Justin sat there waiting for a reply from Wade or Heath and later got one but it wasn't from either, it was from Kelly.
"Hey! That was amazing...thanks for coming over!" she said
Justin looked at his phone and read the text and smiled lightly and replied back
"No problem. Thank YOU :)"
Moments later he got yet another text still from Kelly and he opened that text and read it too
"No problem, if you need more you know where I am ;)" she said
"I'll let you know :)" he said
Justin again sat there waiting for a text from Wade or Heath and he finally got one from Heath.
"I don't want to come back. You're right I am putting a strain between you and Lacey. Its better if I am gone. So you got your wish...I'm gone!" said Heath
Justin read the text then sighed and shook his head and replied back
"I was upset and you didn't hear the whole conversation obviously. Please come back? If Lacey wakes up she is going to ask about you again and if I tell her you're gone she's going to lose it" he said
Heath never replied to Justin and he began to get worried
"Heath! Please? Don't do anything to yourself!" he said
Finally he a text message from him once again
"Why do you care if I did? You've made it more than clear that you hate me and don't want me around and you're only pretending that you do care for Lacey" said Heath
Justin looked at Lacey and stood up and left to the waiting room and called Heath.
"Justin...just-" Heath answered as Justin cut him off
"I admit it, I get upset alot. But its because of what happened. I cant seem to shake the thought that you raped her out of my head. How you could just betray me like that. I cant wrap my head around her wanting you around but I think and try to understand why it is" he said
"Why?" asked Heath
"Because you were all she had before me. Had you not been there when she moved to Georgia she probably would have went back to her moms and who knows what could have happened then and I would have never met her. She needed help and you helped her, you got her a job, you got her in the ring training. You moved her in with you when she didn't have the money to live here and you helped her get on her feet" he said
"I did do that. I messed all that up too" Heath pointed out
"Not entirely. She still loves you and wants you around don't she?" he asked
"Yes but you don't" he said
"It doesn't matter what I want, my opinion doesn't matter. Lacey's does" he said
"It does to me" Heath said sadly
Justin heard the tone in his voice and his heart sank into his stomach and he slowly sat down.
"Why?" asked Justin
"Because I love you, you're my best friend. I'm sorry you were my best friend. That probably sounds sappy or weird but I dont mean it to sound weird you really do mean alot to me Justin. You were the best friend I ever had. I got friends yes but no one like you. Since all this happened I don't feel like I got friends at all anymore. I don't talk to anyone, hang out with anyone, go out anywhere. I lost the only people who ever meant anything to me because I was stupid and had an attraction to my best friends girlfriend, my best friend!. Seriously, what the fuck was I thinking? I should have fought it but something inside me took over and...I dont know I wasn't me, I dont know what happened. I wish I did!" he said
It was obvious to Justin that midway through what Heath was telling him he began to cry.
"Wait...you were in love with Lacey?" he asked
"Ugh! Fucking Christ Heath! Why cant you shut the hell up?" he questioned himself and began slamming his head into the steering wheel
"Heath.." he said lightly then heard the sounds of pounding
"Heath!" he said a little louder
After a moment it went quiet and it worried Justin and he looked around in the waiting room
"Heath? Answer me!" Justin said
Heath put the phone back to his ear again and sighed
"Its best if I don't come back" he said as he laid his head on the steering wheel
"No its not. Just...where are you? I'll come get you" he said
"Don't bother" said Heath
"No really I want to come get you, I'm worried about you. I don't want you hurting yourself" said Justin
"I'm fine" he said
"No you aren't you're breaking down and you don't sound like you are in any shape to drive" he said
"I just left home earlier, I'm fine I'll deal with it" said Heath
"Where are you going?" asked Justin
"I don't know...back to Miami...California...back to West Virginia...I just don't know. I just know I shouldn't be here. I've done too many bad things, you guys should have just let me die" he said
"No we shouldn't. Don't leave Heath, Lacey will be so upset if you go"
"All you care about is Lacey getting mad at you, you're not actually worried about me, you just don't want Lacey upset with you" said Heath
"No I don't want her upset at all. I know she cant handle it if she gets upset...she's weak, she might be up and everything but she's not in any way better. But that is not the reason Heath, we want you here. Please...just...come back" begged Justin
"No. I cant, I don't want to be somewhere that I'm not welcome...or wanted. I cant keep staying there and hurting you guys" Heath said
"Heath please, where are you? Just let me come talk to you" said Justin
Heath went quiet and looked around the parking lot where he was.
"Heath?" Justin asked
"Fine" said Heath
"Where are you?" he asked
"I'll come there" said Heath
"Okay, I'll be waiting" said Justin as he ended their call
Justin sat down in the chair next to Lacey and Lilly again waiting for Heath to arrive and he texted Wade that Heath was coming back. Minutes later Wade walked into the nursery and to Justin and he stood up and the two walked to the elevator to wait for Heath. They only had to wait for 5 minutes before he arrived and the three went into the waiting room. Wade began to notice Justin seemed to be in panic mode or something and was a little worried for him because he was looking a little pale.
"Okay look. I say alot of stuff, I don't always mean it, I say it when I am mad. I'm sorry. You don't have to keep leaving, there is no reason to keep going back and forth" said Justin
"I wasn't going to, this was my last time I honestly wasn't going to come back again" said Heath
"You live here Heath, we're all here. We're your friends Heath. Lacey will lose her mind if you leave. You're the closest thing to family she has here, you Lilly and Justin" said Wade
"Maybe...but I cant stay knowing I'm the cause of everyone's problems"
"You're not..." he sighed and cringed and made a sound like he was clearing his throat or choking
"You okay?" asked Wade
Justin nodded
"You're not causing everyone problems its the situations not you" he said
"Me being around is" Heath pointed out
"No its not. Seriously if you leave Lacey wont be able to handle it. She wants you here, I want you here even though I'm an asshole. I want you here. I think if you leave it will honestly kill Lacey and I cant bear the thought of losing her, I cant even stand the thought of losing Lilly and she isn't doing very well either and I cant...I cant lose them I cant I'll...I'll...I'll" Justin cringed again and his legs nearly gave out of him as he clenched his chest but Heath caught him
"Geez!" Heath said holding him up
Wade grabbed a chair and brought it close to them and Heath sat him down slowly.
"I'm alright" Justin whispered
"No you're not you did something similar to that earlier now tell us whats going on or I'll get a doctor and have them tell us whats going on" said Wade
Heath and Wade looked at Justin as he rubbed his face.
"No, I'm fine really. Just got tired maybe I need to eat or something" said Justin
"How long has it been since you ate?" asked Wade
"I don't know...yesterday?" he shrugged
"Then come on lets go get you something to eat" said Wade
"No I cant, I don't want to leave them" said Justin
"You need to eat and keep YOUR strength and stay healthy for them or you are going to end up in a bed and Lilly will be left alone if Lacey gets bad again" Wade reminded him
Justin sighed and shook his head
"I'll...I'll stay with them if you want me too. I'll call you if anything happens" Heath said
"I don't know" said Justin
"They'll be fine, Heath will be here and if something happens he'll let you know. Come on lets get something in your stomach" Wade said
"Fine" Justin said as he slowly stood up
Heath stood close to him in case he stumbled again but he got up fine.
"We'll go to the cafeteria that way you aren't too far from them" said Wade
"Okay" Justin said
"You guys can talk when we get back" said Wade
They three left the waiting room and Heath went into the nursery and Wade took Justin to the cafeteria. Heath sat down and looked at them and smiled and rubbed Lilly's head lightly instantly waking her up.
"Oops, sorry Lilly bug" he whispered
Lacey felt Lilly's movements and woke up herself and looked over at Heath
"You're back" she smiled
"Yeah" smiled Heath
"Where is Justin?" she asked
"Um, he was hungry so Wade took him to the cafeteria and I said I'd sit with you guys till he gets back" he said rubbing Lilly's head again
"I'm glad he did, he's been going back and forth to my room and to here I wonder if he even ate at all yesterday" she said
"Wade is making sure he gets something in his stomach now" Heath assured her
"Good" she said
"You feeling any better?" he asked
"Not really but I manage" she said
"Whats wrong?" he asked
"My back and stomach has been hurting today" she said
"Doctor said anything?" he asked
"She said I have a kidney infection. Its probably because I've been in bed so much barely moving and my blood pressure and the preeclampsia. I had no idea it was possible to get postpartum preeclampsia. They told me I was at risk for it when I was having issues with my blood pressure being high during the pregnancy but after I had no idea" she said shaking her head
"You should be resting" Heath said
"I am, I get to rest with her which is all I wanted all along" she smiled
Heath smiled and Lacey looked a Lilly and smiled at the way she was looking at Heath.
"You want to hold her?" she asked looking back at him again
"Sure" he said reaching to her
Lacey slowly sat up in the recliner and moved her to him and he cradled her into his arms and looked at her.
"Hey Lilly Haven" he smiled putting his finger into her hand and she gripped it lightly
"You're getting stronger everytime I see you I think" he smiled
"Yeah!" he said shaking her hand lightly
"You're going to be out of this hospital and in your own room before you know it. Wait till you see it, mommy came up with some pretty awesome ideas for your room. Hello kitty and princess, just like you!" he said as he started rocking her slowly
Lacey smiled watching them together, it was just something about the two of them, like they had formed an instant bond or something. Something she noticed while she was pregnant as well when Heath was around she kicked like crazy and was just all around more active. She was sure she was going to be born being Heaths but the DNA test results said she was Justin's so she no longer had to worry. Lilly slowly closed her eyes to go back to sleep as Heath kept rocking her slowly in his arms.
