted inside. "I hope Desert forgives me." he said without looking at finder.

Desert was starting to wake up yawning

He sighed with his head down "Please Desert, can you ever forgive me for what I did?" He asked looking up at her.

She nodded

"I'm sorry if I brought back...memories."

Desert shook her head

"M-may I give you a hug?"

Desert smiled and nodded

"I love you Desert. I love you so much." He said as he hugged her.

Desert only sat there, but she nuzzled him

"Another one of my fears is losing your trust Desert. I want to give you new memories." There were tears in his eyes. "I want to show you something."

Desert looked at him

Seeker laid his horn on her forehead and focused on all the memories he could remember of his life and projected them to Desert. "This is my life story Desert."

Desert blinked but fell back onto the couch with swirly eyes from too many memories

Seeker stabilized her by increasing her memory space.

Desert sat up in a daze as stars floated around her for a moment

"Desert are you alright?"

She nodded once her head stopped spining

"That's good. I'm sorry. I didn't realize how many memories I had."

Desert nodded but she grabbed Ruby and handed her to her daddy

He gently took Ruby from her.

Ruby giggled and huggled her daddy
Finder smiled a bit

Seeker made a funny face at the little toddler.

Ruby bopped his nose laughing, Finder chuckled a bit since she was watching. Desert smiled a bit

He chuckled as he started tickling her.

Ruby giggled more as Desert rolled her eyes

He handed her to Finder as he went and sat down by Desert.

Finder smiled and nuzzled her foal.
Desert looked at him

"Desert, you are just as precious to me as Ruby." He said hugging her. He suddenly pulled away. "Sorry Desert, I should have asked if I could hug you."

Desert shook her head

Seeker was confused. "What?"

Desert nuzzled his neck

"Don't I need permission to hug you?"

Desert nodded

"But I didn't ask for your permission when I hugged you."

Desert shrugged and huggled him

He hugged her back "You are my daughter and I will always love you."

Desert smiled still

"So Desert, would you like to do a little shopping with me today?" He asked smiling.

She nodded

"Well then, go get ready." He said as he smiled kindly at her.