I have been doing really good lately. I haven't cut since 2 months ago. Kevin has been helping me out each and everyday. He drives me too and from group every week. I just don't know how to thank him for everything he has done to help me along. He truly is someone that I love.
But the worst thing? My mom has been dating, again. She has seen 8 guys in the past month. Each guy is no where close to being a good guy for her. I just don't want to see her hurt, or even marrying some guy she doesn't love.
And one other thing. Kevin is starting his first tour soon. And that means he's not going to even have time for me. I know that sounds selfish and everything, but I'm someone that gets jealous... very easily. And the thing that hurts more? I found out about the tour, through his mom. Kevin hasen't spoken anything about him leaving me for 5 months. Nothing.
It's like he doesn't want me to know, and is going to leave without telling me.
It drives me nuts.
But today, I'm going to get him to tell me everything that happens. I will.

My phone started to ring and I ran to anwser it.
"Hello?" I anwsered.
"Hey, Alli. This is Kevin. I got a new phone."
"Oh, hey. That's why I didn't reconzie the number." I laughed. "So what's up?"
"Oh, nothing. Just pack--" Kevin said, but stopped as he was about to say packing.
"Wait, what?" I asked like I had no clue.
"Oh, um... I... uh."
"Kevin, what's wrong?" I asked him.
"Oh, nothing. I have to tell you something though. Just don't get upset..."
"Okay, what?" I knew the tour started in two weeks, I just had no idea when they were getting on the road.
"I ummm. Can I tell you in person? Like can I come over to your house?" He asked me.
"Yeah, sure."
"Kay, I'm leaving right now."
We hung up the phone and in 15 minutes, the door rang. I ran downstairs, to see Kevin standing there with a huge frown.
i let him in as we walked over the living room couch.
he grabbed my hand. I began to worry.

"So, what did you have to tell me?" I asked.
"Alison, We're going on tour in two weeks. We have to have everything packed and ready to go by Saturday morning."
I looked up at him.
"But that's in four days..."
"yeah, and I just don't think we can stay together, like in a long term relationship... I'm not very good at those. And you know that. I just--"
Kevin stopped as he saw me let go of his hand and have tears flowing down my face.
"But, Alison." Kevin started again. "I think we can--"
I just had to interrupt him.
"Kevin, so you finally tell me. I knew about you leaving for a week now. Why didn't you tell me sooner, so we could have put my stupid problems aside, and spent the last weeks together? I found out from your mom. She thought that I had already knew, when I knew Nothing. And now your coming here, breaking up with me. Because you couldn't have warned me a little bit earlier?"
"Wait, Alli. You didn't even let me finish."
"Let you finish what, you breaking up with me?"
I looked away, as more and more tears were coming down my face. I couldn't believe that he was actually breaking up with me.
"Ali. Will you just listen to me? I talked to your mom and my mom, and they said you could come on tour with us if you wanted. You know I can't stay apart from you for one second." I looked back at Kevin.
"Wait, so you're not breaking up with me?"
"No, not now, not ever, not any other time. I've told you before that I can't break up with you." Kevin grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. He whispered into my ear. "So, will you?" I smiled and whispered back into his ear. "of course I will." Kevin kissed my cheek as he pulled on my hand to lead me into my room. He pulled out my suitcase to help me pack.
I can't believe how much I freak out. I always think with one little thing Kevin doesn't tell me right away, that it always means something bad is going to happen. This guy, known as Kevin, was my hero. My best friend. And my boyfriend