Chapter Seven- Mixed Emotions

Kagome awoke with a start. She eyed the sleeping pup that was lying beside her. He growled softly as he slept. Kagome couldn't help but let out a small smile. 'He looks so human, well except for the cute ears, but he acts so dog like.' Kagome looked at his cute features. He had midnight black hair, a little lighter then Kagome's. His eyes were bright emerald combined with golden patched. His little ears twitched at any sound. He was young but looked and acted like he was a year and a half years old, thought Kagome had never seen him walk, she was sure that he could.

His eyes opened and a toothless grin appeared on his face as he looked up at his mother. Kagome moved her way to the bathroom that had been added on to her bedroom. Kagome could see a marble tub, filled with nice hot water, maybe too hot for her baby. She found a big basin that was placed on a table at the far side of the room. She quickly gathered the hot water in it and set it to cool. She started to do through the cupboards, trying to find anything that resembled a diaper, in the last cupboard she found small pieces of cloth.

Once the water had cooled Kagome bathed him, washing away the dirt that had found its way to her child. Mitsuaki laughed in the water, splashing his mother with his small hands. Kagome just laughed and pulled him out of the water, putting him in a diaper then trying to find some clothes, but to no prevail. She sighed and put the young Hanyou in his crib, then stripping she dipped her sore, dirty and blood covered body in the water. She quickly scrubbed herself and dressed in a midnight black kimono set, matching Mitsuaki's hair color. She put her hair up into a nice bun then wrapped her baby in a small blanket.

Kagome paced the palace halls, lost and a little hungry. It had almost been four days since she left. The miko could tell that in a few hours it would be midnight, it was then she was going to get out of this place and go find her other son Shippou. Finding one exit Kagome left the castle, finding herself in a large garden. She walked until she found what she had been looking for, a large bolder. She easily climbed it. Since the pup had unknowingly healed her, she as able to use her wrist again.

The pup's eyes traveled the sky, looking up and cooing at all the stars until his eyes stopped. He glared for what seemed to be forever at a bright object in the sky. Tonight the moon was full. Mitsuaki gurgled a little, then let out a small growl, turning towards Kagome. Looking at her as if the moon had told him everything.

"Mama." Mitsuaki laughed as Kagome left out a small smile. "Dada." Kagome's smile faded, she didn't know who the father was. She let a tear slip, she knew she could cry around her baby, he didn't care. He didn't think of her as a weak human who knew nothing. He didn't see her as a mere human who always got in the way. Well at least not yet. Kagome that she would have to leave him to be with Sesshoumaru. She would have to leave so that he could grow to be as cold and ruthless as the great lord of the west himself was. Another tear slipped, she dreaded that day, and she dreaded the day that her Mitsuaki could on day take her very life, not knowing that she was the one who had raise him until he was of age to be left alone.

"Kagome?" The voice seemed to take forever to reach her. The voice was warm and kind. The voice that had lied to her all those years.

"Inuyasha." She rolled his name off her tongue bitterly. If she was looking at the Hanyou she could have easily seen him flinch.

"What are you doing up? You should be resting." Inuyasha looked at the ground.

"What the hell do you care. You want me dead, Inuyasha you don't love and you never have. You said it yourself. Hell you even tried to kill my pup and me. What do you care if I died right now." Kagome turned to face him, no trace of her tears could be seen, she face was frozen with hatred and misunderstanding.

"You mean that the past two years showed you nothing of how I felt for you-…" Inuyasha started to say.

Kagome started to laugh, a cold emotionless laugh. "Oh I know very well how you felt for you Inuyasha, I was a shard detector, all you ever cared about was Kikyou. But now that she's dead you want to come crawling back to me, tail between your legs."

"No Kagome, you got it all wrong I didn't deserve to love you." Inuyasha reached for her hand that she held tightly to her leg. She quickly pulled away.

"Did you ever think that I didn't care. I loved you Inuyasha, we were so close and then you left us, you left me, time after time you left me. I always forgave you, thinking that maybe you would see that I cared about you, that I loved you. But I guess people never really change." Kagome looked towards her pup, almost forgetting that she held him there.

"Kagome. The reason I left, it's not what you think it is." Inuyasha pleaded.

"Heh, right Inuyasha and what other reason would there be." Kagome held her child closer.

"I left, because I thought you would follow, I didn't want you to face Naraku. I wanted you to follow me so you wouldn't be hurt." Inuyasha began it like he was telling some old story. Trying to explain best he could to her.

"So you cared for me that's why you didn't come back-…" Kagome tried to figure things out.

"Kikyou needed my help with the baby, his father had been killed shortly after he impregnated Kikyou. I tried to help her but the villagers killed her and there was nothing I could do but take the baby. So I took him Kagome, I took him then left him. I couldn't take care of Kikyou child, I didn't know what to do. I guess a villager found him and took him back to burn him, not even a day later I bumped into you." Inuyasha pleaded for her to listen to him.

'That's why the pup doesn't like him, Inuyasha abandoned him to die so he hates him!' Kagome used a truth spell on him, and found that he was telling the truth, not the whole truth, but the truth none the less.

Kagome gathered the baby tighter and left Inuyasha, walking gracefully up to her room. "I forgive you, Inuyasha, but Mitsuaki does not."