It's dark when we land. Alexis and I share the only room on the jet while Chris stayed up front. He gently kisses me awake saying we're home. I look up to him with a lazy smile, "Hi", I whisper.
He kisses me again then moves away, "Up up up, come on", he says. I sit up to find Alexis already up and getting her stuff together. I stretch out my body as I stand up.
"I'm up, I'm up", I mumble.
In the car I lean against Chris, it's after two in the morning and I'm still sleepy.
We check into the Marriott hotel booking the presidential suite. Lucky for us it has two bedrooms. Alexis wishes us a good night before retreating to her own room. She wants to be there when I pick up Jaden, then she will get on her flight back to North Carolina. Chris even booked her first class.
In our room Chris undresses me saying he been aching to feel my body against his, to feel my skin beneath his fingers. I'm greatful he did it for me. I'm just too tired. I climb in bed and sit down to watch Chris undress which wakes me up a little bit. I watch as his tight muscles ripple under his toned golden skin and I bite my lip remembering how it tastes. Shaking my head I turn off the bedside lamp, I want to be rested and he's a distraction.
I lay down facing the window so I won't be tempted into touching my fiancé. Of course through my sleep hazed mind I don't think about Chris climbing in beside me and pulling me against his body, "I don't ever want us to wear clothes to bed", he whispers in my ear. My body shutters as I fight back a groan.
"Is that so?", I ask. I don't dare turn to him, if I'm going to get any sleep I'm going to have to ignore him. He nuzzls my shoulder as he pushes his body against mine, "Please no, we have the rest of our lives for moments like this".
His body stills. I feel his mood shift. I don't want to turn to see his expression, I don't say no to him very often. A few beats pass before he rest his forehead against my shoulder, his hold tightening around my waist, "Good night baby", he whispers before loosening his hold on me.
I sigh inwardly before I close my eyes drifting off to sleep.
I WAKE UP the next morning to the sun light warming my skin. I slowly open my eyes focusing on the closet door across from me. I then notice I'm laying on Chris's chest, his arm securely around my waist holding me to him. A shiver runs down my body making me cuddle closer to his body, greatful for his warmth. For some reason the AC is cranked on high. I look up to see him already awake.
That's new.
"Good morning", I mumble. His eyes cut to me but he doesn't say anything. I frown remembering last night and I wonder if my rejection bothered him. "Are you mad at me?", I ask.
He also frowns as he thinks about my question. "No", he finally says. A wave of relief washes over me and I lean up to kiss him.
Of course a kiss with him is never just a kiss. His lips devoure mine and I move on top of him, his tongue probes my mouth as his hands roame over my body. He then takes hold of my face forcing me to look up so he has access to my throat. I sigh at the connection we share, I wouldn't have stopped him if I didn't already have things to do today. I still haven't figured out how I'm going to convince Troy to move with us to New York.
"You said no", he whispers against my skin. He pulls my lips back to his as he rolls over on top of me. His dominance is pushing through and I'm getting dragged under very quickly.
"Because we have the rest of our lives for moments like this. We don't need to rush", I pant. He stills and pulls back so he can see my face. I give him a look that tells him I know exactly what he is doing. His endless love making rounds ending with him deep inside me as a means to put my fertility to good use.
His shy smile peaks through, "You noticed", he said pressing his body against mine.
I give him a look, "Of course I did. You said you wanted to be married to me before we had sex and here we've had it six times".
He drops his head on my chest as he sighs loudly, "You provoked me. Twice", he added.
"How?", I demand.
He kisses a hot path down my body before he answers taking my hands with him so he has control over them. His tongue dipped into my navel and he groaned at the taste. "First, you slept with Damien after I proposed to you". He takes both my hands in one of his so he can touch my most private part with his free one. "Second, you took your birth control out". He kisses the inside of my thighs making me shiver with anticipation. I know what he is going to do and it sets my body on fire with that knowledge.
His incredibly dark green eyes flicker to mine as he presses his tongue against me. My eyes roll to the back of my head as pleasure over takes my body, "Eyes open and on me", he growls. It takes a lot of effort for me to open them to watch him have his way with me.
"You said no to me last night. That's not going to happen again, do you understand me?"
I don't know what side of him this is. Why didn't I notice how controlling he is?. Because he's always been the listener. I told him all my problems, all my hopes and dreams. He knew I wanted a complete family because I didn't grow up in one, he knows I am very submissive, that I'm up for just about anything. He knows my spots and he expertly uses them against me. His tongue pleasures me in ways I can't even describe and when I almost reach my peak he pulls away leaving me hanging.
I watch him move off the bed, "We better get ready and you better not touch yourself", he said over his shoulder. I lay there panting and totally annoyed. I bite my lip as I think about disobeying his orders but I can't bring myself to do it. I sit up staring at the bathroom door he's just gone through and left open telling me he wants me to join him after I get my witz together.
Shaking my head I get up hyper aware of how sensitive my skin is. Ignoring it, I head into the bathroom to find Chris leaning against the wall with the shower running. His dark eyes watching me as he opens the curtain to let me in first. He is as turned on as I am but he ignores it as he climbs in behind me. I didn't dare touch him but he touches me.
He nudges me under the hot water then pulls me back so he can wash me with his hands. I clench my teeth together as I try to keep a straight face as he moves all over my body with sure fingers.
When he feels I'm clean he nods for me to rinse off. I stand there staring at him with what I hope is pure annoyance, he stares back unfazed by my attitude. He knows I have to rinse off at some point and he is ready to wait. "Do I get to wash you too?", I wonder.
He shakes his head.
"I don't get to touch you?"
He shakes his head once more.
I cross my arms wondering what kind of game he's playing. I'm not enjoying myself. I roll my eyes moving under the water to rinse off. He pulls me back when Im done moving me to the wall, "Be a good girl and don't move", he kisses my forehead then reaches for a wash rag to wash himself off. My annoyance is growing as I watch him purposely wash himself slowly.
I'm pissed by the end of the shower. He's true to his word about me not touching myself. He puts on my lotion and deodorant, he picks out my underwear helping me put them on. He even chose my outfit and dresses me.
He then dresses himself and packs our clothes back into our suit case. "I think Alexis is in the livingroom waiting for us. Are you ready?".
I can only nod. I have never felt so unsatisfied in my life and I'm hating every moment of it. Chris holds his hand out for me to take then leads us to the front where sure enough Alexis is in the livingroom watching television. "Bout time you guys came out, I was really getting bored".
"Sorry, over slept", Chris explains.
Alexis turns the television off before grabbing her things. We are ready to go. We check out of the hotel and drive to Troy's house. I look out the window trying to get my attitude under control before I see Jaden but it's hard to do with Chris holding my hand so he can run his thumb over my knuckles. He even kissed my ring finger making me squeeze my already balled up fist tighter into a ball.
I figured out his game.
This is punishment.
For Damien and not making love to him last night. I wonder if it will always be like this when I do something he doesn't like. Am I even ok with this kind of treatment. Do I want a possessive, envious husband. We'll have to talk about this when we're alone.
He pulls up to Troy's house and my attitude hasn't changed. Actually it got worse when I thought about this morning and how it could have gone in so many different directions. Like he could have told me he was mad at me for starters, we could have talked about it and I would have apologized about Damien.
That is our main issue.
Last February on my final date with Damien before he left for Seattle Chris popped up in town to surprise me and take me out himself but it didn't work like he had planned, I was already out. Chris went as far as to track my phone to crash my date.
I remember it like it was yesterday. Damien and I were sitting at our table waiting for our drinks to arrive. This being our third date I had grown comfortable with him and I secretly hoped this night would end with us in his hotel room. I was realing from Damien's question about if I was an alcoholic when I noticed Chris standing at the entrance of the restaurant. Our eyes met and he walked to our table making my insides heat up instantly. I shot a look at Damien not sure what to say when Chris plopped down beside me.
Damien frowned and Chris ignored him completely, "Hey baby, fancy seeing you here". I knew he was doing this on purpose and that annoyed me, plus he called me baby in front of Damien and that made it look like we were in some type of relationship that wasn't there. Or so I thought.
Keeping a straight face I turned to Chris with the mind set to lay into him for being so rude but I controlled it, "Yes. Fancy seeing you here, Chris this is Damien. Damien this is Chris, my best friend", I really hoped they both picked up on how I stressed best. Chris had to aknowledge him then but his eyes stayed on me adding to my annoyance.
I turned from him and I think that finally made him see he was doing somthing wrong. He turned his attention to Damien and held his hand out, "I know who you are".
That statement caused my body to overheat. I had told him about Damien and he told me he was going to look into him, I hoped for the sake of everything that is green on this earth he was joking and now I knew he wasn't. I refused to look at Chris, I kept my eyes locked with Damien's and all I read was confusion. He didn't even reach out to shake Chris's hand. The waiter came with our drinks and asked if Chris needed one. He declined making the waiter leave.
Chris took his hand back unfazed. "Pleasure to meet you Damien", he said mockingly. My heart fell into my stomach and I found it hard to breath. Damien's eyes hardened as they finally moved to my face. I didn't know how to diffuse this situation, Chris has never out right embarrassed me like this.
"What are you doing here", I finally managed after a few awkward moments of silence.
Chris got comfortable beside me, picking up my silver wear so he could play with the fork. "I wanted to hang out tonight but imagine my surprise when I found out you were already out".
I shrugged not seeing his point, "Okay, am I supposed to be sorry about that?", I wanted to know why he felt the need to intervene in my business like my family.
Chris ignored me and leaned forward on his arms, "What do you plan to do with my sweet Gabby? Take her back to your hotel? Have your way with her making her catch feelings for you then leave tomorrow never to speak to her again?".
This was totally unacceptable and I was going to say just that when Damiem finally spoke up, "That's our business and by the looks of it she's not yours. She wouldn't be out with me if she was".
I couldn't look at Chris but I felt his mood go south, "I don't give a damn if she is out with you. She's my best friend and it's my job to protect her from assholes like you". I most definitely couldn't look at him then or I was going to loose my composure. How dare he ruin this date for me, all I wanted to do at that moment was crawl under a rock and never come out.
Damien was very calm with his reply, "The only asshole here is you. Look at her, she's so embarrassed she can't even look at you", he also leaned forward on his arms, "If she wants me, she can have me. I'm not going to say no to her, I want her just as much". That made Chris shut up and turn to me. I was fumbling with my fingers, my face was on fire with embarrassment. Chris took my fingers and pulled them to his lips but I still wouldn't look him. I just couldn't.
I felt like suck a child. These men were about the same age which was older than me. My embarrassment went down a couple notches when Damien said he wanted me. I looked up to find him staring at me with bright gray eyes. They weren't as hard and I knew he meant I could have him if I wanted him, I was happy he still wanted me after this stunt Chris pulled.
I took a deep, deep breath before I finally looked at Chris. Actually I looked at his nose, I hadn't gathered that much strength to look him in the eye. "Can you please leave. I will talk to you tomorrow". Chris gawked at me.
I bit the inside of my lip hoping he wouldn't make this any harder than he already had. His hand snaked around my neck and he pulled my forehead to his lips, I didn't pull away. I actually reveled in the feel of his lips on my skin. He pulled away and stood up wishing us a good date and he left but I knew he didn't really leave. Chris likes to hover.
I sigh as I push the door open, that was the worst date I had ever been on although it ended the way I wanted. I hear Chris and Alexis' doors close and we go to knock on Troy's door. He answers the door fully dressed and I wonder if he's going somewhere. I hadn't told him I was coming in.
"Hey, that was fast. I really wasn't expecting you to be here", he let us in and leads us to the living room where Jaden is playing. He sees me come around the corner and he runs to me. I hold my arms open until they're around him, I've missed him so much.
"Hey Chris. Alexis", Troy greets taking his place behind me.
Chris nods his head and Alexis waves, "Let me see him", she says holding her arms out for Jaden. I give him to her and he goes willingly. I smile at the way he stares at her like he doesn't know who she is. I turn to Troy still unsure how to go about this conversation.
"We need to talk", I start.
Troy nods and sits down on the couch. I sit too while Chris and Alexis get chairs. How am I going to start this off. I really wasn't expecting an audience.
I then wish I wasn't annoyed with Chris so I can hold his hand. Taking a deep breath I begin, "So, I'm moving to New York. Jaden is coming with me of course and I was thinking you could come too". The room is so quiet you can hear a pin drop.
"Interesting. Why do you want me to go with you?", he asks.
"Because I personally feel Jaden would be a lot happier with both his parents in his life at the same time instead of in two different states. I will help you find a place and get into the school of your choice and the schedule would be like you have Jaden for a week then on Sunday we switch off and I have him for a week".
Troy listens to my idea and it looks like he's going with it but he has to say so. I know he wants to move to South Carolina but I'm thinking about the well being of our child and the fact I'll have to follow Chris where ever he wants to move.
I look to Chris who now has Jaden. Jaden really did like him, I notice that makes Troy antsy. "So what do you think?", I wonder.
I really want this to work out so I guess I have to tell him why I'm moving to New York in the first place, "Also, Chris and I are getting married", that really catches Troy's attention, he looks to Chris meeting his green gaze.
"Is that so?", he ask.
"Yes but I would really like it if you are a part of Jaden's life full time".
Troy looks back to me scratching his chin, I hope he sees the opportunity in this. Jaden gets down out of Chris's lap and comes to me wanting me to pick him up. It feels so good to have my baby back in my arms. I kiss his forehead and cheeks as I hug him close, I missed him so much and I am finally going to be able to give him the life he deserves. He'll have two loving daddies and in time a little brother. I kiss his head again.
"You'll help me find a place?", Troy finally said.
I look to him nodding my head, "And anything else you may need".
He nodes his head again, "Okay, for Jaden".
I can't help the look of surprise on my face, "Really?".
He smiles a smile that says he has a lot more on his mind but he isn't going to share it with me in front of everyone. Chris stands then, "I'm glad you made this decision Troy, Jaden will be a lot happier with both his parents in his life at the same time". I guess it's time for us to go. I give Jaden to Troy so he can give him a hug good bye. "When will you be ready to move?", Chris asks.
We are all standing now about to head to the door. "Um, I don't know how long it will take to find a place", Troy answers.
Chris smiles, "In the building we live in, there are other apartments. You can move into one of them so you and Jaden will be in the same place with no inconvenience". I stare at Chris a little surprised.
Troy stares at him for a second before he finally gave his thanks. "Great, I will set everything up and you can move in by the end of the week".
Chris takes Jaden from me and goes out to the car to put him in his carseat. I turn to Troy to give him my thanks offor making this easy on me. "I guess I'll see you by the end of this week. What are you going to do about your jobs?", I ask.
He shrugs, "Quit".
I give him a small smile, he hasn't been at his two jobs long but this step is a big step toward his future. I wave goodbye and head to the car feeling better than I did before. Everything is working out wonderfully. Chris and I just need to have a talk about his methods of dealing with his anger.
At the air port Chris, Jaden and I see Alexis off. I tell her I will be in contact with her about the wedding as I give her a hard hug. I have really missed her and I didn't get to spend a lot of time with her. She boards her plane with a final wave, then we watch her plane take off.
Chris takes my hand and leads the way to the jet. A flight attendant has set up Jaden's carseat and I place him in it before I sit down beside him. Chris sits across from us, his eyes on Jaden. I can see he is imagining him as his son. His eyes move to me making me smile, he is sorry for this morning but we are still going to talk about this. He can't treat me like that ever again. I dont care if we are arranged to be married.
