Author's Note:

So since I took like 9 days to post chapter 6, I thought I'd be superr nice and give you all another update! It's just a quick, short thought chapter! I wanted to write a chapter so we could get inside Mona's head. To somewhat understand where she's coming from! Well, from where I think her mind was when she ripped the letter. So Enjoy! :D lol

Chapter Seven: Mona's Motives

Mona's POV… just a short chapter of her thoughts on the letter and Hanna's knowledge of what happened. (The next chapter will pick up right after chapter 6 with Hanna and Caleb at school.)

Of course she would find out about the letter. What made me think she wouldn't? I just wanted to protect her. Okay, so that wasn't completely true. That's what I keep telling myself, that I did it to protect her.

I couldn't stop myself. I couldn't stop the jealousy rising in me. That's why I did it, why I ripped up the letter and didn't give it to her. Well, the main reason anyways. A part of me WAS trying to protect her. But mostly I couldn't help but wonder. Why does she get everything? I've never had a boyfriend. Not one. And she's had two. It's not like I wanted Sean and I definitely don't want Caleb but why should she get to be happy when I'm alone and miserable. We were both supposed to be happy and our lives we're supposed to be so much better after our transformations. From me being the geeky loser I was back then and her being the chubby loser, "Hefty Hanna" as Alison put it.

I don't even have Hanna these days, so I'm really alone. She's always with the "others". They're her best friends. I was just a substitute for the year after Alison disappeared when Hanna grew apart from Spencer, Aria and Emily and didn't talk to them anymore.

A whole year of just us. Hanna and I. No one else. I wanted that back. But I wasn't gonna get it back if she forgave Caleb. If she knew how sorry he was, that he loved her. And that's why I ripped the letter. And as long as she's friends with the 'others", it can't just be the two of us. But she'll never talk to me again after this. So it doesn't matter and now I'm really alone.

Oh god. What about my reputation? After all the work I did to become popular and lose my geeky loser status I'm not going back to that. I can't. And I won't. I'll be no one all over again without her.

I have to do whatever it takes to fix this with Hanna.

It's that simple and that difficult.

But I will succeed.