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Chapter 7
Lying in bed with their arms wrapped around one another, the two women enjoy a quiet, loving embrace. Each breathing in the scent of the other, they find comfort in the presence of their lover. For Bo, it is calming. The blonde makes her feel complete and loved. She often has a difficult time wrapping her head around the truth that this gorgeous, selfless, intelligent, human woman could ever love her and her inner monster. Lauren despises her using the term "monster" and though she has come to grips with her succubus nature, it is still the way she views herself when she has to feed. Mostly, surprisingly, Lauren makes her feel normal. An experience she never expected in her lifetime given the extraordinary circumstances of her being.
Lauren finds that it is empowering and comforting. She feels strength to do things she would never normally do despite the fears that were sometimes present in the back of her mind. There is a certain mix of thrill and fear that comes with her passion for the succubus. The Doctor likens it to adrenaline inducing sports that scare the crap out of you but leave you breathlessly empowered. Bo has made her feel again and that is something she had resigned would never happen again after being enslaved by the Fae. Yet, she is also comforted that she is no longer alone, she is care for and knowing that such a beautiful, powerful, loving being has chosen her. Protected her. Loved her over all others.
Finally breaking the silence, Lauren sighs "I guess we should have a serious discussion about this potential binding. Make sure we understand one another and the details now that we have the support of the others. I mean, I won't exactly be Fae, but I will no longer be human. Plus, I haven't committed to the new Ash yet, but technically I am still property of the Light. I don't want to go to Hale until we have an understanding between us. Then we can take it from there, because once we open this up to him, it will open a whole new bag of worms, so it's best if we are on the same page."
Bo nods in agreement. "I know. We need to make sure it is in the best interest of both of us. I want you, but I don't want to lose you in an attempt to have you forever. Plus, there is sure to be backlash from outsiders and people that will want to hurt us...want to hurt you to get to me. I am not fond of that prospect at all." She watches the Doctor's face intently for any clue how she feels about that end of that statement.
Seeing no sign of fear or apprehension in her lover, she continues solemnly, "Trick said that since we share my Chi, that people could hurt you to weaken me, but you could not be killed unless I die. Plus, you would heal much faster. That means that people could torture you, Lauren. There are a lot of sick people out there that think our binding will cause an apocalypse or something. I don't want you to suffer because of me. It kills me to think that that would ever ..." turning her eyes downward to conceal the tears, she tries to regain her composure.
A soft hand reaches out and cups her chin, lifting so that their eyes meet. "Bo" the blonde says gently and sincerely, "It has never been easy loving you. People have tried to hurt all of us to get to you, but we would never stop loving you because of it. We know that you will never stop trying to save the people you care for regardless of their place in your life. That is one of your most endearing traits- your loyalty to those you love. I am not worried about the 'what if's' of the evil doers. It could just as easily happen if we are not bound, and Bo... I would rather take the risk because I know that the reward is far greater. You..us...I believe in my heart that it is worth it."
The Doctor runs her fingers through dark hair and pulls her in for a passionate kiss. She wipes the tears from the brunette's cheek and smiles that beautiful smile that makes everything in the world seem right.
Following a brief silence, Lauren relaxes back in bed to stare at the ceiling. "You know, if we do this you are stuck with me for a really, really long time. I hope that registers in your mind." She glances at Bo with a sly grin then back at the ceiling.
"I suppose you should know some of my 'nuances'" she makes air quotes with her hands and chuckles lightly "as I like to call them before you say 'I do'. For instance, did you know that I have a cupboard full of soap? I love the smurfs. I also enjoy music, I used to play the guitar a little bit." She looks over to see Bo listening intently with a huge smile on her face. She had heard her giggle a bit when she mentioned the smurfs.
The her face reflects sadness as she cautiously continues "Before I met Nadia I was in Afghanistan. I think you had heard that already, but before that, I was trying to save the world working undercover in research labs with a group that hoped to uncover immoral practices and bring them to light. Well, that didn't turn out to be what I expected. Things got a little ugly, so I ran. I changed my name. I found a way into the Army...I just wanted to tell you, so there was no more hiding parts of myself from you, but I don't really want to rehash that time of my life. It was really brutal both emotionally and physically..." she trailed off choking back emotions.
Bo reached over and touched her hand. She gave her a reassuring smile "It's ok. You don't have to talk about it. Whoever you are, I know you, and I love you." Lifting the blonde's hand to her soft lips, she placed gentle kisses on the back.
Lauren let herself go. She fell into Bo's arms sobbing, feeling the freedom and relief of revealing a bit of her past that she had been trying so hard to keep secret. It had been wearing on her greatly over the years and now she would rather say it now than to have it come out later and make her look like she had been hiding something. They have had enough misunderstandings in their relationship so far, and while she didn't want to give details, she did want it out on the table. After all, forever was a long time, and she didn't want to hide anymore, not from Bo. Finally, she felt safe.
Bo held her tightly, reassuring her that none of the past mattered. Let's face it, her own past is filled with unfortunate circumstances and indiscretions, so how could she fault the woman she loved. No one is perfect, but Lauren was the closest she had ever met. For all of her faults and lack of judgment, it was always with the intent of saving someone or something. It was never selfish. The Doctor was always living by the oath 'Do no harm' and wanted to save the world regardless of the consequences to herself. That was one of the things that Bo loved so dearly about her, but it also scared her most. Knowing that the Doctor always leapt with her heart and morals of humanity...it was dangerous.
Trying to lighten the mood, the brunette placed light kisses on her lover's head and said, "I already knew about the soap. I found it one day when I was looking for razors. I just laughed because it is so...you. I love you you crazy soap lady" laughing and giving her a playful squeeze.
Lauren wiped away her tears and sat up playfully punching Bo's arm. "Thank goodness you are not intimidated by my relationship with soap. You know, we have been an item long before you and I ever met, so if you made me choose..." her smile covered her whole face as she laughed at the feigned look of shock on the brunette's face.
"Oh yeah? I bet there are a few things that I can give you that your precious soap can't!" Bo pounced on the blonde pinning her to the bed and peppering her neck with soft kisses that reward her with a sexy moan. With a sparkle in her eyes and a husky voice the brunette muses "So... if we are done with all of this 'clean talk' I have something a little more dirty in mind."
