7. Distance

They strove through the difficulty, but the gap grew.

You make me so angry sometimes, Yzak. I guess there's just no way around it. This space really hurts, the way it's been wedged between us, but I guess I'll just have to bear it anyway. At first I thought it'd kill me. Then I thought I'd wait for you until you reached your senses, but you didn't, so now we're distant.

Why can't you just listen to me, damn you? We were apart for so long. Didn't you worry when I disappeared? Didn't you wonder if I was dead? I missed you like hell, even after I realized we'd both been fighting for the wrong reasons. That's why I wanted to talk when I finally saw you again, but you had to go and shove a gun in my face.

I'm not the one being deceived. I'm not the one putting distance between us. I tried to bridge the gap, not make it bigger. I don't want to stay mad at you, but I do want to know why. Why it had to be this way, why you chose to be so pigheaded, why you wouldn't even look me in the eye.

I'm not doubting you. Somehow, I've convinced myself that you still care, but I'd rather you proved it to me on your own. I hate this space, I hate this gap, I hate this distance. I don't want us to fight on opposite sides.

I watched you that time, after I got back into the Buster and prepared to take off. You were thinking about what I'd told you, about ZAFT and the Earth Forces. I need you to do something for me. I need you to think even harder than you were then. Figure out what it is you want to live for, which side you'll take. And do it soon, because I can't stand the way you've separated yourself.

You know I'm still here for you. I didn't die. I'm even forgiving you for shutting me out. But please, Yzak, pull yourself together, for me alone if for no one else. War is a time for allies, so we can't afford to stay this way.

I just… I don't like our distance.