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Jacob: why are people going to hate me?? Wait why do they hate me in the first place?
Me: Awww I don't hate you Jacob! I love you! And you will see!
Jacob: creepy.
Me: Whatever! You belong to me!! *cue creepy music*
Jacob: Super creepy! I belong to Stephenie Meyer!
Emmett: I LOVE COOKIES!
Both: SHUT UP EMMETT!!!
Chapter 6
Cookies
Weeks went by and i still could not understand what was going on with Jacob. He wasn't acting any better, if anything it was getting worse.
I mean a lot worse.
Early one morning I had enough. I had sent the boys off to Emily's so that i could have a serious talk with Jacob. He sat across from me, he was bent over the table, reading the morning paper. I couldn't take it anymore I smacked my hand on the table, hard.
He looked up duly. "Did you want something Isabella"
I shuttered, yes things had gotten much worse. "Its Bella Jake, I hate being called Isabella."
"Sorry, I forgot." he mumbled
"How could you forget," I hissed, "We've been engaged for five years!" I started yelling.
"I don't know Bella, okay i just forgot." He said dully.
"I am so sick of this, Jacob. What is wrong with you? Ever since I came back from the Cullen's house, you have been acting so weird!" I realized too late what had come out of my mouth.I snapped it shut. His eyes sparked with anger.
"You. Went. To. The. Cullen's. House?!" He stood up, he was shaking slightly.
"What do you care?! You don't even talk to me anymore! Its like I'm not even there! What is going on?" I screamed getting out of my seat. My hands itched, I wanted...no needed to slap him. But i didn't, I kept my arms pinned to my side, my hands balled into fists.
"What do I care? Bella I love you, I happen to care a lot!" He yelled at me grabbing my face in his huge hands. I twisted out of his grasp, I took two steps away from him. I gently wrapped my arms around my waist.
"Really? Well you have a funny way of showing it! Since when is ignoring your fiancée, showing her how much you love her?!" I whispered fiercely.
"Bella the only reason we are not married is because you don't want to marry me! And i am so not ignoring you!" His arms crossed over his chest.
"Th-that is sooo not fair!" I stuttered "You knew I didn't want to get married...Its not my fault you proposed!" I turned away from him. "And yes you are ignoring me." I added after a second.
"Is this," He turned me around to face him. "ignoring you?" He pulled me toward him, his lips crushed down on mine. I became very still, i did not move. His lips moved in a lone dance. But he wasn't taking any of that. He shoved my lips apart, to ravish my mouth. I bit down, hard. I heard him yelp in surprise. Before he could shove me away i tasted blood. He pushed me away like i was some kind of disease.
I fell on my butt, involuntarily let out a "Ooof!"
"What the HELL!" He screamed, i looked at him. His teeth were stained red from the blood, the look in his eyes was pure anger. For the first time in my whole life i was scared of him. Truly frightened. He took two steps towards me. I shuttered away. He stopped, sucking in a breath. "I broke my promise again Bells, sorry." He whispered, looking down at the floor.
I glared at him. I had never felt this kind of anger before, every fiber of my being hated him right here, right now.
"Sorry is not good enough Jacob. Sorry doesn't solve the problem. It doesn't fix us!" I hissed.
"I know it doesn't fix anything, but its the best that i can do." He muttered, still looking at the floor.
"You are lying! You know that there is more that you could do! But you won't, and i can't understand why? Why, Jacob? Don't you see how much this is hurting me, the kids...us." I whispered as tears rolled down my cheeks, traitor tears! I whipped them away with the back of my hand.
"I don't want to talk about this Bella... I got to go. I guess i will see you after work." He walked out the front door. I let the tears flow freely down my face. I picked up the phone, my shaky hand dialed the numbers that i was beginning to know so well.
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"Why are we making cookies again?" Kara asked as she poured a cup of chocolate chips into the mixing bowl. It was in the middle of the afternoon and i had calmed down since our argument. I had realized the mistake that i had made. I was a horrible person for saying those things to him. The way i felt, how much hatred that had engulfed me. I shivered. How could i have said those things? Sure he was acting weird, but that was no excuse for my actions. I had called Kara over to calm me down. She had done just that.
flashback :)
The front door opened, the cold air hit my face, i shivered.
"Bella?" Kara whispered as she bent down to my level. I had not moved since the argument. "My God Bella, what happened?" I couldn't speak, i just sobbed into her arms. "Shush, sweetie...Whatever it is, it will be okay."
I told her what had happened, every detail. She silently listened, not saying a word until i had stopped talking. She said Three words "What a Bastard!" I let out a choked laugh. She went to the kitchen and came back with two shot glasses and a bottle of tequila. Kara poured the two glasses and handed one to me.
I shook my head. She rolled her eyes."Bella the man just ripped your heart out, tore it to little pieces, and set them on fire. The least you could do is numb the pain." She shoved the drink into my hand. I nodded. I watched as Kara threw back hers. I followed her lead, cringing a little as it burned my throat.
"We are making cookies for Jacob; I'm going to apologize." I said as i sipped my coffee. The timer went off. I took the cookies out of the oven. The mixer stopped. I looked at Kara. She glared at me.
"Are you telling me that you are going to forgive him? Bella he broke your heart!"
"Its not the first time my heart has been broken." I whispered. I focused intently on the cookies that i was taking off the cookie sheet. After i had placed the last cookie on the cooling rack i looked back at her. Kara was starring at the ceiling. I pushed past her to get the chocolate chip cookie batter. I dipped the spoon in the bowl, retrieving a generous amount of dough, then i placed it on the cookie sheet.
"So your just going to forgive him? You're not angry at him? How can you do that? If Paul did that to me I...I don't know what i would do." She shuttered. I placed the cookies in the oven, leaning up against it as i turned to face her.
"That's what you do when you love someone, Kara. You forgive them, even when they do something unforgivable." I said firmly.
"I don't know if i could do that...I mean i love Paul, with everything in me...but..."
"You'll find that you can do amazing things when you're put into the situation. Even things you thought you would never do." I whispered.
My mind wandered. Would my life had been any different if i had stayed with Edward? My heart wrenched. Yes, i would have been happy. Edward would never do something like this to me. But would it be the same? My boys. I would never give them up for the world. Never. If i could go back and change my life, i wouldn't change a thing. The happiness that they brought me... I would have never had that with Edward. I never realized how much i wanted to be a mother, until i was one.
I shook my head. "Well i guess i am going to take these to the guys at the W.G.G.(Wolf Gang Garage). Do you want to come with me?" I asked as i took the last cookies on a plate and covered it with saran wrap.
"Hell yes i want to come!" I glared at her, "Sorry, But i want to see the guilt on his face."
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The sign out front read "The Wolf Gang Garage" Sam had decided that the pack needed a place where they could discuss proper business, without us girls to ruin all the fun. And what better job than fixing cars...something they all loved to do? So the whole gang worked here, or at least came here on a daily basis. By the looks of the trucks here, they were having a meeting. Good; everyone could eat and enjoy my cookies.
Kara pulled into the back parking lot and put the truck in park. "Are you ready for this?" She asked.
I nodded, "As ready as I'll ever be." I gave her a weak smile.
I wanted to surprise him, I was going to tell him how sorry i was. I was going to take back all the things that i had said. When i opened the door loud noise greeted me, i saw Paul welding some parts together, he waved at us. Seth was talking to a customer on the phone, shaking his head back and fourth. I could see Sam upstairs talking on a cellphone, probably to Emily; he looked over the railing and waved. I looked around the shop for Jacob, I finally found him near the front of the shop next to a old beat up blue truck. What i saw next took my breath away. I closed my eyes, behind me i heard Kara gasp. Jacob was leaning up against the blue truck, his foot propped up against it. A manicured hand rested on his leg, her other hand rested on his chest. She was leaning in... her body mere inches away from his. The way she looked at him, it brought shivers down my spine. Her eyes sparkled like he had just told the funniest joke in the world. He was gazing at her with the same intensity, then he threw his head back; a bellowing laughter filled the shop.
Kara grabbed my arm, i felt sick. I covered my mouth with my free hand. It was all a misunderstanding, i convinced myself. It wasn't what it seemed like. My hands were shaking, I dropped the plate of cookies that i was holding. The shop grew silent. Seth dropped the phone and Paul started walking towards us. A strangled scream escaped my lips. Jacob looked over at me. His eyes still holding a hint of laughter, the laughter died in his eyes as soon as he realized what he was seeing. My knees were shaking so hard it was a wonder i was still standing. I sank down to the ground. Kara however was fuming. The young woman backed away slowly, her eyes uncertain. Seth opened the front door for her, and she was gone.
"You are the most disgusting man i have ever laid my eyes on!" Kara screamed. Paul grabbed her arm, holding her back from Jacob.
"NO! DON'T TOUCH ME!" He raised his hands up in the air in surrender, she pushed past him.
"YOU THINK THAT YOU CAN JUST BREAK BELLA'S HEART AND THEN WALK AWAY! NO!" Jacob paid her no attention, he just starred at me. Tears fell down my face. My heart broke in half. I didn't understand what i had done wrong. I was willing to do anythinKarag to get him back. I gave him a pleading look.
Sam jumped down the stairs and was standing in front of me protectively. I leaned around him to get a better view.
"You're wrong Kara." Jacob said calmly, shaking his head. "I was the one who put her back together." His eyes intensified.
"SO YOU THINK YOU OWN HER NOW! JUST BECAUSE YOU PLAYED HUMPTY DUMPTY..." She poked him in the chest.
"No I don't. Stop talking about things you know nothing about, Paul..." Jacob pushed her away from him, she spun into Paul's arms. He held her firmly in his arms, trying to keep her from escaping. Jacob shoved Sam out of the way. He gently picked me up in his arms. I wanted to push him away, but my arms wouldn't obey, they wrapped around his neck. He slammed the back door open, and walked out into the cold rain.
Broke my heart to write this...I need chocolate!
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Emmett: I'll give you my cookie!
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