AN: OMG i'm so sorry for how long this took me to write and how crappy it is! But with final projects and exams i literally had no time to write anything and then when i did have time i didn't really want to be inside on the computer because it's been so nice out! So basically i was just lazy haha! I don't know if this will be the last chapter for two months because i'm leaving for 2 months and i don't know if ill have time to write anything so we'll see! Thanks! (:

It was maybe a week or two later when I heard from Phil again. I had started classes and liked them so far, but I didn't know if that would last. It was a different atmosphere from high school, one where I found that I didn't really matter. It was both a comforting and terrifying thought to think that I could blend into the crowd and not matter. I had always been the one that would always stick out, I didn't fit the mold and I knew it. I was sitting in the lecture hall waiting for my next class to start when I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket.

From: Phil 13:58: Hey why don't you come round today and we can play some video games?

I smiled slightly at the offer as it brought back memories from the first time. It had been so fun that night actually having a person to do things with, to enjoy my time with. I sighed slightly though, the class that I had right now would last three hours and I still had to do the reading for tomorrows class. I smiled to myself and shrugged, well I may as well start the year off right.

To: Phil 13:59: I have a three hour lecture but ill come over after then?

I put my phone on the corner of my tiny desk. I hated these little university desks; they were so inconvenient and small that you could barely put anything on them. The professor walked in, smiling and cheerful as he put his briefcase on the desk and quickly logged on to his laptop. I opened my laptop, ready to start my note on the lesson. I saw a light flash from the corner of my desk and quickly grabbed my phone.

From: Phil 14:02: have a good class and I'll see you later! :)

I put my phone in the pocket so it would not distract me from my lesson and prepared myself for the lesson ahead. As I looked around the lecture hall, I found myself comfortable in my surroundings for one of the first times. As the professor started talking I found myself becoming engrossed in the lecture forgetting about Phil and the people around me.

Three hours later, the lecture ended and the class was dismissed. I closed my laptop quickly and put it and my books into my backpack before swinging it over my shoulder and standing up. I started to leave the room when I heard someone yelling. She was yelling to get someone's attention, but I knew it wasn't mine so I kept walking. I continued walking until I felt a tap on my shoulder.

"Excuse me," I turned around to a girl holding out my phone. "This fell out of your pocket when you stood up." I took my phone from her hand and smiled.

"Thank you so much, I would have been lost without this." The girl smiled and continued looking at me. "Would you like a coffee?" I blurted the words out before I thought about what I was saying. The girl's cheeks turned red and she nodded slightly, mumbling a soft yes. We started walking, in silence until we reached the café on campus. "My name is Dan by the way." I said as we got into the line to get our drinks.

"Dani, it's nice to meet you." I smiled at her as we took another step. "So you're majoring in law then?" I nodded and shrugged.

"I'm assuming you are as well?" She nodded. We fell into silence, it wasn't like the silence that Phil and I had experienced. It was an uncomfortable silence, one that was full of nerves and awkwardness. Finally, we were at the front of the line to get our coffee and I was relieved when we had an excuse to talk to each other.

"What would you like?" Dani shrugged looking at the menu.

"Um can I just get a black tea please?" The worker nodded, typing it in on the computer.

"Can I get a caramel macchiato please?" She nodded again and gave us our total, which I happily dished out the change to cover the cost. We moved over to where we wait for our drinks and stood in silence again.

"One black tea and one caramel macchiato!" We grabbed our drinks from off the counter and looked around for a table where we could sit at.

"There's one right there." Dani's voice was small as she pointed out a table and it irritated me slightly. Why did she have to talk so quietly? I knew that she was nervous but it didn't mean she had to talk so quietly I could barely hear her. I checked my watch as we sat down and found that we had been in line for 15 minutes meaning that I was 15 minutes late for Phil's. "So what made you take law?" I shrugged slightly; if she was actually taking law because she enjoyed it I didn't want to trash her ideas.

"Well I.." I quickly thought of an answer to her question that would not insult her. "I always like law in school so I thought I would major in it, you?" She nodded like she understood and took a drink of her tea. I followed her lead and took a swig of my drink as well.

"Basically the same and my mother is a lawyer so I'm following in her footsteps." She shrugged and took another drink of her tea, before checking her watch. We had been here for almost a half hour now and I just wanted to get to Phil's to play video games. "My class is about to start soon, it was nice meeting you, and we'll have to do this again some time!" I got up as she did and nodded.

"For sure! See you later." She left the place and I walked back to get in line. If I was going to be late to Phil's I wouldn't be coming empty handed. I looked back at the table that Dani and I had been sitting at and shook my head. I don't know if she actually had a class but I was glad for the excuse to break the awkwardness.

When I had finished getting our drinks, I quickly texted Phil that I was on my way and started to walk to his parents house. It was not a very far walk, but the weather was changing and it was getting colder with each passing day. I was at Phil's house within five minutes, I was inexplicably happy when I saw the house come into view. As I knocked on the door, I felt an unexplainable giddy sensation run through my body and I couldn't help but smile. Phil answered the door, a huge smile plastered on his face. His hair was messy and he was wearing a big sweater and some pj pants but he still looked perfect.

"Oh you brought coffee, how nice of you." Phil smiled as he took the coffee I handed him. His smile was breathtaking making me quickly shake my head. I couldn't fall back into the same pattern as before. I had to be strong and not fall head over heels in love with some guy I barely knew. But you do know him, a voice in the back of my head nagged.

"Ya I figured it was the least I could do for being late." I stepped inside his house as Phil opened his mouth.

"Who's at the door Phil?" A voice asked from another room. It was a girl's voice and it shocked me a little. It could just be a friend or his mom, calm down. I tried to tell myself but the memory of Phil's girlfriend came back. Phil smiled and walked into the room. I took my shoes off and assuming I was supposed to follow his lead, entered the room as well. On the couch was a girl, blonde with curly hair. She was pretty but she had a sort of snooty look to her. Like she was looking down upon me.

"Dan this is Melissa. Melissa this is Dan. Dan is my friend from the internet, remember the person I told you about. Melissa is my girlfriend." My stomach got a little queasy at the thought of Phil having a girlfriend and now I was here meeting her. I knew that I was jealousy and I really had no right to be, but I was and I couldn't help it.

"Hi, it's nice to meet you." I smiled and stuck my hand out. I was going to be the bigger person and be nice, for Phil. She smiled, fakely might I add, and returned the handshake.

"Same to you." As soon as our handshake had broken she pulled Phil down on the couch and spread out across it, leaving only the floor for me to sit on. "So Dan, how do you know Phil? I don't remember any mention of a person named Dan." Phil's eyes flicked from the video game on the tv to Melissa's face for a brief second.

"Mel, I've told you about Dan before." Phil laughed slightly and I saw his eyes flick to me, for a less then a second and then remained on the tv screen.

"So Dan." I coughed slightly and looked at the screen as well.

"Well it's actually funny. I'm assuming you know of Phil's videos?" Mel nodded and smiled. "Well I used to watch them from like the beginning because I stumbled upon one once and then Phil and I just started talking through comments and twitter and myspace and msn and stuff. And that's basically how I know him." Mel smiled again, a bit of a bitter smile as she looked at me.

"Oh so you're the guy who disappeared, okay." Phil looked at Melissa quickly, his eyes narrowed.

"He had a good reason I'm sure." Phil said before turning back to the screen.

"Oh did he? What was his reason then Phil? Why don't you tell us Dan?" Everything about Melissa was making me both uncomfortable and upset. I looked down at my hands clasped in my lap and shrugged.

"I just was going through a rough time that's all." Melissa nodded and rested her head on Phil's lap. We sat in silence for a while as we watched Phil play a round. It was nothing like the last time that I had been here. There was no laughing, no giddy feeling and I couldn't wait to get out of there. Phil played for a half and hour before he died, finally giving me an excuse to leave.

"You want to play Dan?" Phil went to hand me the controller but I shook my head and stood up.

"I should probably get going I have some readings to do. See ya later." I quickly walked out of the room and slipped my shoes on, walking out of the house before Phil could even make it to the doorway of the family room. As I walked home I felt a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. Melissa was going to make me loose my one and only friend, it was like high school all over again. I made it to my dorm within minutes and was soon curled up in bed, warm and comfy. My computer screen was playing some show, as I sat not really watching it. I saw my phone light up in the corner of my eye, but wasn't bothered to check. I had no desire to talk to Phil right now, if Melissa was going to push us apart it was just easier to stop talking to him now since it would hurt less. I stared at my sock drawer, the razors calling my name but I shook my head. I was going to be a new Dan, in a new place with a fresh start. I was going to change.