Chapter 7
Confession
AN: I don't own Fairy Tail, I wish I did, sadly I never will because that right belongs to Hiro Mashima. There may be strong language in this chapter and some suggestive themes but nothing more than that.
For the next few weeks while my ankle healed every day Natsu and I watched the sequel movies to The Dragon Prince. Once we had finished those we watched other dragon related movies that made them as heroes and not the bad guys. I gained a new respect for the graceful creatures called Dragons and found that like Natsu I too loved dragons. By the time my ankle had completely healed I was seeing things in a new light and would never look at them the same way again. When I was given the all clear to walk on my ankle again I went to hang out with my friends. A few new people had joined the foster home and I had met them a couple of times but I was glad to spend more time with them. One was a boy my age named Romeo Conbolt his father worked in the foster home now and the other was a girl also my age named Wendy Marvell.
During the time I spent with Natsu my feelings I had for him before began to grow and I wasn't sure if it was a budding romance or puppy love. Yes I was 16 years old and most people my age have a boyfriend/girlfriend but I had never really experienced love before. Was my feelings toward him merely a passing crush or puppy love or was it something more than that. Did I truly have feelings for him and was this the start of a romance and if it was would he feel the same way about me as I felt for him. I began to write in a diary to express my emotions and I had confided in Mirajane about my feelings for Natsu. Mira encouraged me by saying that time would tell if we were meant to be together or if it was a passing phase.
School was fast approaching and would start up in two weeks and I decided that unless Natsu made a move towards me to start a relationship that I wouldn't do anything myself. "Hey Luce what are ya thinking about?" Natsu asked. "Nothing important, and since when do you call me Luce?" I asked him. "I don't know just thought it would be a cute nickname." Natsu answered. "Oh." I replied. "You seem like you're in another world." Natsu commented hugging me from behind. I was sitting on a couch so his arms were around my shoulders as he leaned over me putting his head next to mine. "Not really, I'm just thinking." I replied. "About what?" Natsu asked. "I said it was nothing important." I replied repeating my words from earlier. "Really because I have ways of making you talk, so either tell me the easy way or the hard way which is it going to be?" Natsu asked as I stood up. "It was nothing." I replied again.
"The hard way it is, prepare to be tickled." Natsu said with an evil glint in his eyes. "You wouldn't." I said fear in my eyes. "Oh I would, run." Natsu said hoarsely as he came closer to me. "NOOOOOOOO!" I screamed as I ran down the halls to get away from him. Everyone stared as he chased me down the hallways trying to get me to tell him what I was thinking about. I stayed ahead of him most of the time then I tripped on a rug and as I was falling Natsu caught up to me and caught me as I fell. "Finally I caught you." Natsu said breathlessly. "No, no let me go." I yelled struggling to escape from him. "Not until you tell me what you were thinking about." Natsu said as he began to tickle me. "Never!" I shouted trying to hold back my laughter. I couldn't hold my laughter in anymore and burst out laughing tears coming to my eyes as I did.
"Fine… I'll… tell… you…" I managed to say between my laughter. "Good." Natsu said as he stopped tickling me letting me go. "I was just thinking about the note I wrote to you. The one that you gave back to me and I told you to forget what it said." I answered once I caught my breath. It wasn't the whole truth but it wasn't a lie either and it would stop him from tickling me so I said that to stop him. "Oh what were you thinking about it?" Natsu asked. "Um… just what I wrote in it." I said unsure of how to answer his question. "What part of it?" He asked in a soft tone of voice. "I can't say." I said turning bright red. "Why not?" Natsu asked his question in a whisper. "It's too embarrassing." I said barely squeaking out my answer as my face turned crimson red. "I see it's the part where you said something very important isn't it?" Natsu whispered in my ear. "You remembered that?" I squeaked my question my face on fire from my blushing. "Yep." He whispered in my ear his breath tickling my ear.
The next thing I knew everything went black and when I woke up again I was staring at the faces of my friends who had concerned faces. "What happened?" I asked confused. "Oh good you're awake." Wendy said sighing in relief. "You passed out." Levy said answering my question. "Oh where's Natsu?" I asked remembering what happened before I passed out. "I'm right here." His voice said from behind me. "Oh." I said blushing slightly. He happened to be holding me and I just realized it now. "What made you faint?" Juvia asked holding the shirt Gray had stripped off. "I was just reminding her about the letter she wrote." Natsu said simply not going into detail. "You mean when she promised me that dagger?" Gajeel asked. "Yeah that time, but she wrote me a letter of my own." Natsu answered him. "What did it say?"Erza asked. ay?"im. " wrote me a letter of my own.""o us. Erza asked. "Here read it for yourself." Natsu said handing Erza the paper I looked at every day before going to bed.
"I thought you gave it back to me, when did you get a hold of it?" I asked glaring at Natsu while Erza read. "I know where you keep it I like to read it sometimes and I just happened to borrow it earlier." Natsu replied. "What does it say Erza?" Levy asked. "Here read." Erza said handing the letter to her. "Oh my gosh, Natsu you brought this up no wonder she fainted, look at her now she is sheet white." Levy exclaimed gesturing to me. My face had lost all color when Natsu said he had read it sometimes and knew where it was and let others read it. "Is that true?" Natsu asked looking at me. I got out of his arms and stood up and watched as he stood up as well my eyes were glaring at him. "Natsu you are an idiot, of course that's why!" I yelled slapping him across the face.
"I was only trying to tease you Luce." Natsu said back to me. "Oh I know." I said wrapping my arms around his neck in a hug. "You do?" Natsu asked confused. "Of course I do." I said looking up at him my most seductive face put on. "Does that mean I'm forgiven?" Natsu asked wrapping his arms around my face. Natsu obviously was affected by my seductive face making a face showing he liked the way things were going. "Of course… not! You are an ass!" I yelled kneeing him in the balls. Natsu collapsed to the floor clutching his nuts unable to do more than squeak from the pain. I took the letter from Levy then ran off to my room slamming the door and then locking it then I looked at the letter in my hand. I had been keeping it in between my mattress and box spring so this time I decided to find a better place.
My jewelry box used to be my mom's and it had a lock with a key that I always wore around my neck I opened it. I didn't have much in it but I took out each piece and set its own my desk but I accidentally knocked the jewelry box onto the floor. "Damn it." I cussed as I bent to pick it up. "Hey what's this?" I said seeing a piece of the lining was pulling away from the bottom. I pulled it back a bit more and saw that there was another lock so I tried to put the key in it and it unlocked and I pulled it open. Inside was a letter addressed to me I took it out and opened it I pulled out the piece of paper and read it.
Dear Lucy,
I'm writing this to you because I know that when you are born that I will most likely die. I wanted to write this to you to give you guidance in your teen years. First I want to state that this isn't the only letter I am writing you the others are in my vanity drawers. I figure that since I am not there myself and that being a teenaged girl can be tough that these might help you. I figure that all my things went into storage when I died except the jewelry box I gave you before you were born. I put the letter in the secret compartment knowing that you would only discover it when you were going to put a letter of your own in here. You probably are wondering how I would know that you would be putting a letter of your own in here so I'll explain.
I figure that you are about sixteen years old and have a boy that you have feelings for a boy. When I was your age I knew your dad and liked him a lot and I had wrote him a letter and was going to give it to him but then we had a fight and I got extremely mad at him so I decided to hide it in the jewelry box. I figured that you might have a similar situation to mine and would try to hide it in the jewelry box like I did. You would then find the hidden compartment because if nothing is in the jewelry box the lining would peel up revealing the hidden compartment. I don't know what your reason is for writing a letter to a boy but I know that if you are putting it in the jewelry box you, like me, must be mad at the boy.
Whatever the reason that you have for being mad at him just know that he is a man and men are idiots. Because they are idiots they do stupid things that make us mad at them but don't dwell on the mistakes they make but instead on the times that they aren't being idiots. Think about all the times that he has been there for you, made you laugh, made you smile, and made you love him. Just take a breath and remember that he will make dumb mistakes to make you mad but it isn't that you should dwell on. Men are men and will always make stupid mistakes but we love them anyway because when we need them the most they are there for us. I hope this helped and if you need more advice just have to go to my vanity and find the other letters. I love you very much and hope for the best for you and your future.
Love Mama
The letter made me smile knowing that when I needed her the most she knew it ahead of time and thought to write to me to help me through it. I realized what she said was right that he was only a man and that when I needed him he was there for me. Now all that I had to do is put everything back into the jewelry box then go apologize to him. I put everything back into the jewelry box and then I set the letter I had wrote to Natsu and the letter from my mom on my desk. I went to open my door and when I did there was Natsu about to knock on the door.
"Natsu what are you doing here?" I asked him. "I came to apologize to you for teasing you, why are you leaving?" Natsu replied curiously. "I was going to find you to apologize for calling you an ass and for kneeing you in the nuts." I replied blushing when I said the 'nuts' part. "Oh." Natsu said scratching the back of his neck awkwardly. "Natsu… I'm so sorry for being so mean I was just so embarrassed." I said flinging my arms around his neck crying into his chest. "I forgive you it was my fault for provoking you to do it and I'm sorry for doing such mean things to you." Natsu replied apologizing himself while wrapping his arms around my back.
"I forgive you Natsu, mama helped me understand it." I said burying my face in his chest. "What?" Natsu asked confused. "Oh when I was trying to find a new hiding spot for the letter and I came across a letter my mom had wrote to me to help me as a teenager." I said explaining looking up at him. "Oh I see." Natsu said nodding his head in understanding. "Natsu I want to thank you for being there for me when I need you the most." I said leaning up and kissing him next to his mouth to show my appreciation. After I had given him the kiss I pulled away from him and looked down feeling embarrassed at my burst of courage that caused me to kiss him.
"You don't need to thank me, I did it because I wanted to." Natsu said scratching his neck again. "I want to though." I said blushing more. "Luce… I want to explain why I was teasing you." Natsu said looking directly at me. "You don't have to." I said quickly trying to smooth things over between us. "No I have to tell you." Natsu said seriously coming in my room closing the door behind himself. "Alright then let's sit." I said sitting in one of the two chairs I had for a small sitting area. "Lucy… when I read that letter… the one you wrote just to me… while I read it and afterwards… I couldn't help but cry… because you had said that you loved me… but you said it in a suicide note. I couldn't stand it… the feeling of knowing your feelings… the one's you wrote about… and knowing that you said it in a letter after you nearly killed yourself… again… and you still were in a position that was uncertain… it hurt me.
"You didn't just say how you felt… your words… they opened my mind… and made me realize… what exactly you were saying… and how that made me feel… the feelings I didn't know that I had… they made me understand. You said something important… not just for yourself… but also for me… you said that you love me… and that was a very big, and important thing for you to confess… and you were brave in telling me… because you opened yourself up to be hurt. You didn't know if I would accept or reject you… but it was important to me because you said you love me… for me to be told that… is something I always thought would be very important. It struck a chord in me… I felt the same way for you as you did for me… I realized that I returned your feelings… but it was then I decided to put them aside… not because I wanted to… but because I wanted to put yours before mine.
"I decided to do my best to make you feel better… then when enough time had passed… I would tell you my feelings… and while I didn't think that now is the right time… I feel that you have the right to know. Lucy the moment I read your words… I knew then and there that… damn it all… what I'm trying to say is… Lucille Grace Heartfilia, I love you… I love you so much… and I want to you to be my girlfriend." Natsu said pausing often to get the right words out. He held onto my hands with both of his and looked directly into my eyes his pleading for me to understand him and what he was saying. I looked deeply into his eyes trying to read him, to see if he really meant the words he had just said to me. As I peered into the deep dark green eyes I could feel as if I was reading his thoughts hearing the words he was trying to express but couldn't with words alone, I felt his feelings.
My silence went on for so long moisture came to his eyes as he let tears escape them for fear of my response to his confession. I took my hands from his and then I wiped at his tears leaving my right hand resting on his left cheek in an endearing fashion. "Yes." I said simply. "Yes, Natsu… I will be your girlfriend." I added looking at him sweetly. "You will?" Natsu asked in an almost frightened tone. "Of course, because… I love you too." I said pausing to gain the courage to say what I was thinking. "Here this is for you, it's a promise ring you wear it on your left middle finger." Natsu said slipping a ring on my finger.
I looked at the ring on my finger it was silver and was twisted loosely together and on it a small gem that looked like a diamond. "Oh, it's so pretty." I said kissing Natsu by the mouth again. "It's only a fourth of a carat but that is an actual diamond." Natsu said holding my left hand in his. "Natsu that must have been expensive." I scolded him lightly. "It wasn't that bad plus you're worth it." Natsu said kissing next to it on my hand. "You are too sweet." I said blushing lightly. "I would do anything for you." Natsu said before doing like I did kissing me next to my mouth. "Natsu." I said softly. "What Luce?" He asked looking somewhat concerned.
"I have never been kissed on the lips before so can we hold off on that for a while. I mean we can kiss each other next to the mouth and on the cheek or forehead or hands but I want to wait. Wait on actually having our lips touching and actually kissing on the mouth." I said blushing. "Of course we can." Natsu said kissing me next to the mouth again. "Thank you." I said meekly. "Like I said I would do anything for you." Natsu said. "Do you hear something?" I asked hearing scuffling outside my door. "Yeah, what is it?" Natsu asked. "Well if I had a guess I would say that it is our nosy friends." I said opening my bedroom door. The moment I did Wendy, Levy, Juvia, Erza and Cana fell into my room their heads had been pressed against the door to see if they could hear anything we were saying.
"We weren't doing anything." Cana lied through her teeth. "If you weren't doing anything then how come when I opened the door all five of you fell into my room?" I asked putting my hands on my hips. "We just wanted to see if he would tell you that he liked you back." Levy said in their defense. "You knew about this?" I asked looking at them. "He told us why he was teasing you with the letter and he told us he liked you so naturally we made him come tell you." Erza said shrugging her shoulders. "You told them before you told me?" I asked him. "No they dragged it out of me, I wanted to tell you first." Natsu said putting his hands in the air. ""Is this true?" I asked my friends. "It was Cana's idea." Wendy said confessing. "I should have known." I said crossing my arms over my chest shaking my head at the same time. "But we all went along with it, so that means my major love rival has been taken care of." Juvia said an evil glint in her eyes.
