I have been
doing really good lately. I haven't cut since 2 months ago. Kevin has
been helping me out each and everyday. He drives me too and from
group every week. I just don't know how to thank him for everything
he has done to help me along. He truly is someone that I love.
But
the worst thing? My mom has been dating, again. She has seen 8 guys
in the past month. Each guy is no where close to being a good guy for
her. I just don't want to see her hurt, or even marrying some guy she
doesn't love.
And one other thing. Kevin is starting his first
tour soon. And that means he's not going to even have time for me. I
know that sounds selfish and everything, but I'm someone that gets
jealous... very easily. And the thing that hurts more? I found out
about the tour, through his mom. Kevin hasen't spoken anything about
him leaving me for 5 months. Nothing.
It's like he doesn't want
me to know, and is going to leave without telling me.
It drives
me nuts.
But today, I'm going to get him to tell me everything
that happens. I will.
My phone started
to ring and I ran to anwser it.
"Hello?" I
anwsered.
"Hey, Alli. This is Kevin. I got a new phone."
"Oh, hey. That's why I didn't reconzie the number." I
laughed. "So what's up?"
"Oh, nothing. Just
pack--" Kevin said, but stopped as he was about to say
packing.
"Wait, what?" I asked like I had no clue.
"Oh,
um... I... uh."
"Kevin, what's wrong?" I asked
him.
"Oh, nothing. I have to tell you something though. Just
don't get upset..."
"Okay, what?" I knew the tour
started in two weeks, I just had no idea when they were getting on
the road.
"I ummm. Can I tell you in person? Like can I come
over to your house?" He asked me.
"Yeah, sure."
"Kay,
I'm leaving right now."
We hung up the phone and in 15
minutes, the door rang. I ran downstairs, to see Kevin standing there
with a huge frown.
i let him in as we walked over the living room
couch.
he grabbed my hand. I began to worry.
"So,
what did you have to tell me?" I asked.
"Alison, We're
going on tour in two weeks. We have to have everything packed and
ready to go by Saturday morning."
I looked up at him.
"But
that's in four days..."
"yeah, and I just don't think
we can stay together, like in a long term relationship... I'm not
very good at those. And you know that. I just--"
Kevin
stopped as he saw me let go of his hand and have tears flowing down
my face.
"But, Alison." Kevin started again. "I
think we can--"
I just had to interrupt him.
"Kevin,
so you finally tell me. I knew about you leaving for a week now. Why
didn't you tell me sooner, so we could have put my stupid problems
aside, and spent the last weeks together? I found out from your mom.
She thought that I had already knew, when I knew Nothing. And now
your coming here, breaking up with me. Because you couldn't have
warned me a little bit earlier?"
"Wait, Alli. You
didn't even let me finish."
"Let you finish what, you
breaking up with me?"
I looked away, as more and more tears
were coming down my face. I couldn't believe that he was actually
breaking up with me.
"Ali. Will you just listen to me? I
talked to your mom and my mom, and they said you could come on tour
with us if you wanted. You know I can't stay apart from you for one
second." I looked back at Kevin.
"Wait, so you're not
breaking up with me?"
"No, not now, not ever, not any
other time. I've told you before that I can't break up with you."
Kevin grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. He whispered into my ear.
"So, will you?" I smiled and whispered back into his ear.
"of course I will." Kevin kissed my cheek as he pulled on
my hand to lead me into my room. He pulled out my suitcase to help me
pack.
I can't believe how much I freak out. I always think with
one little thing Kevin doesn't tell me right away, that it always
means something bad is going to happen. This guy, known as Kevin, was
my hero. My best friend. And my boyfriend
