AN: Thanks for the reviews!! I got so easily distracted today, so this chapter might not be good..or whatever..tell me what you think anyway :-) Food really does work in giving you inspiration..
Woke up today thinking of you The sun won't shine since you went away
Another night and I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But it could never come true
I press rewind
I remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain
Every time I hear your name
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
That's the way it's gotta be,
until I get over you…
Until I get Over You - Christina Milian
Addison lay back on the pillows, exhausted from her earlier breakdown. She had no more flashbacks, the only memories that floated back to her were patchy and blurry. She somehow knew she loved Derek, but it was locked deep in the back of her mind, at the bottom of her heart. Locked behind the barred walls struggling to get out.
She sighed, closing her eyes, trying to salvage what was left of her memories. She felt a presence in the room, but her eyes remained shut, not wanting to see any sympathetic faces or hear any hushed voices. She heard some rummaging around and something being laid on her bedside table. She felt someone's hand stroking her cheek, whom she guessed was Derek. She felt him lower his head to her's, gently kissing her on the forehead. His breath tickled her neck. She felt him pull away from her, but he hung on to her hand. She heard a pager beep, and Derek swore. Addison bit back a giggle that threatened to escape. Derek sighed, before making his way out of her room.
Addison cracked her eyes open, and peeked over to her bedside table, wondering what Derek had put there. She saw a decorated box, alongside her shampoo and conditioner. She frowned. Why did he leave shampoo and conditioner? She reached out for the box, and rummaged inside. She pulled out a pair of snow boots, as well as the whole pink outfit. She looked at them strangely, before discarding them to the bottom of her bed. She rummaged through the box again, her hand pulling out an envelope. On the cover it said; Open this last. Addison's curiosity was peaked as she laid the envelope aside and pulled out the remaining object. It was heavy and oblong. She stared at the cover, a picture of her and Derek in front of a ski resort in Europe. Above it, it said;
Derek and Addi: The Snow Years
A tear fell from Addison's eye as she flicked through the photos. There was one of her about to fall face first into a snow dune, there was one of Derek trying to fix his skis, and then one that a passer-by must have taken, as it featured both of them, snuggled up on the couch next to the fire, laughing at each other after Addison had streaked melted marshmallows across his face. Addison laughed amidst her tears, remembering the fun times she and Derek had together. She closed the book, and flopped back on her pillows. What does this mean? Addison wondered, she was confused about how she felt, all she could remember, was how she hurt him, how he hurt her. She didn't want that to happen again. She remembered the envelope, and reached out for it. She cracked the seal, and pulled out the light coloured paper.
'Look outside.'
Addison was confused by the two worded note. She glanced up to her window, and upon seeing nothing, she swung her legs out of her bed and walked to the window, pulling her dressing gown tighter around her. She looked out of her window, to see snow surrounding the area. It was still falling softly from the sky. Addison's face broke into a deep smile as she saw Derek dressed in his snow suit looking up at her window. He waved his mittened hand, and gestured to his clothes and back at her. Addison understood what he meant, and giggled softly to herself as she pulled on her own snowsuit that Derek had conveniently packed in the box. After she had dressed, she ventured back to the window to see Derek staring up expectantly. His face lit up as he saw her, and gestured for her to come down and join him. Addison beamed; finally she could get out of her room. She ran out to meet Derek, who caught her in his arms.
"So, do you like the surprise?" Derek asked, inwardly jumping for joy at seeing Addison's flushed face. Addison nodded, not being able to say anything, she was looking around unbelievably, staring at the snow that surrounded them. Addison let go of Derek, leaning down to gather up a snowball. Derek saw what was coming, ad tackled her to the ground. Addison shrieked, trying to fight him back. Derek pinned her underneath him, as he breathed heavily.
Addison panted, looking up into his eyes. He smiled softly, before leaning down and brushing her lips with his own. Addison didn't know whether to deepen the kiss, or let it go. She was still wary about her and Derek's relationship, for her, she remembers that the embers of their passionate fire had died out long ago. Deep down, she longed for them to ignite the fire again, but was afraid for the rain that would dampen it out. Addison looked back at his eyes, before smiling and flipping him over. Derek didn't stop, instead they were rolling around in the snow outside Seattle Grace Hospital, something they would do every Christmas.
Addison felt hands cover her eyes as she was checking over a chart.
"Guess who!"
Addison grinned as she turned around and planted a passionate kiss on his lips.
"What do I owe to this pleasure?" She asked as he led her down the hallway. He covered her eyes once again as he propelled her towards a window overlooking the city.
"Addi, its that time of year again." He said, as he slowly unveiled her eyes. Addison squealed and threw her arms around Derek.
"You ready for this?" Addison asked, a mischievous twinkle in her eye. Derek laughed at her childish innocence.
"I happen to be on top of my game this year. When's your next surgery?"
Addison laughed. "You say that every year, yet I still thrash you. I don't have a surgery scheduled until tonight."
Derek grinned. "Well be prepared today!" He casually walked away as he heard Addison call after him;
"Snow Day 2005 bring it on!"
Addison stopped, panting breathlessly. Derek held her until she calmed down.
"You okay?" He asked, concerned.
Addison looked back at him, and grinned. "Snow day 2007, bring it on!"
Derek laughed as he chased her around the building, occasionally stooping low to gather up a few quick snowballs. He felt one hit him on his rear, and he abruptly turned to see Addison doubled up in laughter.
Derek lunged toward her, only to be met with a face full of snow. He sat up, wiping the snow off his face. He grinned like a Cheshire cat. For now, the Addison he loves was back.
Derek and Addison trudged back into her hospital room, the nurses giving them curious glances as to why they were both dressed in snowsuits and covered in snow. She changed back into her hospital gown. Derek rummaged through his bag, and pulled out two tubs of Ben and Jerry's ice cream. Addison yelped as he started digging in to the cookie dough flavour, knowing it was her favourite.
"Oh no you don't mister!" Addison dived for the tub, yanking it out of his hands. She gave him an evil look as she dug the spoon in and licked the content right off it.
"Fine then. I'll just have Chocolate Therapy." Derek stuck his tongue out at Addison as he opened the other tub. Addison stared at him unbelievingly as he made appreciative noises. She looked back down at her own tub, then back at his. Derek looked up to see her eyeing his tub.
"Oh no you don't missy" Derek hugged the tub tighter to his chest, afraid of Addison yanking it from him.
"Mine's better anyway!" Addison playfully retorted, digging in to her ice cream. Derek looked at her for a while longer, seeing the playfulness in her face, which was no longer full of pain or hurt. For the time being Derek thought, swirling the ice cream around his mouth. The Addison he knew was back, but he knew it would be a long recovery until she regained full memory, most of which will cause her pain and anguish. He loved her, but he knew that it will be a difficult time to break through to her and make her love him again. Derek saw a glimmer of hope, Addison was already close to loving him again, it was just a matter of time, and whether she would allow herself to.
AN: Okay that was pretty short..I have no idea whether it snows in Seattle, but in my AU world, it does :-D Anyway Read and tell me what you think!
